Hey people. Never thought I would do this but here goes.
I'll cut right to it since my story is very much the same. I am a successful person some would say by looking on the outside. I have a very nice paying job, great family and lovely girlfriend . Lately something in my body has changed where drinking over the weekend debilitates me for 3 to four days. I suspect I've become very depressed as a result, when I try to stop. I mostly drink with friends fri and sat nights..but the anxiety has become so great that I find I need to drink Sundays to cope with the upcoming work week an to deal with hangovers. This leads to many Mondays and Tuesdays becoming absolutely useless. Luckily I am on my own a lot at work and can deal with it silently. But this is no way to live. I've always been very athletic and so not being in a proper gym routine compounds my depression. The day after drinking I have sever panic attacks. When it first happened I went to the er because I thought I was having a heart attack. I'm 27 now and it first happened at 24. The panic attaks are very real physically. My heart rate skyrockets, my brain tingles o the point where I think I may have a seizure although I never have, my throat closes up..it's all very physical and scary. The feeling of impending death I would call it. After abstaining for 4 days I feel invincible again and fall into the same trap. My doc says to see a therapist but I feel it is a waste. I know what's wrong, I hope, it is the drinking. Only I can fix it. I'm sort of rambling but I just needed to get this out and see if anyone out there experiences this as well. I've never taken pills or ever have done any drug at all including weed. But I feel my body is breaking down after the hard drinking college years and mid 20s. Any reply here will help me. Especially if anyone has overcome this. I'd LOVE to just get to the point where I can have two or three beers on a sat night and stop. But I'm def not there yet. I have a great life and don't want to flush it away because I feels myself slipping faster. Thank you guys
I'll cut right to it since my story is very much the same. I am a successful person some would say by looking on the outside. I have a very nice paying job, great family and lovely girlfriend . Lately something in my body has changed where drinking over the weekend debilitates me for 3 to four days. I suspect I've become very depressed as a result, when I try to stop. I mostly drink with friends fri and sat nights..but the anxiety has become so great that I find I need to drink Sundays to cope with the upcoming work week an to deal with hangovers. This leads to many Mondays and Tuesdays becoming absolutely useless. Luckily I am on my own a lot at work and can deal with it silently. But this is no way to live. I've always been very athletic and so not being in a proper gym routine compounds my depression. The day after drinking I have sever panic attacks. When it first happened I went to the er because I thought I was having a heart attack. I'm 27 now and it first happened at 24. The panic attaks are very real physically. My heart rate skyrockets, my brain tingles o the point where I think I may have a seizure although I never have, my throat closes up..it's all very physical and scary. The feeling of impending death I would call it. After abstaining for 4 days I feel invincible again and fall into the same trap. My doc says to see a therapist but I feel it is a waste. I know what's wrong, I hope, it is the drinking. Only I can fix it. I'm sort of rambling but I just needed to get this out and see if anyone out there experiences this as well. I've never taken pills or ever have done any drug at all including weed. But I feel my body is breaking down after the hard drinking college years and mid 20s. Any reply here will help me. Especially if anyone has overcome this. I'd LOVE to just get to the point where I can have two or three beers on a sat night and stop. But I'm def not there yet. I have a great life and don't want to flush it away because I feels myself slipping faster. Thank you guys
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