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[magic]

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Morrison.....

I didn't mean to sound so rude and blunt. If you're nuts, then so am I.

i just saw that you were still here as I was typing and I wanted you "talk" to you before you left. I can't type as fast as Boots.

Your BP is probably sky high, please go and find a doctor.

m. xx

[Niblet]

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I echo everything that everybody else is saying Morrison !! This is not to be taken lightly atall... You could be a statistic... We don't want that... We all love you very much !!!

I'm sorry I didn't stop in yesterday as I was planning, but after work when getting home I was met at the front door with DOG SHIT literally all over my entrance and dining/kitchen area... I let the "girls" out and then said a prayer that there was none on the carpeted areas of the home... My prayers were answered.... God IS good !
An hour later I finished cleaning, dissinfecting etc... what a MESS !!!! Beau had gotten into the garbage, so now I will put something heavy on the lid to keep it shut... Poor dear must have had horrible belly cramps...
Well, I had a good time yet a really dissappointing time aswell.... Halfway there I drove, so my friend proceeded to pound beers... She was loud, rude, poking my arm.... ugg !!!
We were supposed to get there, settle into our rooms, got shopping, out to dinner and then home for a drink and a movie... But,,,, she said, " Oh I have to call my cousin to let her know I'm here safe" I'm thinking " Oh sure" Next thing I know, she is inviting all kinds of her family to this tiny room with 1 chair and a bed to visit... Some of these people don't even get along because they are seperated and are with new partners... What a MESS !!! I was pissed !! Not rude, but disappointed... she didn't once all weekend consider me... I knew nobody and I was just a tagalong to share driving and expenses... she is an airhead to boot !! Her one cousin did take us to Perth to see "Big Bens' " grave at Ian Millers farm... (famous jumping horse that was in 3 olympics).... I had goose bumps walking up to his grave out in his favourite field where they buried him... That made all the crap worthwhile... I do still care about my friend, however will never go on a trip or be in a situation ever again like that with her.... She forgets everything, and thinks of nobody but herself and does not assume accountability for her own actions.. she blames everybody for everything.... just sad.
enough venting... sorry guys...
Tex, when I went back to read all that I missed just now I read that you wished Luv could have met up with me... You are so sweet to say that ....
Magic, I agree 100 % with you about Luv getting help around the house for sure... I just wish I were closer so I could do something... anything... I just feel so helpless...
Bootsie, I remember when my hubby would go away and I would miss him terribly at first... Now, I look at it as a time to have say ,,, cornflakes for supper.. LOL !!! Hope that you're feeling better sweetie !! We are here for you.
I'm gonna go and start some supper, so I'll stop by tomorrow likely... Hugs,

[bootcampbarbie]

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thanks all. i go to doctor tomorrow and then they can look at blood panel and the dr and by next week i should be on the nice little thyroid and hormone stuff. yeah.. hubby text and calls me like 50000 times a day. honestly when he used to leave i was like yeah a week to myself. so i know something is way off. wayyyyyyyy offfffffffffff. even the girls need hormones as they are all moping around too. god what a pitiful site a mommy and 3 girl dogs who all need hormone replacement. someone just shoot us now. well, off to downtown. at least my gal pal is coming over to do an art project tonight. that will be fun. last nite the girls and i read a book and then played some music and did cardio til we died. and of course worked. so that kept us busy. i just pm'd morrison to call me. hopefully he will. grab some kudzo little buddy and go to the ER and you aren't supposed to be driving. i at least don't think you are. are you????? hummmmmm. call me DDDDDDDD asap. you have my cel phone.

[Guest]

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Morrison,
Oh sweetie I am so glad you have posted! I knew you needed us but knew we had to wait for you to come back to us. Honey, you need to get help. I KNOW where you are...I have been RIGHT WHERE YOU ARE. I used to hide vodka in my purse and drink in my office at work! You know my story...I wrecked 3 cars in one year...totaled ALL THREE...lost my license, nearly lost my life. My God, I so know where you are. I can remember sitting there crying hating where I was at and still steadily drinking...hating the damn alcohol, throwing up, hating the headaches, the pain, hating myself...BUT I was still doing it. You are going to have to make choices in your life to get away from it. That may mean certain friends, moving, etc....whatever you have to do to LIVE. I hear it, I know it...you want to live. You can do this, please go to the hospital and detox, it is safe and will be easier on your system. We all love you!!! Please know that and keep coming here, even when your not doing well. We aren't always doing great, shit I am on the verge of a nervous breakdown myself. What keeps me sane...ALL OF YOU. We need each other. Please lean on us. I love you!
Nibs....Good grief! We should have went away. I promise I wouldn't have acted like that...someday we will meet. I just know we will love each other! I have sold all my little puppies. Sad to see them go but I have bought Christmas gifts! I like to have all my shopping done by Thanksgiving. I am already done with Brit. Will shop for Zak this weekend. He wants a PS3.

[AMELIA]

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Morrison,
I am glad you are posting too.
I pop in and out of this thread very infrequently, but I have always remembered you because just as I was starting out you had just slipped on 60 days AF and I asked you why you had to go back to Day 1 if you had already done 60 days (didn't make sense to me then, makes a little more sense now,...)
However. I don't know you much better really. However, we all know the shit we are doing to our bodies. The more alcohol you are drinking, the more stressed out, tired, unable to perform, unhappy and bloody pissed off you are going to be!!!!
Chest pain (and I get it quite often just from stress) is probably just that - chest pain. All the physical factors bought on by your drinking and/ ormeds could give you the same kind of symptoms as you just described in your last post
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Morrison, I read your posts when you were AF. You were so happy.

Go back to that. It was better for you.

x

[Guest]

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PS...we're all a little nuts! That is why we get along so well.

[bird]

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Hi all,
Morrison,glad to see you back. I get chest pains sometimes when I'm stressed or after drinking. I've gotta get that checked out too. Booze is so hard on us. Stay with us.Luv shopping already? I need to get started.Nibs that was some weekend..I mentored my little guy yesterday. He had 2 books,one he'd taken a test on and made a 40. He also had 3 pigs and read it to me over and over saying he was gonna make 100. Then he took the test and made 100. He was very very excited. It was neat. Think I'll get him a ribbon.The kudzu is going to hell. Its dying and all tough. I'm gonna have to do something like order it off the net. geez.love to all of you. bird

[Cinders]

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Morrison,

I am so happy you posted because it means you are still there to post. Now do what AMF and Magic said. Go to the hospital!! Now!!

BTW, for some reason you think you are a "worse" off alkie/depressed/anxious than the rest of us? I DON'T THINK SO BABY!! I have sat at client's offices with my hands shaking so badly I couldn't type and sweat dripping down my face and chest. Not a pretty sight, let me tell you.

We are all on the same GD wagon. Jump off it and get to the doctor. Period.

Take the reins in your hands and do what you need to do.

You cannot imagine the love and caring I see everyone has for you. Don't shrug that off. Very few people have that many caring friends in a lifetime. You are one lucky person!!

Please, go to the hospital and get through this. Then you can kick MY ass when I am whining about whatever it is that I let make me fall. I'll be happy that you care.

Okay???

Cindi

[Guest]

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Bird,
Order it from this site...the kudzu. There are different ones and this one is formulated for us and works better. It is getting cold and the kudzu is dying It is so pretty too!

I always shop early. It really stresses me to not have everything bought early. I like having the last month to buy little things. I start in the summer every year. Since this will most likely be my last Christmas with my Mama, I want it to be extra special.

Morrison,
Thinking of you! Please check in and let us know you are OK!

[bootcampbarbie]

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nite all. hope you had a good day. morrison. didn't hear from you. hope you are doing okay. please call me or post or whatever you need we love you little buddy. boy i'm bushed girlie. oh gosh you are right xmas is coming. humm my xmas present is going to that retreat place. nice nice

[Niblet]

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Way to go Bird !!! You are a true blessing in that lil' boys life... Huge Kudos to you !!!!!!!! happy dance comin' on !! haaaa !! haa !!
Morrison, hope you can feel the love we send you.
Gotta get ready for work now, hugs guys !!!

[morrison]

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Just checking in to let you know I didn't die. Thank God. I just couldn't leave work yesterday to get to the docs. I was very, very close though. Was getting very scared. I just went home and jumped into bed after work. I slept for a few hours, then awoke to the usual fun which is alcohol withdrawal. I just grabbed a pale, put it beside the bed, and wrapped my self up in a blanket. Had the dry heaves on and off for about 8 hours, all the while shaking and sweating, with insane thoughts racing through my mind. In a sick way I'm glad, cause it is the worst I've felt in a long, long time. About as bad as I did when I first came here and did my longest stint. I kept trying to start a long tenure of sobriety, but I just wasn't scared enough. Even with the second DUI, it just didn't scare me. Yesterday scared me good. I'm still pretty screwed up, but not like yesterday. As much as I'd love to "take the edge off," I'm just gonna ride this out. I know in a few days I'll be out there working out, and eating right. Back to some nights of "poison dreams," but anything, and I mean ANYTHING, is better than the suffering I felt the last couple days. My God, what a stupid and insane way to kill yourself. And that is exactly what I was doing. Killing myself in a slow, and extremely painful way. No more. I actually was praying to God. I lose faith a long time ago, but thought, maybe I need to believe. I don't know. I just know I asked God to help me, and asked for forgiveness. I kept repeating over and over, "Lord, I need your help, but I don't ever want to forget this pain." I really think I was closer to death than I've ever been. My body just can't take this beating anymore. Anyway, thanks all for caring so much about me. I want to get back to posting "happy" again. No matter how shitty a day, or week I have, I have to remember this pain. I was thinking of actually typing up my feelings of the last two days, and carrying it in my wallet as a reminder. Anything to help.

[Guest]

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So glad to see you here today Morrison. GREAT idea. Remembering the past few days will help during times when the cravings are strong. Type it up!!!!! I hate you are so sick, but so, so glad you are here. I remember the sick dreadfully ill feeling...UHG! I hope I never feel it again. Start eating some healthy foods and rest!!!

[MDBiker]

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Hello all!!! I am back in the USA. Sorry I didn't get to post, but Internet service was not so good in Slovakia. Also, I forgot to take the voltage converter so I was SOL for batteries unless the hotel had an adaptor (most didn't). I made it through the whole thing without drinking, so I will make 6 months in two weeks. Woo Hoo !!!!

Morrison, buddy; you have to make a decision to do whatever it takes to get past this. That means ANYTHING you can do to get better. You are not insane but the alcohol makes you seem that way. You can get better, but you have to give up control. You cannot do this on will power alone. Ask for help and you will get it. We love you

I have some stories to relate, but they will have to wait until I am away from work.

You are all in my prayers nightly.

[Determinatrix]

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Morrison,
You will get thru this, just hang on. Noticing that your withdrawals are getting worse is a sign that you need to beat this soon. Your body is giving you signals that it is starting to get tired of dealing with this. Wishing you a speedy recovery.

Dx