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[Niblet]

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Haaa !! Haaaa !!!! Luv You are Tooo funny !!!!!!!!!!
I take a whack of pills on three different occasions during the day.. It's just what needs to be done to feel this damn GOOD !!! Morrison, try and think of it as going into the gym.. you drang your feet in maybe somedays, and skip out every single time... I do the same thing here in my home gym 6 days a week.. Somedays I have to really "talk " myself into it but it really makes my day... It is just now a new way of being... I want for you to find a new way of being... You are a truely thoughtful fella and we all do really love you very much... I wish you all the happiness this ol' world can give ya and then a wee bit more for good measure, cause you deserve it... Morrison, You are worth this...
Well as we speak, me eliptical, bike and bowflex is calling me, so I'd better hop at it and then head into work for 11.... Hugs everybody,
P.S. I finished my doilie last night and then got a good start on my new alfaghan too !!! You could call me " the happy hooker"... *** crochet hook used to make these crafts*** ha !! haaaa !!! Bird, I'll pm you me email so that you can email me your email then I'll take a pic to send you OK ?

[morrison]

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Thanks guys. I want to live. I've been praying to God this morning, asking for his help with this problem. I'm scared. I really, truly horrified at this point that no matter how ill I get, I keep drinking. I never wrote down all the pain I've been through to keep in my pocket. That is something that I have to do as well. Bear, thanks for the advice, but there is no way I could afford one of those programs, or I would.

[Cinders]

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Morrison,

My heart is soo going out to you. I know exactly what you mean.

I have been doing well staying AF but only because I have been truly white knuckling my way through it. The couple of Librium I took the first week didn't help at all.

I tried the topamax with my doctor's help and had horrible skin reaction to it, so that was a no go. I am taking Campral but that doesn't seem to help.

I really do need to get some relief from the cravings or I will just cave at some weak point. I know it.

I know this sounds really depressing and I am sorry guys. I have been trying to stay up and happy with my AF and determined to keep on going. I posted my feelings about mods this morning and realize I MUST STAY AF. I am not a candidate for mods.

Today I actually ordered Baclofen from River Pharmacy. It is due to come the first week of November. I am praying it helps with my cravings and anxiety as published by a recent study. (They used 30 mg / day versus the doctor who self-studied going to really high dose) and had a 70% improvement over the placebo group. That is pretty high and therefore promising.

Anyway, Morrison, I say this because, one, don't give up. That is going to do nothing. Two, get to your doctor and be proactive about how bad this is for you and start working on what meds might truly help. You are dealing with lots and need some seriously good help to help yourself.

We can beat this, Morrison. We really can. I am not going to give up!!

:h
Cindi

[Cinders]

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Oh, Gosh, Morrison. My response to you was so me, me, me. I am sorry.

And, I don't think meds is the entire answer but I do think that when you know deep down you are in the place where any little trigger (even if imagined) will kick you off, having meds that reduce the need can only help.

My hope is that if we can get through 90 days or so, we will no longer feel the intense desire to drink. We can probably deal with niggling little itches but sometimes the crave hits so damn hard!!

If the Baclofen doesn't help for me, I will just resign myself to dealing with the craves, though. The alternative is not acceptable.

We can do this, Morrison!!

Cindi

[morrison]

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db2. Thanks. Your post wasn't all me, me me. If anything, I'd been me me me for the longest time now. I said before I think my only option may be the antibuse. I would just have to make sure I take it every morning. I'm going to ask my doc for that. I see no other way. My stomach is killing me right now from throwing up all night. This is how I felt a week ago, and only stayed AF for 2 days after being so sick. This is a horrible, horrible thing we have to deal with. I truly believe in God at the moment. Why? Cause I know there is a Devil. Who else could have invented anything as evil as alcohol. It really is true evil.

[Cinders]

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Morrison,

Antabuse may work, if you take it...

However, you probably do need at least a week's worth of Librium to help with the withdrawls, don't you think? May hospital detox? That is considered an emergency.

Antabuse will not help with the withdrawal.

I do recall someone else posting about taking antabuse on here. Maybe I'll search on it and see how well it worked for them.

Good Luck with your doc and meds. More importantly, I am praying for you. I hope you can get your health back. Take as good a care of yourself as you can and go see that doctor ASAP.

Yes, if one believes in evil then one tends to believe in good. Good shall overcome.

I am really worried about you. Keep us updated so we know you are okay, please??

Cindi

[toughintexas]

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Morrison, as Bear has told me, and several others, we can't do this alone...and the Big Guy upstairs, is the one who can walk beside us 24/7....And you are right...the Devil made alcohol, drugs, etc., to steal our joy, steal our peace, make us abuse our bodies, ruin our lives, because he wants our soul,....deal is, he doesn't realize that, in times of true, utter despair, its like a knee-jerk reaction, we call out to the one Upstairs...somehow we instictively know, that God is the only person that can "pull us out of the slimey pit, and set our feet firmly upon a rock"....Not to mention...."what is impossible with man (which I use to mean...sheer will, want and wish to overcome this)..."is possible with God".....He can deliver us from this, we have to take the step, we have to take each new morning and try..but He can help us... If you are throwing up all night, I'm really worried about your stomach and esophagus, you can damage it from all the acid/bile/alcohol....why don't you call your Dr., and get him to admit you for detox for 3 dys...come off slow...and take your meds at the sametime...or just go to the ER, and tell them the truth, they have to admit and treat you...At the least call your Dr. and get over THERE...get him to give you some Prilosec asap...get it down and get your meds down.... I'm praying for you from here, I sent you some things that really helped me to read...read them...Memorize this if you can...I say this everytime I need to speak to the ol Devil that is courting me towards a drink...."If you have a mustard seeds worth of Faith, you can say to your Mountain (alcohol/drugs)...move from here to there, nothing is impossible with God on MY side"..... Just get help Buddy, please, you are way too handsome and worth too much to us to be so sick..that's what Dr's and hospitals are for ok!!!???? And I did what Bear said too, I wrote in a journal about all the times I was a HEATHEN on alcohol, what I did, best as I could remember, or was told, what mean things I said or did, how I felt, what consequences I suffered...everytime you are tempted to pull a good one, read it first...I'm trying to take all this advise myself...I'm doing tons better, but its like DB said, you gotta hit it on the head everyday.....Love to all! NIBS...too funny, you lil Happy Hooker you!....lol....

[MDBiker]

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Morrison, I have called several of the treatment centers n Las Vegas (I got good at calling these places when I was looking for help) and here are some options for low cost or no cost programs. Please call and talk to these people and you will find someone who can help you. They will work with you. Please do this instead of the antibuse. If antibuse was a good answer everyone of us would be taking it.

Low or no cost programs for Nevada
Carson Center 775-885-2727
Detox Services 775-841-3223
Vitality Center 775-738-8004
Healthy Families 702-631-6345
Westcare 702-385-3330
Northstar 775-329-4047
Teen Challenge of Ne (702) 314-1300
Teen Challe (775) 424-6777

We love you Brother and we want you to get better. One of these programs will take you as a client or find aplace for you. You have to want it bad enough to make the calls.
:h
God bless
bear

[toughintexas]

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Bear that is sooo awesome, we're so glad you are home....you are a Godsend for doing this for Morrison...Now Morrison...Call the numbers buddy....call, dial, call...no excuses...you have to do this! Your prayers ARE being answered....justs look, here's Angel Bear to the rescue...doing the footwork for you, all you have to do is get there...Love you!!!! Thanks Bear....you are the best....I can't wait til I'm just like you...well...I don't want to have hair on my chest, or under my armpits, but you know what I mean...lol....

[Cinders]

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Morrison,

You prayed and the answers came through Bear and TIT.

You have to believe now, Morrison.

Please call the numbers Bear gave you. They can and will save your life, you just have to want to save it. We all care, so how about you?

You can do it!!

Love,
Cindi

[toughintexas]

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Cindi, I just prayed, and Bear was the Angel....but that's how it works, God puts us that believe, here to help each other...He can't make phone calls, or type, but He will guide us to help all His kids...I truly believe that! And Cindi, you know you are on my prayer list too, try to breathe and let some pressure off those knuckles girlfriend...lol...do you have the GABA to help chill you out, and the Rescue Remedy? It really helps to let you take a time-out and get a grip kinda...the Lithium Orotate has really saved me...I realized when I felt and posted that I was feeling my resolve slip, that I'd backed down on the dose, so up it went again...I couldn't do the Rx meds at all either, it was bad...but this has no side-effects except good ones...and its cheap too...you can read about it in the Holistic section...try it out, it'll give you a more settled, balanced, relaxed feelings, ditto the other supps....Love ya guys!

[morrison]

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Thanks Bear. I will call them. What is wrong with the antibuse though? My friends father in law was a mess of a drunk, and he's stayed sober by taking it.

[toughintexas]

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Morrison, I can answer that from our clients at the pharmacy....BECAUSE THEY WILL FORGET, NEGLECT, OR NOT TAKE IT SO THEY CAN DRINK...It does not help with cravings, it does not modify your feelings, moods, etc.....It will make you puke, put you just said above that you feel like no matter how sick you get...you'll keep doing this...well, then Anabuse is NOT going to help...you don't need to throw up anymore, you're going to cause lifelong, permanent damage to your "innards" and you DO NOT WANT TO DO THAT....You may can take it later, right now, you are right, you can't do this ALONE....Call the numbers Bear gave you, let them help and guide you down the right path, give up the control, turn it over to someone who can treat you....NOW....lol.... Like Bear said, we can preach and beg, you can lead a horse to water, but you can't make him drink...you gotta want this bad enough to dial those numbers!!! Your prayers are answered, now listen to the answers! Love you.... Going to the gym....wish me weight lifting luck....lol...

[toughintexas]

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Opps, maybe that leading a horse to water analogy wasn't the best in this case....sorry!

[Cinders]

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Morrison,

My son was made to take antabuse due to 2 DUIs. He, of course, figured out how to play the system.

Antabuse only works if you are determined to take it no matter what. But when that freaking little asshole demon starts whispering in your ear.. you will not take it. BTW, I have the same GD demon.

You want a lifetime of happiness and health, not just a few weeks.

Listen to Bear and TIT, they truly were answers to your prayers.

You only get an infinite number of these... until time runs out.

Please. Call ASAP and get in. You are so lucky so many care for you, you must be worth it, or you would never have had an answer, much less all these you have had...

Love,
Cindi