Army Thread Wednesday 24th July

[RunningCourage]

Army Thread Wednesday 24th July

I have been thinking all the little things that really get on my fecking goat. Sometime I will list them for you. But, in the meantime, I have come to the conclusion that...





I am misanthropic.... :egad: :H

[InChains]

Army Thread Wednesday 24th July

i overthink everything, i seem to remember thats why i drink, i take a break from thinking at all for a while haha

[JackieClaire]

Army Thread Wednesday 24th July

RunningCourage;1535958 wrote: I have been thinking all the little things that really get on my fecking goat. Sometime I will list them for you. But, in the meantime, I have come to the conclusion that...

I am misanthropic.... :egad: :H

You like me though, she says in a tiny voice.

I actually read that as you were getting a goat. More coffee me thinks.

[JackieClaire]

Army Thread Wednesday 24th July

I'm glad that I do the volunteering stuff on a Tuesday. There are a lot of good people out there.

I always thought the world hated me and it turned out it was me who hated the world. Took me a while to work that one out I tells ya.

[RunningCourage]

Army Thread Wednesday 24th July

mollyka;1535965 wrote: I may be wrong but I'm guessing your Tuesday work is as good and better than doing AA -- it keeps you in touch - as AA does for me --
and omg yes --- the 'hate' thing was the wrong way round for me too. I also always thought that people would automatically either dislike me or dismiss me - and that I had to be 'more' than ME for people to like me........ now I actually don't care ---- as much ---- what people think of me..... but in the main I think people are quite inclined to like others unless we give them a reason to dislike us...... I do still 'people please' a bit tho.... working on it!!!!

OHHHHHH..... YES.

[JackieClaire]

Army Thread Wednesday 24th July

mollyka;1535965 wrote: I may be wrong but I'm guessing your Tuesday work is as good and better than doing AA -- it keeps you in touch - as AA does for me --
and omg yes --- the 'hate' thing was the wrong way round for me too. I also always thought that people would automatically either dislike me or dismiss me - and that I had to be 'more' than ME for people to like me........ now I actually don't care ---- as much ---- what people think of me..... but in the main I think people are quite inclined to like others unless we give them a reason to dislike us...... I do still 'people please' a bit tho.... working on it!!!!

And we get chocolate and biscuits from the punters.

I still people please but these days it's only a bit of baking. The first time I said no to something I wondered where the voice came from. Imagine my surprise when I realised it was me. I AM NOT A DOOR MAT any more.

[JackieClaire]

Army Thread Wednesday 24th July

Sorry Incheroo, I did see ya there but got carried away with me own prattling:hallo:

[JackieClaire]

Army Thread Wednesday 24th July

I agree with a every single word,Molls. You're a lovely lad,D'arsey. Perfect for our Jenz except she's courting at the moment and hasn't had a chance to turn down Prince Harry yet.

It's starting to make sense, this keeping it in the day thing. It's not just an AA and NA. I hear it from the CBT counsellors, the key workers, in fact all of the workers in the addiction business.

[JackieClaire]

Army Thread Wednesday 24th July

mollyka;1535971 wrote: FFS --- and this is the TRUTH ---- was just contemplating making scones to cheer poor Martin up in Garristown --- he's truly shaggin MISERABLE up there --- caged lion behaviour:H Now, am I just cheering him up or am I 'people pleasing':H
I'm a long way behind you in all this lark - so I'm still not great with 'no' --- what I have learnt lately tho is --- it's ok to say nothing ---- I don't have to agree --- but neither do I need to disagree --- I CAN just 'listen' --- it's a mighty new gift that one!!!!
Still not confident enough in my own opinions to do the 'no' thing too well

No, no, noooooooooooo let me make scones for Martin. Then he'll like me more than you.

It's within the last couple of years that I said my first no. They wanted me to do an extra shift at work and tbh I just couldn't be arsed. Also the first time I didn't come up with a rather extravagant excuse for not doing it. Funnily enough the place was still standing when I got there for me next shift.

[JackieClaire]

Army Thread Wednesday 24th July

At least we have a whole day now. Not days broken up by being hungover or hammered.

Aye get the sensible stuff out the way then dance like there's no one's watching.

[sweetpea29]

Army Thread Wednesday 24th July

Good morning to all :hallo:

Deep thoughts this morning guys Cogs of me brain still on the go-slow, methinks a gallon of coffee is required.

Molls -Love what you say bout making ourselves happy with our today selves 'warts n all' -makes so much sense. I've always since can remember been riddled with insecurity re my looks, size, intellect blah, blah.... Constantly comparing myself to others and putting myself down. Im more aware now how often I do it and am trying to challenge the negative and sometimes downright silly thoughts but it's hard to change a lifetime of learned thoughts and behaviours.


Been thinking bout last nights thread and how ive not replied to last few texts/missed calls from some friends/family- have become increasingly reclusive from them all for no logical reason I can think of- so am gonna make an effort today to txt/call some of them- hope they're still speaking to me!

Watched a great filum over weekend bout the tsunami and how one family survived- true story, very moving and made me rethink the whole worrying about silly shite (like sore feet!) and restored faith in human nature.


BTW Jacks my sweetpeas have started blooming - lovely shade of pink n devine scent am almost sure they were supposed to be white but nomatter!!

[sweetpea29]

Army Thread Wednesday 24th July

mollyka;1535979 wrote: God yeah --- at the worst of my drinking - I used to lose whole weekends --- not necessarily drinking all the time, but cos my sleep pattern was all over the gaff, I'd fall asleep on the couch mid-day - then wake up and it would be getting dark.... the day gone, but time for wine or vodka or whatever ---- just fecking HORRIBLE to remember that!!
Off to dance with the scones:H
Laters lovelies ----- PLEASE will someone be in Skiverville --- 8 hours in the bog.... even with the lovely Martin...... oh gawd

Throw a few scones this direction and I may stick around Molls!

Hafta do bit a sensible shit today like laundry, grocery shop, make appoint. wit mortgage adviser blah, blah... but hope to be about

[sweetpea29]

Army Thread Wednesday 24th July

RunningCourage;1535958 wrote: I have been thinking all the little things that really get on my fecking goat. Sometime I will list them for you. But, in the meantime, I have come to the conclusion that...





I am misanthropic.... :egad: :H

:H Had to consult MrGoogle on that word MrD'Arsey!!

Give us your list, I'd imagine there will be stuff on it that we would all agree on!

[JackieClaire]

Army Thread Wednesday 24th July

Sweetypea!!!!!
Welcome home.

[sweetpea29]

Army Thread Wednesday 24th July

mollyka;1535981 wrote: Xpost little Peapie!!!
The 'tricks' we can learn are really quite easy to make stuff happen. My roomie from Aiseiri was in her mid-forties - she all her life wanted a child - desperately --- by being child-less she felt a failure... she dwelt on it, she obsessed about it - ultimately she drank herself into alcoholism on it. She learnt the tools to meditate, to be aware of what we can't change...... she went into Aiseiri - even at that age, still hoping to become a mother...... now - well it took her till now..... she doesn't think about her childless state at all -- she just accepts it and now is freed up to look at what she DOES have ----- that was amazing to witness from the outside tbh!!!
By comparing ourselves to others --- there'll always be the ones with the perfect family, relationship, bank balance, looks etc. ---- it's just a recipe for discontent --- and ALSO ---- what we SEE that others have, isn't always the case..... ya know??
Learn contentment with what we have - it makes US nicer people cos we're happier, and in a funny little way, I find little minor 'miracles' happen when I'm happy......
I'M GONE!!!!!!!

Thanks Molls I hear and agree with what you're saying-- working at the learning contentment bit