what finally made your quit stick?

[aihfl]

Eh, don't think about Pauly. I got out of treatment in late July last year. I would have had about nine months. But as I posted over in the Newbies Nest, I don't feel entirely bad about it, because it opened the door for me to be able to make nice with my ex-wife.

[paulywogg]

Thanks Rusty and AI(we need to come up with a nickname for you)actually I was thinking of you this morning and remembering how you used to say you had an arrogant sort of attitude, I have the same problem, its not lack of self esteem I suffer from its almost like I think I'm the shit and am invincible, do you feel like that attitude sort ofinterfered recovery? I'm starting to think that's my case,I had a talk with hubs last night and told him I need his support, to get mad if I want to drink,he said he knows how stubborn I am and I'd probably drink more if he stepped in but he'll try,my son said something that just broke my heart,he's 18 and a wise old soul he said"it doesn't matter that you fell,the important thing is getting back up" love that kid,I need to work on being more humble but still not take any crap from people,this is a hard balance to get to

[Rusty]

I hear ya, Pauly...I have had to work hard at achieving balance in my life. So glad you're back posting. I miss you when you're gone. Good for you for enlisting hubby's help. How sweet of your son to reach out to you...guys don't usually do that. Lucky mom, you are. ;-)

[aihfl]

if I had been in the video drinking at the party I'd be puffy,red,bleary eyed,sloppy with mascara smeared,probably flirting with god knows who in front of my husband, chugging beers,rushing to puke,being loud and intrusive,the list goes on and on and none of it is romantic

No it's not romantic, but what you list is far more romantic than what I've been through. I counted up the number of times I've been committed to a detox facility or a psychiatric hospital and it is NINE times, most of them involuntarily. And while I never received a DUI (I can't believe I never did, now that I'm sober), I've been to jail twice for other alcohol related antics. That was my drinking/using world.

[paulywogg]

Today was a good day,i went to the dollar store to stock up on junk,then walmart,then me,Kell and Louie went on a search for Jersey Mikes sub's but her stupid GPS bitch landed us at the airport? Got off the freeway and ended up on the strip haha,finally found the place just up the street from my job,I got a turkey and provolone on wheat,then we decided to go to the Coffee Bean and I got a Mexican chocolate ice blended and a little carrot cake for us to split,sure the hell beats last Friday when I only left the couch to go buy beer! I'll take days like this over that also got 11,500 steps in so far

[Rusty]

Pauly, your post made me smile!!! Her stupid GPS Bitch!!! Hahahahahaha OMG woman, you have NO idea how funny you are. I am glad you had a fun AF day off. :-)

[Guitarista]

Lol on the GPS Pauly!

[Mick]

Pauly ..you asked the question about what made my quit stick?in 3 letters ..mwo..8 months prior to that I nearly died,eventually got it back to gether merrily drinking away...that was until the day before my birthday..woke up feeling not so clever (vodka n super strength lager)..then suddenly the little voice in my head siad what the fk are you doing?a lot of people put a lot of work into saving you ..and you are ruining it ..thru shame respect for them and the wish to quit I said thats it..
I then posted on mwo...3 people answered me straight away...Floss,Jacs and Byrdie...thru them and using all sort of things as a strategy..and here I will mention the drinktracker on here..it was great to see it filled in (yellow I think)when I wasnt drinking ..it then became a challenge...another thing I did was copy the post that Mario put up about drink being your friend etc..I had it on my phone in my car in my wallet everywhere...I also had a diary and wrote every single thing down..when I thought I wanted a drink I would write down the benefits of having /not having one..until the craving went....surfing the wave..

[paulywogg]

Day 9 feeling fine I can do this goddammit!

[Pavati]

Whoot, Pauly! Yes, you can!

What made mine stick was fully letting go. Admitting to myself that I HAD to quit. Giving in and accepting that fact, and then doing everything within my power to make sure that was true. And once I had done that, I had to take all of the help I could get.

You got this!
Pav

[paulywogg]

Day 4 and feel like a whore(wanted it to ryme) so that's 3 different relapses since I picked up again in March,how many more promises can I make to myself? How many times can I put my foot down,say no drinking no matter what? Only to drink and feel miserable,not only miserable from the alcohol itself but the aftermath of breaking my commitment to myself,its getting ridiculous, it has been ridiculous, I'm soooo stupid,I was carrying around an emergency antabuse in my purse to pop whenever I got the urge to drink,did I use it?hah!obviously not!!! That stuff makes me feel weird but drinking makes me feel weirder,so anyways that's where I'm at

[Byrdlady]

Pauly just thought I pop in and say .
This forum can offer a little. you need more
it used to offer a lot of choices a while ago ..meds holistic hypnotherapy as roberta intended it to be ..
its been taken over by AA types
you can change but not here
you have been here a long time as I have been too..the best thing i ever did is
leave here
cut ties and Im sure you will stay sober posting here just keeps reminding you constantly of drinking
Take a 30 daY BREAK FROM MWO Byrd lady mick and Lav all of them
they keep reminding you for their own drinking history there is NO present moment ..they constantly live in the past..they have to they have no other idea of how to remain sober..
break free for 30 days from MWO
do it it works
you can always come back
look at Det he is seeking other ways
Love reg

This is like taking dieting advice from a 600 pound man. Those that can, do. Those that can't, criticize. B

[Mick]

Hi Reg...welcome back mate...havent seen you on here for a while..hows things doing with you?all good?hows the no drinking going?should be racking up the numbers now buddy...take it easy and have a good one

[Mick]

Im good Mick thanks for asking
hope you are good to
racking the numbers up like you
take care

good for you..glad you are getting the numbers up mate well done ..thats what its all about, beating the devious demon drink..

[aihfl]

I sense a crucifixion coming on ,,,,,, the ruling romans of this thread are gearing up .
any way Pauly please visit nes new forum,check it out for youre self ..you can move on from here

No Reggie, people are critical of you because you're an ass. I remember all too well the nasty personal messages you sent me when I was here under the username "Alky." You may claim to be a 90K man, but your command of spelling and grammar (or rather lack thereof) as it pertains to the English language makes me want to cough "bullshit" into my hand. So, either you're just not all that educated, or you're drunk (I look back at my drunk texts and emails and shudder) and I'm going to guess it's the latter.

I got sober at AA. Does AA have a monopoly on sobriety? No. The Big Book even says that. Have I met repellent people at AA? Of course. I also meet repellent people at work, at the grocery store, on the roads and highways, the list goes on and on. All I can share is the positives I have gained from my experience in AA and what keeps me sober.

I'm going to say to you what I've said to others. If the new forum is so great, go there and stay there. And sober up. All the baclofen in the world isn't going to "make" you stop drinking. You're not fooling anyone.