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[Guest]

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Magic, you always know just what to say to make me feel better. I know tomorrow when I feel GOOD again...and the ICK feeling is gone, I will be able to think more clearly. Back on the wagon!!! I will stay AF!!!! I have to!!!!

[Guest]

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I KNOW one thing for sure....I do not miss this horrible feeling one bit!!! I don't miss the headache, the shakes, the upset stomach. I hate the feeling you have the next day...like you could just cry!

[bird]

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Luv, its only 1 day anyway and the kids werent home. Bet you didnt drink all that much as it doesnt take much to get you sick feeling when you have been AF awhile.Just think of it as a reminder of how it was. love bird

[Guest]

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I wish I could say I only drink alittle bit, but I drink TONS! I drink 2 bottles of wine....I am deathly ill today. I am so sad! I am disappointed in myself and I am a freaking mess! I just realized today that I am MAD...I am mad at my Mom for dying on me. How crazy is that? For the first time in my life we were finally together and happy and now she is dying on me.

[Guest]

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I just told my Mom that I am so sorry if I have seemed distant. I love her and I just don't want her to die!!!!

[toughintexas]

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Luv, thank goodness you called me back, I was really worried.....You know you had to get mad sooner or later, its just normal....and you've been soooooo stressed out, I don't know how you've stayed out of the Looney Bin...that's where I'd be, I'm sure...I was thinking of checking in on Tues. myself! Maybe you and I, and More2, could get a group discount! You just have to "cut loose" more often from the stress, and struggle of daily life, you are carrying way too much on your back...Don't you dare for one minute feel bad about letting us down, we have all been there, done that, (me this week thinking I had cancer again!)...and you just have to do what you told me...just get up and start over tomorrow...you know again now, how bad it feels....gawd, its soooo awful...and at least the kids weren't home, that's a blessing itself...and it was like me, the lid had to come off the pressure cooker, and it BLEW....you have had tons more stress than I had, and I blew before you, so at least you are stronger than I am! We love you tons and tons....you are so sweet sounding on the phone, even feeling like doggy dookie....lordy, we're both Southern sounding...lol.....just breathe, and get some fresh air, and try to calm yourself from the inside out...if you can't find anything else, take some Benadryl, we are all pretty much "allergic" to alcohol, esp. wine with the sulfites and tannins, so it'll help, and calm you down a bit...get some gatorade, turn on Extreme Home Makeover...then, you can watch DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES......lol.......that should encompass about all of us....ok, you aren't a housewife, but a house slave....lol.....it all fits....anyway....Blow this off, forget it, and move on....some great Luvable person told me that once.....Call me anytime, day or night! Love you more than you know!

[Guest]

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TIT, we are Southern Belles aren't we? Of course, I was all shakey and crying...thank-you so much for calling me! You are the sweetest! I am having panic attacks, freaking out today, but my friends on MWO were here for me like always...THANK-YOU!

[Niblet]

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Luv, Sweetheart ,,, I too am so relieved that you have let a valve go... I only WISH that I could be there more for you and your family... We all love you so very much.

Guys, I've gotta say, no surprise here,,,, I've called and left 3 messages with the gal that I went down to Smith Falls with.... She hasn't picked up her phone or answered her messeges I have left her... I feel so sad about that as she is the only tangible "friend" I have... My Mom and sisters are evil. Thank the Dear Lord for my Hubby, Boys,Critters, Dad, Lyndy, and You all... Hugs xxx

[Niblet]

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I just "got it" and I'd like to be GOOD TO LUV TODAY !!!!!
Big Warm Huggies !!!

[toughintexas]

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Luv, we are Southern Belles....and we're going to make it! This surely is Halloween week...Full Moon....boy, we'll be ok soon! Panic attack will be over once you get a good nights sleep, and get over the sick, gross feeling. This is such a tough time for you, I wish we all lived in a closer "neighborhood" for each other...we could take turns helping each other in body and soul each day...you are sooooo incredible, and your Mom is so lucky to have such a wonderful daughter, and ditto....just get all the help you can, and we'll keep praying for you from here....Love you tons, and buckets! Nibs, been missing ya....sorry about your girlfriend, but you just go out with that stunning personality of yours, and get you a righteous buddy...lol...and ya know what they say...the more people I know, the more I like my horses....lol....Won every race yesterday, I just didn't bet enough since the track was so unpredicatable to gather enough funds for a group cruise, BUT I bought lotto tickets all the way home....I drank so much tea, I had to pee outside my teepee Bear, all the way home......lol......This to shall pass everyone.....tomorrow is another day!

[magic]

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Hi katesm!

This thread is about the lives of the 'rich and famous' in true soap opera fashion.

Welcome!

It's actually more like Coronation Street! LOL

m. xx

[MDBiker]

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Hi guys, we have been out looking at some old houses to buy and I have been out all afternoon.

Thanks Tex.

You know Luv:huggy; I have been all over this ?I'm sorry I am drunk again? thing. You are doing wonderful. You should be proud of what you have accomplished; and if it weren't for you being here, I might never have made it AF this time either. I told you to call me, please; you should have my number. If you have lost it just PM me and I will give it to you. That goes for all of you. I am on call and carry a phone 24x7 and I would like to talk before you drink. I am getting old and I ride my bike a lot, so if I do not answer, leave me a message and I will return the call in a few minutes. So you laid an Egg Luv. Just walk around that egg and realize it is an egg. Learn as much as you can from the experience, and try again. NEVER give up. If you give up you lose, and you are a winner. I realize that drinking a little seems to open up the system to crave drinking again; please take measures to relieve those cravings without drinking. I was once dry for several months and decided I could drink a beer and it wouldn?t hurt me. Within a few weeks I was completely back under the control of the booze. Please do not let that happen to you. You can do this; try not to be alone when you are feeling the pressure. I love you :huggyand we are all here for you if you will let us in.

I know I don't have all the answers, but I know what keeps me sober, and I am more than willing to give it way: You guys help keep me sober, the MWO program helps keeps me sober, my family helps keep me sober, and AA helps keep me sober. But the main thing that keeps me from picking up a drink is I promised myself before I drink another drink of alcohol, I will discuss it with God. ie. Why I want a drink, why I think I deserve a drink, why I am out of control, why I am hurting, why I am an ass to people I love, why I can rationalize taking a drink, why I get euphoric when I decide to take a drink, why I won?t drink. Nobody can keep me from drinking. I know that for a fact; nobody including myself. I have tried every imaginable method of not drinking too much: only drink beer, only buy small bottles, only drink wine, no alcohol in the house, taking meds, exercise more, eat better, stay busy, drink lots of water. . . Did I miss some? I have tried everything I could think of to stop drinking or at least control my drinking. Everything I did was worthless. Only when I realized that my life with alcohol was so out of control it was about to kill me; did I decide I was willing to do anything to stop drinking. This is what ?I? did and that doesn?t mean it will work for everyone. I called for mental health help even though I didn?t want anyone else to know how screwed up I was. I called my family and told them I had had enough and needed their help, even though I felt like a failure. I completely and irrevocably gave complete control of my life over to God. I was willing to lose my job, lose my family, lose my possessions, and lose face. I was willing to humble myself and admit I was not capable of controlling my own life. I cried, I hurt, and I healed. I know I am not well, and I don?t think I will ever be rid of this addiction, but God has taken away the churning, hurting, sickening, craving I had for alcohol. I for the first time I can remember do not always think about not drinking (or drinking). I don?t get squeamish when I am around others who drink. I am free of the constant presence of alcohol in my daily life. Sure, when it is 100 degrees outside and I see someone tilt up a beer it looks good, but I don?t feel the need for one. I have been trying to stop drinking with this program, and everything else I could think of, for over 3 years (if I remember correctly, something was clouding my memory then); and it took near death to bring me to the end of me. You don?t have to almost die to quit drinking, but you do have to realize you cannot do this on your own. Failure was not an option for me; it was a death sentence. I truly feel if I drink again it will be the end of my life. That is incentive to not drink.

I love you all :h

God Bless

:huggy

bear

[tawnyfrog]

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Beautiful post, Bear. Thank you.

[Guest]

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Bear,
You know the day started off rough and just snowballed into hell, but I can tell you I have NO desire to do it again. I am upping the topa for awhile again though and I think maybe get on an anti-depressant. I think the holidays getting here are a bit rougher than I thought. Last year was so bad and this year was just supposed to be better and shit if it isnt worse. But, I don't miss hangovers! I was one sick puppy all day yesterday. So, disappointed in myself too. I cried all day. So, today is a new day. That is all I can do. Begin again....

[Guest]

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welcome Kate! we started back in april as a group wanting to go 30 days AF...here we still are. Like magic said...a soap opera...days of our lives!!! join in!