Well i've made it to 90 days AF. I've done this once before but feel stronger this time.
I've been having really strong cravings this week. I only used to drink whiskey/ vodka/ rum.
I used to make super strong drinks cos i adore the taste. That's what i've been craving. The strong taste of it as it burnt my throat going down. How bloody stupid is that?? Also i've been trying to lose weight and i've lost a stone and a half ( 21 lbs ) in these 90 days. I am really pleased about it but because i'm always hungry my craving for alcohol has been intense too. On reflection i don't think u should quit alcohol and diet at the same time.
It's been a tough 90 days but well worth it. Hangovers feel like a distant memory and i sleep like a baby. All anxiety has gone too I even called in on an old drinking buddy the other night to pick something up. There was a houseful. They were all drinking pints of vodka and snorting coke. The music was on and everyone was laughing and dancing in the garden. I couldn't take my eyes off all the vodka bottles strewn everywhere. I sniffed the bottle and it smelt like bathroom cleaner! I haven't had a vodka for over a year now i know why. U may aswell pour bleach down your throat. I totally and utterly lost my mind on that stuff.
I walked away after about half an hour with mixed feelings. I do miss all the fun we had on the crazy nights but it wasn't worth me heading to an early grave for. I know for a fact i would of been seriously ill by now.
So onwards and upwards i shall go. I cannot express enough how much this website has helped me. I know i should post more instead of lurking and i should support others more too. If anyone is reading this who is struggling believe me when i say "if i can do it ANYONE can!" You have to love yourself ultimately. We are all worth it!
Love to you all xxx
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