What it feels like.

[southernbelle47]

What it feels like.



Yeah!!!
I'll never be lonely again!
Hey Bubba! We've got company coming!
The answers to all your questions are
Yes
Yes
and why yes!
And BTW...
I am old enough!
And proud of every gray hair...
I've earned every one of them!

[gabby]

What it feels like.

Macks.......thank you for this thread. Quite a good one. Thanks very much. I have really enjoyed everyones response.

[gabby]

What it feels like.

uuhhmmmm.........Nancy......how old are you?

[gabby]

What it feels like.

hee hee

[InnerStrength]

What it feels like.

I get quiet, edgy, like I am waging an internal battle on myself. There is DEFINITELY an internal dialogue that goes on - should i or shouldnt I? I go through the excuses etc. Ugh. And then there is extreme grumpiness/anxiety etc. It can really be hard!
Jenneh

[mdianeo]

What it feels like.

I feel deprived when every one else can enjoy a drink and I can't. Epecially, that nice margarita with Mexican food--that's a biggie for me. Margarita--a real treat and so acceptable here in Texas. Also, so many of my friends enjoy the fine wine and do comparisons of taste and texture with our nice meals. I do enjoy to cook and sip.
But on a regular day I get downright pissy with my spouse and so critical as he drinks WAY too much also. Right-- like I've been such an angel!

[InnerStrength]

What it feels like.

Oh yeah and the deprivation thing is big too. HUGE!!!!

[Eliziby]

What it feels like.

Hey Macks, Lisa, Barb, Nancy & all the others who posted an answer to what's it like. I think all of you have been in my shoes or the other way around. Like you, when the cravings start, I feel deprived, nervous, edgy, and angry with myself for letting this awful adiction get a strong hold on me a person of very strong will. Why didn't I stop before that happened. Like Nancy, the spiritual side of me never intended it to go this far, but the human side of me liked the escape it provided from that period of my life that I was going through at the time. We are not puppets with God holding the strings. No matter how strong we are spiritually, we are human with weaknesses and God lets us choose our actions. When I first started MWO, I would just tough out that time of day when the cravings hit, but later I found (this may sound a little silly to some of you) that keeping my hands busy helped. The problem is not knowing what to do with yourself if you're not drinking. I have some little hand help electronic games I play, or I crochet, or visit this site. Anything to keep me busy till it passes. Now I'm wondering if I will have to go out and buy new games. I'm not sure the ones I hove now will outlast the cravings. ...:bonkers: Love you all, Liz

[Mrs Macks]

What it feels like.

Thank you everyone so much for your input, I know it is so hard to explain and understand...but i'm getting there, and still trying my best to support Macks in the best way i can. I love you all so much, keep supporting each other...
Lots and Lots and Lots of Love :h and Hugs :l coming your way...
Lisa XX

[Mrs Macks]

What it feels like.

Sorry guys...I've bumped this back up to the top......I'm pretty devastated tonight :upset: I've come to a conclusion for myself to understand....Macks is having a tough time lately, I went upstairs tonight and cried my heart out (it was a cry like when i lost my nana i am heart broken) I sat in the bathroom and started thinking alcoholisium is like cancer, the sort of cancer that stays and is not going to go away...no matter how hard you try. I got told a month ago my cousins wife has cancer she is the same age as me..(30) and she is a doctor, she has wrote loads of books about cancer and now she has it and its not going to go away..:upset:

Macks said to me earlier tonight, i don't have to live with it....and i said yes i do because i want you, life would'nt be worth living if it was'nt for my Macks we need each other, like a fish needs water...

Love you all, a heart hurting Lisa XX :l

[SKendall]

What it feels like.

Hi Lisa, thanks for your honest but painful post. It makes me sad that you are hurting and reminds me that I may have done the same thing to my family members. I hope you stay close to all of during this time. Moderation for some is not feasible, while others do fine. Hang in there girl.:h

[Mackeral]

What it feels like.

It feels like shit when i dont drink.....And it feels like shit when i do drink.

[ScoobyDoo]

What it feels like.

Macks, at least when you don't drink, you're not hurting the person who loves you most.

You need to do it for yourself, for sure, but maybe this might help add to your will to kick it.

*hug* to both of you
Doo

[Mackeral]

What it feels like.

I do appreciate your advice and i know you are right...But i drink maybe once or twice a week...The rest of the week i struggle ,,like mad...I was gonna try and explain then but you know exactly what i mean...I am Drinking now..And i know i have gotta think twice before i type anything...

I know Lisa is tired of my problem...Not me...Drink...But i know that the 2 are the same...It scares me if i think too much about it...

I need a break from me....So what must lisa think sometimes?

[ScoobyDoo]

What it feels like.

And it must be hard with Lisa being an Olympic level swimmer.

I actually think for most 'problem drinkers' it's not the actual alcohol itself but what the alcohol does to the person - affecting those around them - that is what makes alcohol a problem in the first place. I don't think that is measured by quantity consumed or quantity of nights/days per week.