what finally made your quit stick?

[BlondeAFAmbition]

what finally made your quit stick?

Hi everyone. It's been awhile since I've surfaced...(again, sigh). Today is the first sober day for me in months and months. I've been really touched and inspired by this thread...thank you for all who shared their stories. Since I joined MWO a few years ago...this is about my 5th time at really trying to rid my life of AL. This summer, I have gotten into the bad habit of drinking earlier in the day than 5PM...like noon on my days off, Sunday being the most challenging. And I've added vodka to he mix in addition to my usual bottle of wine a day at least habit, and Vodka really gets you drunk FAST. My reasons for quiting are all the obvious ones, like not waking up every morning feeling shitty and not remembering what you did the night before. Looking and feeling bloated, thirsty and tired and not getting the deep sleep that AL deprives you of. Making a fool out of myself in public...like last night for example...I won't even get into it but I actually knew when I woke up this morning that I just can't go on like this. My birthday is Friday...I haven't had a sober birthday since I was prolly 17 years old and I'll be 41. I pray for the strength to do it this year as I'm really sick of this life that revolves around AL. In just one night of being sober tonight...I feel good. Scared but good. I was able to clean the dinner dishes and kitchen instead of waking up to a mess. I was able to walk on the beach with my dog and look at the moon and put my feet in the water, all clear headed and grateful that I got through one day sober. I think I can do this. MWO has helped me in the past...I made it 6 months one time, so I know I have it in me. Good luck and peace to everyone out there with me

[K9Lover]

what finally made your quit stick?

Hi BlondeAF!

I remember you and have missed you :h Glad to see you back, although circumstances haven't been the best for you. The important thing is that you're HERE and you're trying again. You only fail when you give up. Read around the site, get over to the Newbies Nest and keep posting so we can get to know you again.
Welcome back!!!
K9

[FlyAway]

what finally made your quit stick?

BlondeAFAmbition;1543080 wrote: Hi everyone. It's been awhile since I've surfaced...(again, sigh). Today is the first sober day for me in months and months. I've been really touched and inspired by this thread...thank you for all who shared their stories. Since I joined MWO a few years ago...this is about my 5th time at really trying to rid my life of AL. This summer, I have gotten into the bad habit of drinking earlier in the day than 5PM...like noon on my days off, Sunday being the most challenging. And I've added vodka to he mix in addition to my usual bottle of wine a day at least habit, and Vodka really gets you drunk FAST. My reasons for quiting are all the obvious ones, like not waking up every morning feeling shitty and not remembering what you did the night before. Looking and feeling bloated, thirsty and tired and not getting the deep sleep that AL deprives you of. Making a fool out of myself in public...like last night for example...I won't even get into it but I actually knew when I woke up this morning that I just can't go on like this. My birthday is Friday...I haven't had a sober birthday since I was prolly 17 years old and I'll be 41. I pray for the strength to do it this year as I'm really sick of this life that revolves around AL. In just one night of being sober tonight...I feel good. Scared but good. I was able to clean the dinner dishes and kitchen instead of waking up to a mess. I was able to walk on the beach with my dog and look at the moon and put my feet in the water, all clear headed and grateful that I got through one day sober. I think I can do this. MWO has helped me in the past...I made it 6 months one time, so I know I have it in me. Good luck and peace to everyone out there with me

I am so happy that you are here! Strength and love and positive vibes to carry you through Friday. You can do this! :l

[BlondeAFAmbition]

what finally made your quit stick?

Thank you K9 and Fly! You guys are the best,keep up the good work and inspiration!

[paulywogg]

what finally made your quit stick?

Good stories here

[mauritiusdodo]

what finally made your quit stick?

Thank you for sharing your stories everyone I really hope one day I get to share mine!

[Foxy]

what finally made your quit stick?

Loved reading all your stories and advice let it me one day who has a long term quit.

[paulywogg]

I'll use this thread as my new journal,I don'twant to unlock the old one and tbh I don't know how anyways or if I even can,day 3

[Eloise]

spending 2 weeks in Florida for Mother's Day with my mother.
that did it for me, no more alcohol. i need all the brain cell I have and intend to keep them.

[paulywogg]

Day 4 blows,it always does,I've even nicknamed it "the day foursies" I've had 3 relapses in a month, most were uneventful I just listened to music on my phone especially"I can't feel my face" but even though nothing bad happened, I still just know that I don't want to live my life like that,Idrank with my mom brother when they were here,iI kept saying"I usually don't drink" I'm pretty sure they think I'm full of shit,that I probably drink every day of my life like before,whatevs, I know what I do,will this be the quit that sticks? Or will I keep making horseshit excuses for the rest of my life? I'm the only one that can decide that..

[NoraC]

Hey Pauly - yes, we are the only ones that can decide whether to pick up that drink or not. We just need to get it thru our brains that we don't want to do this. Hang in there girl - I'm right there with you.

[abcowboy]

Pauly, if you don’t have me on ignore yet, you probably will after you read this post, and that’s okay lol. I remember a couple of slips ago you commented to me that maybe it was time for some tough love or at least a swift kick in the backside. Well pull up your britches girl and bend over cause here it comes!

I think you know you should quit and I think you want to quit, but I think you are afraid to quit! Following your posts for the last year, you complain about your anxiety and that you don’t like or are uncomfortable with the prescription meds. I think you have yourself convinced that the only drug that can ease the anxiety is booze! That’s not good… I’m not going into the big long spiel of all the effects that alcohol has, and how bad it is for us, you already know that. What you need to do is find an alternative to help you deal with your anxiety and then you won’t be afraid to quit drinking. There are so many things, breathe control, meditation, yoga, prayer, and of course, drugs. But you need to see a professional about the drug issue, we can’t help you there.

I hate seeing you like this, it saddens me. As I said a day or so ago, I won’t give up on you, ever! :hug: If I had, I’d have put you on ignore long ago so that I didn’t need to read your posts and watch you struggle.

If nothing else, phone one of us when the anxiety comes on so strong, not just text, or message, but actually phone one of us to help you through it! Hell, you can even call me collect if you want! You have so many here that love you and want to help you just like I do, why won’t you let us??

And I can tell you from my heart that one day you will find the quit that sticks, you just need to get rid of some emotional baggage first….

[abcowboy]

Oh yea, and what made my quit stick? I damned near killed myself drinking! I want you no where near that stage Pauly :hug:

[paulywogg]

I'm here,I'm being honest,would it be better to hide the relapses and go on posting like everything is ok? No,how would that benefit me? I do see a doctor for the anxiety,if you want to put me on ignore Cowboy,then do it,you've always been a wonderful support to me but I understand wanting to say enough is enough, I've said it to myself again and again,wish iI could put me on ignore haha,I opened this thread just so I could have a place to vent and cuss I didn't want to start another one, I'm just working on myself atm

[abcowboy]

I love that you are honest Pauly! I wasn't when I first joined, but it took me a few tries as well! I'll never quit supporting you, and I'll never put you on ignore either! I just want to help, any way I can! Just tell me how... :hug: