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[bootcampbarbie]

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okay just got home you all and thought to check in. hippy are you like following me around? gosh i am starting to really have a crush on you. lmao. well family i'm so excited.well i don't know that is the word/ my doctor called me today with my test results. she was actually in an upset. she and rejuv center were calling and they were like boots get your ass in my office now. ummm okay. they wanted to admit me to a hospital. well let's not get drastic kids. seems my hemoglobin is at a 6 and is supposed to be at a 11.7. they wanted to do a blood transfusion???? and my iron is at 15 and is supposed to be at 120. she said how the fuck are you even walking around. do you have an ulcer? um no. then i thought. do i? lol i would know if i did. so i called a friend on the other line who has one and he said boots you would know if you had one. turns out as i don't eat much that i need to eat more. lol and because i eat alot of vegs not meat that i need meat. and since i have been bandaiding everything for years um time to get to the root of the matter. so i was so relieved today i cried buckets. i mean yep that is why i'm so fricking tired. i am depressed because i'm exhausted as my iron and blood are depleted so low. my testorone should be at 40/50 and it is 17. estrogen, progestorone is fine thyroid is a bit off but okay. growth hormone is at 95 should be at 250/300. all of those things are going to make a difference. but really the thing for the md was boots get in my office now because of the blood and if we aren't going to do a a transfus as it would be my luck to get aids nope i said i went out and had a spinach salad and steak i ate so much i thought i'd puke. lmao i said well doc when you eat hardly anything we have to go slow. she eats like i do so we decided to take this one step at a time. i'm so not anorexic as it would take 40 lbs for me to get that way. but i am not crazy. well maybe i am i told her but at least i don't have to take the stupid anti depressants anymore we can titrate off of them as the problem isn't that. it is that i'm just wiped out. well, i can tell you i've approached it from a mental side and spiritual side for 2 years and no doubt i've even naturally tried to use alcohol to boost energy to she thought as i've powered my way through it these last few years. none of these things solved the issue of my blood. so, we don't know how i've over rode the system except i've a very strong will power to simply exist. but she said anyone else would simply be in the hospital on tubes. ah hhhhhh not bootsie. so i think give me like a month and i'm going to be fricking a new woman. and hubby is now on his new regime too. and trust me i told him wow dr. said i'd actually have a libido back as from 17 testosterone to 40/50 means uhoh f..k like a bunny. lmao. he was hummmmmmm i like this new bootsy. yeah when you are exhausted and can barely function and have to power your way through life well you are powering your way through everything. now i'll be like ms. romantic little boooh camp barbie. like that bird.
so had to share family. this is the most amazing day of my life. i called a few friends today and simply broke down which i never do and cried cried cried. now they know why i've been hermiting. who can really be social bunny when you are so fricking tired all the time and depressed and blah. and the best is doc says i'll be looking 25 and feeling 25. so, watch out cuz i'm kite surfing.

okay well enuf of me. birdie happy you are happy again. luv sorry zak broke his glasses. but he's getting new ones. ah i'm going to miss you nibs. you are so my soul sistah. okay i'm calling you tex. more 2 i laughed so hard about your son's vibrating phone. bear congrats and hippy so happy you joined. magic please stay with us. morrison so needs you. morrison please don't wear yourself out. cindi come back please. and anyone else? i know i'm missing someone way important. frick....... it'll bite me in the ass. sorry i'm just so tired.

[bootcampbarbie]

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wow i like how this crazy machine works but i promise i only his send once. lmao. and it printed it like 50 times. i'm actually blushing. um my news wasnt so important that it had to post it like 5 billion times. gosh so sorry family. (((((((I(

[bootcampbarbie]

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phew figured out how to delete them. gosh i was so embarrassed. it posted it like 10 times. gawd. the shame. hey and where is 12manyyyyyyyy that was who i was missing. do i have to send out a possey? oh does he think we aren't fun anymore?/ gosh i was really liking ol dave here.. sad sad puss am i. hummmm

[bootcampbarbie]

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ooh i forgot to add that the dr. gave me these great heavy duty iron pills to start taking now and then i have to do another blood panel in a week. and every week for the next 5 weeks. and if things don't change well then she over rules me :0) i really love dr laura. and oh some of the other side benefits are that my hair is going to start growing back too. nice besides that tex already knows this my skin will actually start getting healthier. i asked hubby do i actually look like death warmed over and he said no you actually look awesome. so wow, if i look awesome now when i'm death warmed over. just imagine how great and good i'll be when i'm actually like feeling like the ol boots again. fricking a....i so can't wait. i feel like bear. i can't fricking wait...... what we do to ourselves i can't believe. love boo camp barbie

[Cinders]

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Hi, guys. A quick check-in. As you can from my signature see I had one bad day. sigh. I let anxiety get the better of me. I must get something to deal with it until I can get past some serious AF time. However, I don't feel too guilty, either, daughter's condition is worrying the hell out of me and precedes everything else right now. Baclofen should arrive first week of Nov and I am going to hang on by the skin of me teeth until then. Geez I hope it helps!!

Bootsie - wow girl!! Those numbers are horrific. Eat some liver. Seriously, though, if you are taking lots of iron, remember it can "back you up," so take fiber and drink lots of water with it. Okay?? I had to take iron for a long time due to female issues and it is not fun if you don't take the fiber and lot of liquids... Also, lots of dark greens, not just meat, have iron. Here in the south, the collards, kale or turnip greens always eaten with the pot of navy beans (and small bit of ham to complete the amino acid chain). Geez, you think they knew what they were doing?

Everyone else, please take care. With what is going on with my girl, I haven't got time to think of drink. No, that is a lie, I think of it a lot when the doctors come in and the possibilities keep getting scarier, but I don't have time to drink and I won't drink.

Love,
Cindi

[Guest]

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Bootsie gosh reading this scared the shit out of me....you have all the same symptoms that warranted my mom being admitted and that is how they found her colon cancer. She is VERY small as well and wanted to balme it on diet. Her hemoglobin was a 6 too!!! Had she refused to do further studies, she would be dead. They gave her blood, put her on iron , BUT they did a colonoscopy because they too thought she had an ulcer. NOPE cancer...I am NOT trying to scare you to damn death, but PLEASE do further study. My Mom weighs 115 lbs...very small woman like yourself. It can't hurt to check!!!!!!
Morrison...SO HAPPY TO SEE YOU today! Glad to hear pepe in your post. The witching days are here. This is the worst!!! Stay with us....post like mad all weekend...stay away from the booze. I buried myself here at first cause it is like you have forgotten what the hell else to do with yourself.
Cindi-thinking of you and your daughter!!!!!!!!!
Everyone else..have a great day.

[morrison]

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Boots, I pray everything turns out okay. Scary stuff. :h

Luv, I'm working this weekend, so my hands will be tied. Thank God. Maybe I should try to find a part time job for days I'm off this job. Be a workaholic. Ahh, I'm not that ambitious.

Cindi. Glad to see you back. Anxiety is a bitch. Hang in there. :h

[bootcampbarbie]

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ah well i'm going to call dr. this a.m. then and ask about doing a colonoscopy and test for cancer to love. as i said i don't have any stomach problems but hey might as well get the mamogram checked off and the colon thing checked off. and cindi coolest thing is these new pills do not back you up. nice nice nice. so there you have it. and i so love dark veges. kale collar greens yummy. and spinach. like that better then meat actually. hubby says he's making liver. grossssssssssssss. i'm going to then really puke. i did tell him though funny how about 2 years ago i started craving salt. i never salted anything in my life. then it was like can you just hook me up to a salt lick like a cow? guess i was needing a bit of iodine. lol funny how this is all coming together. hummmm. my guru told me to pray harder as i had a tamasic (lazy man's) mind. um no i have no iron. god when you see the iron y excuse the pun in all of this it well it does make you wonder. okay time to shower up for my big meeting today downtown girly and then off to say good bye to an old friend. i just had meat for breakfast as in spaghetti. gross and 3 iron pills. ummmm wonder if someone serves up kale for lunch? morrison glad you can be focused on something. cindi so sorry about your daughter. remember the calms forte yes? and get some of that lavender oil girlie. ah and thanks again luv bug. i will endeavor to be healthy booh camp though how's that. can't very well run off and die on you that would leave you without my stories and then you'd be sad.

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Bootsie, I was not at all trying to be a bummer!!!!! BUT, YES I would feel SO MUCH BETTER if you did have a colonoscopy. I have to start having them annually at 40, since my Grandpa and now my Mama will have died from colon cancer...and my Mama will be very young. SUCKS...but if colon cancer is caught in the early stages it is very treatable. Had she caught this 2-3 years ago (probably about how long she has had it) it would not have spread to her liver which is really what will eventually cause her death. I KNOW this sounds very depressing, but this is LIFE...you must take care of your body!!! It very well may be diet related, but I would feel SO much better knowing you checked. AND I would be very sad if you were ill!!!!!!!!!

[morrison]

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[12many]

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Hey, Cindi - hang in there. I know the running tests and waiting and diagnosing is a really tough time. My thoughts are with you and your daughter.

Bootsie - you just don't do anthying half-way, do you, girl? You've been sicker than sick and it sounds like you're going to be weller than well. Never a dull moment with you.

Morrison - keeping the hands busy sounds like a good plan for the weekend. I think I'll try some of that myself

Hart - I was jus listening to U2, did you know they're from Ireland? Speaking of Ireland.....

For myself, I was having such a nice evening and then just forgot to stop drinking. I now have a new trick. It has an old name: "fall down drunk". I was putting my drunk ass to bed and fell down and scraped up my back. Wife comes running in, etc... Its happened a few other times recently. I know we've all swayed a little when dismounting a barstool on a big night, but usually passes and I can make it to a bathroom or out the door with some grace and dignity. But this is new and not fun.

Its like there's a list of things that drunks do, and I began years ago by saying at least I'm not that bad. And year by year I've been ticking them off. Hiding drinking, lying, blackouts, you know one...by...one. And now I can see clearly that this course I'm on more like a train. I can't streer it and I can't stop it, but I can get off

Well that's a low enough oint in personal dignity to give me the determination to get AF free for a while. So, today is day one. Wish me luck.

Hugs all around,
Dave

[magic]

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Morrison,

What the fuck are you talking about? Over the line?

I think I'd better draw the line for you. Then I'll send you to your corner.

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Boots called me,here I am. It seems it's a good thing she called.

I know you don't feel good, my boy, but that's just not nice.

No,not nice. And it's over 50. You have a ways to go.

Careful now, I'm cranky.

m. xxx

[morrison]

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[morrison]

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Well, I can't win. Either I'm sick and feel like shit, or I cheer up and get silly. Don't mean to hurt feelings, but I still do. I have a path I'm going to follow through with, and I know I'll succeed. So, in interest of everybody, I'm not going to post anymore. This is a woman's board after all. Take care.

[Accountable for Me]

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Bootsie - because I love you and think you are a person I would like to know in real life I am going to say a couple of things.

Eat something. I know you were going towards a size 2 and such but gosh girl! I hate LA for what it 'stands' for and makes people sick and hate themselves. You are a beautiful girl and you NEED to take care of yourself. If you are going to 'starve' yourself, please find something that can provide you with vitamins and minerals. Go to a health food store and get a bunch of that "Green Powder" or something. When I was living in Vegas I felt compelled to be skinny - more than skinny..... if you see the pics I have bones showing from lack of food and exercising. Sure I thought I looked fab.... all tanned and skinny and shit, but I was tired....................... very tired.

Get some supplements into you. There are a lot of great health food stores.