what finally made your quit stick?

[Samstone]

what finally made your quit stick?

Even though I am only 15 days into my no booze, about 4 or 5 years ago I had gone 3 years without a drink. What the heck happened? Same ol same ol that has happened to me many times in the past. The pattern being start off with one of two beers to 6-12 beers a night. The older I've gotten, the more I can't handle it; staggering, slurring and then every morning the guilt - hating myself routine and every evening on the way home, the stop for restart of the same deal.

i AM trying a different approach of affirmation, that is, I AM sober.
I AM so convinced that I AM better off NOW than this past existence. As Popeye used to say " I yam what I yam"

[Cleansed]

what finally made your quit stick?

I need to know how to stop

Taking Topamax for craving, lots of vitamins including Kudzu following the My Way Out program exactly. Need to start exercising though. Still drinking wine while I cook and watch the news at night... One glass leads to a bottle. I'm feeling a bit hopeless. What to do?

[NoSugar]

what finally made your quit stick?

Cleansed;1510503 wrote: Taking Topamax for craving, lots of vitamins including Kudzu following the My Way Out program exactly. Need to start exercising though. Still drinking wine while I cook and watch the news at night... One glass leads to a bottle. I'm feeling a bit hopeless. What to do?

Hi, Cleansed

Your pattern sounds much like mine and those of several other people on MWO. And guess what???? We are now cooking without drinking! It took awhile for it to be "fun" to cook again but now it is and I suspect the meals I prepare are better .

If you haven't already been there, the Newbies Nest is a great place to hang out while you make the final break from AL. The link is given below. There are people there at all stages who are ready and willing to offer advice, encouragement, a kick in the rear -- whatever you need!

I drank most of a bottle of wine on 1/23/13, as I had way too many times to count and finally had had it. I had been lurking on MWO and been attempting to reduce my intake on my own for several months. For some reason, that night was the tipping point. I had just had it with myself and acknowledged I could not do it by force of will alone.

I joined MWO, started posting, and have not had a drop of alcohol since. I did not taper off or use supplements other than L-glutamine which I had around because I had used it to get off sugar over a year ago.

I, and many other people here are proof that despite how hopeless it seems, this can be done!

Hope to see you over in Newbies Nest, Cleansed.

Have a good weekend, :h NS

[leila]

what finally made your quit stick?

thanks for sharing

I want to thank all those who have been participating in this thread. To hear about the first day or early on in your quits - is helping me tremendously.
:thanks:

[Doggygirl]

what finally made your quit stick?

For me it was finally accepting 100% (99.9% was not good enough) that I can NEVER drink safely. I am taking risks if alcohol crosses my lips. Maybe nothing bad will happen that time, but I never know when something out of control WILL happen. And more likely than not if I drink I will end up with bad consequences.

I attempted to quit here at MWO between July of 2007 and May of 2008 holding out some small hope in the back of my head that someday I could safely drink. Not. When I finally accepted the truth 100%, it became possible for me to stop.

Good luck.

DG

[leila]

what finally made your quit stick?

thanks for sharing

Thanks Doggy girl Can you tell me about how you detoxed? And the first few days of being sober? much care Leila

[Doggygirl]

what finally made your quit stick?

Hi Leila and :welcome: to My Way Out!

My quit had lots of starting and stopping but when I initially detoxed, I had been a daily drinker for about 30 years. So I was concerned (and rightfully so) about potential for seizures, etc.

Thankfully my husband was supportive. I printed the information about withdrawal (see the link in my signature line if you are interested) and reviewed it with my husband. He agreed to keep an eye on me for several days to just make sure I was OK, and take me to the ER or call 911 if he saw signs that I was not.

In my case, all was fine. I encourage everything to take withdrawal seriously though. Some folks don't realize that withdrawal from alcohol can be deadly.

Cutting back never worked for me because once I had one drink, I was having them all.

Good luck to you!

DG

[On.Bac]

what finally made your quit stick?

I quit everything because of terrible actions i had done due to drugs and alcohol. I won't go into what all i done, because you honestly wouldn't believe me.

Just imagine being a complete jerk that seeks out to run over the world, have his way regardless of consequence, almost going to jail, wrecking your cars, maxing credit cards out, creating drama where there is none, and doing things nobody in their right mind would even consider doing. I was pretty much insane. And please god, don't piss me off back then, i would go to the depths of hell to get revenge. If you think you've "went off" on people, trust me you haven't. At one point i had planned to put gasoline in a squirt gun and burn a guys house down. Was impulsive (not even strong enough to describe) and felt like nobody cared about me so fuckem, i couldn't let anything go. My mom wouldn't wash my girlfriends clothes, i said fuck you then and walked out, she came on the porch and i backed over her mailbox laughing at her. Spun out in her yard to fuck it up too.

Lying in the hospital fucked completely up, still having drug addict behaviors, eating handfuls of baclofen to ward off alcohol withdrawal (because i drank even on baclofen) and begging for pain shots. Came home, vowed to never drink, ate my oxycodone, stayed out of my mind and then PTSD hit. I sobered up, realized what a fucking moron i am and how everyone hates me and i hate myself, and it's been 6 months of working to make that right. I goto church, find that without drugs im more considerate and think back and am stunned at the way i acted, people i had for friends and how they didnt care i was in the hospital, continued to party. The ones that didn't hate me that is. I even told my cousin who was like a brother to me growing up that i would beat the fuck out of him if he pulled in my driveway, my uncle with polio i would blow his legs off and called my aunt a fat heifer. I lashed out at everyone on drugs and caused so much destruction. Now i'm left with unfathomable debt, medical bills, lost my beautiful car, and only have one friend.

I thank god for that last wreck (i even wrecked twice in 20 days) the last one i was real lucky to survive, or not be paralyzed. The car was demolished, the left rear tire broke the drivers seat. There was just no way i would have survived that if it would have hit any other way. I thank god to be alive and even though i slipp (and really want to go back) into my old mentality, i just think about what all it caused me. I could have easily went to prison for some of the things i done, and now i have all those memorys to remind me why i need to change my life and stay on track.

All i can think about is, i should be dead. I know i will kill myself if i go back to my old behavior, i was doing over 100mph last wreck, met a cop and decided to keep going. I don't want to be who i was. I don't really like who i am now nor the time i've wasted, but I'm working on it. I should have more and i keep comparing myself to my classmates who never slipped. My younger cousin is graduating college for a civil engineer. Some of my classmates are graduating their masters degree. I dropped out of school and only held a job for one year in my entire life and im 26.

I usually hate myself. I got my ged and started junior college in 2010, i've only completed 1/3 of my plan to graduate a 2 year school. I kept partying and mostly only took 1 or 2 classes at a time. I thought having fun was more important.

Now i've only made my life harder. I'm 26 with no wife, no kids, no job starting out like an 18 yo and feel pathetic every day i wake up sober thinking about all this. My credit is ruined, i'm broke, i dont have insurance, and i have debilitating anxiety.

These are reasons why i want to change my life. Because the life i was living wasn't what i had planned for myself growing up.

[Kradle123]

what finally made your quit stick?

Thank you so much for posting your story On. Bac.:l

I have a 14 year old son and I see some of your former self's mindset in him minus the AL & drugs...so far...

I am 51 and at 26 if I had figured out what clearly you have, I'd be rocking my world...
But it is what it is and I have no doubt at all that you will be accomplishing extroidinary things in the years to come,

Happy to be on your journey with you.
:h

[Nursie]

what finally made your quit stick?

Usually something terrible happens before I quit. I have tried several times, each with increasing success. For some unknown reason, I get my feet back under me and my self-esteem back up, and all of a sudden I decide I can control this stupid alcohol. Like its a puzzle that I just need to solve!

But it's not a puzzle. It's just a poison that leads to unspeakable regrets and some you don't even remember. This last time I blacked out. Vaguely remember some of what may have happened or it may have been a dream. Not sure. But my knees are scraped up and my foot is numb. (Wtf!) my child saw me passed out and my brother and husband carry me to the car. They stopped for ice cream on the way home with me passed out in the car. I shudder to the bone to think who may have seen me.
I woke up with that deep rumbling scalding regret and shame that I can never deal with again. I just cannot handle another relapse, so I have to make this quit stick.

[hiddengoal]

what finally made your quit stick?

kambob;1509696 wrote:
And perhaps worse, my day to day life had become so boring. I'd get up, go to work, come home, pour a glass of vino....and seven, eight or nine later wake up in my chair and stumble off to bed. That was the scope of my life: on weekends, I'd just start drinking earlier. I haven't made a fool of myself in many years....learned my lessons there, so if I had to be in company and drinking, I'd have just one glass and make a handy excuse to get home so I could continue drinking alone. What a life!

Wow...recognizable

Congratulations on your new Freedom!

[little beagle]

what finally made your quit stick?

What finally made my quit stick? Desperation. I couldn't live with myself any longer the way I was. I woke up hung over, broke, anxious and felt truly alone. My bank account was over drafted, again, my house was in a total wreck and I just couldn't even face what I had become anymore. A drunk, drug addicted loser. That was how I felt. I decided that no matter what I was going to change my circumstance. For good or bad. I considered killing myself seriously. I googled drugs to help alcoholics. That brought me to Kudzu. On the site there were customer reviews. In the reviews people mentioned MWO. I looked it up and that was the best thing I ever did. The response was immediate and overwhelmingly supportive. So here I am.
I live ODAAT. I am alcohol and drug free. I feel better then I have in years.
This is not my first attempt at freeing myself, but it is the first time I have had any support. And the support here is exactly what I need,

[neferkamichael]

what finally made your quit stick?

The next step down for me was squalid poverty. Today I'm 3 years 2 months sober.

[Kradle123]

what finally made your quit stick?

Nefer! WOW Applause, Applause :wd::wd:

Can you talk a little about where you were and where you are now? I know there is no instruction manual (well, aside from the tool box!) in rebuilding a life... but I find others experiences so helpful...especially when I feel hopeless.

Congratulations on a wonderful job and journey :l


PS: I finally figured out your Avatar name ! :H

[YouKayBee]

what finally made your quit stick?

So far TSM, but to start it I had to really want to find a way out, a way to beat the power alcohol had over me. That started in 2010 when I just became so fed up, and I knew that the deterioation of lifestyle which could happen if I carried on as I was, was unacceptable to me. In fact my then life was pretty much unacceptable.