its only that idiot again

[Bella]

I was doing so well. I told my husband tonight wot happened in my past childhood. I told the therapist. Its time. Im drinking coffee. I feel like im going mad. It was in the past. My husbands pissed drunk. Im not. I had 3 drinks. I want to be ok. But im scared. I told my best friend thru txt too..she lives miles away but wer buddies. Nevermind. Its good to be honest. Xxx

[3June2013]

its only that idiot again

bella does it feel better getting it out? I hope so! You can start day one again. It's that simple. Start over now. We're here to help.

[Bella]

its only that idiot again

It feels confusing. X

[3June2013]

its only that idiot again

When are you seeing your therapist again?

[Bella]

its only that idiot again

Im never angry. I dont do anger. But im so pissed off. Why did i have this put on me.? Im a nice person. Why? All i have ever done is worry about other people.

[Bella]

its only that idiot again

Next wednesday 7.30pm.

[3June2013]

its only that idiot again

I wish I could answer those questions for you bella. Try not to dwell if it is making you sad or angry. Try to find something calming to do? I am sorry but I am heading out to work for a 12 hour shift. Maybe check into the newbies nest and see if anyone is around? Stay strong bella, drinking won't make it go away. It makes it worse.