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[morrison]

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LuvUall. Sorry about your dog. Why does God keep testing you? It seems like you are strong, and he is trying to break you. You must have a great cause. I admire your strength. You started this thread. Look how this has grown. Luv, I really want all of us to get together. I'd love to give you a big hug. Thanks for this thread Luv. You are a special person.

Magic. That is great advice. Maybe if I start giving instead of being selfish, I wouldn't be so miserable. Magic, remember what you told me? How I'm smart, but I don't listen? I've been told that twice in the last week. It is hard to do for me. But, I know you're right. Sometimes we put up walls. I can't trust many people.

Hello to everybody else. This thread has been quiet. I have an idea why. This time of year SUCKS!!!!!!!!! It is not happy. All we do is lament. We think of the past, and how things could have been. And that is part of human nature. Well friends, let's live for today. We do have a lot. We have each other. Despite our flaws, we have each other. Through good and bad, we have each other. I love all of you.

[bird]

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Hi all'
Luv im so sorry about your puppy. Its so hard to lose pets and people. Stuff is easier to lose. Wish I could lose this addiction. I would not miss it. I am feeling pretty good if I could just get over that drinking part. My Dr appt is next week. Morrison, werent you having another court date? Love to all. bird

[Niblet]

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Oh My Goodness Luv,,, I cannot express just how sad I am to hear about your blessed Sarah.... Our pets are just like our children in lil' fur coats... I truely am so very sorry Hon... I hope and pray that this sad 3 day event you will be taking part in helps you in someway... You will not be alone in your emotions... We will be here for you.. I wish I could physically be there for you, I wish I could share your burden, I wish I could help you with your everyday problem, I wish I could be a real "real" friend that could step in to share your walk, I wish I could meet your Mama to tell her what she already know, " your daughter is an angel among us " , I wish.... I wish.... xxx

[Guest]

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Bird, GOD BLESS GIRL!!!!!!!! I love you...that is wonderful! I can't wait to give you a HUGE hug.
Morrison listen to Magic...she is magical...I swear the woman can sy anything to me and I feel better instantly. I just talked to my Daddy for 1.5 hours....not sure if I have ever told you all I am a preachers daughter but my Daddy gives the most unconditional love. I just love him, his voice makes my day!!!! AND he senses when I am hurting...isn't that odd? He feels me alll the way in Missouri.
Morrison...I mean this budddy I LOVE YOU but you are in bad shape. PLEASE PLEASE find help somewhere, anywhere. Go home to your Mom, can you do that? I KNOW that damn pride gets us, but I had to get my Mama before I killed myself....Sometimes you just CAN'T do it alone and as great as this site is we can't see each other...touch each other. I think you need that...just my opinion. I know what it is...pride and you think you are smarter than the dumbass trying to "fix" you and you know what...you are smart, but be smart enough to let yourself BE REALLY SMART!!!!! Like I said I truly love you and want you around with us forever!!!!!!!
Thank-you to the well wishers in our loss today. It was a peaceful passing.

[Guest]

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XXXOOOO...Nibs!!!! I love you too!

[Niblet]

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Just reading that you had such a wonderful talk with your Daddy made me feel so much better Luv... I used to have nice talks with my Gramma and Grampa like that.. heartwarming...
Morrison, please listen to Luv and Magic... These ladies have walked some of the same miles you have.. We all love you very much.

[bootcampbarbie]

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just getting home from a very long day in the world of work. oh my beautiful girl luv bug. well, i think you know that although i have 2 incredibly wonderful daughters and 4 magical grandchildren. well i love my doggies so much and well more than anything. and i was thinking tonight how blessed i am they made it through their little puppy years without anything happening to them as i can't count how many animals i've had that have had very short life times as i grew up on a ranch with many many dogs, cats, livestock...i am going to just write something freeflow. if it makes sense great if it doesn't don't read it....

we have so many soulmates in life and they come in so many forms human and animal. some would say soulmates last a lifetime but i don't think so. soul mates come in all fashions, in all shapes and sizes, and in human and animal form, this one came bouncing in with heart and soul, love and bliss and silliness, and she gave you hope and love. soulmates put us in touch with all that we are and all that we are not. they give us an opportunity to see the roadblocks we haven't yet faced and need to breakdown and help us breakdown what we can with them. they can do this by the way by licking us silly in the morning, chewing up our favorite furniture, peeing on the floor, everything puppies do to drive us nuts. call them friend, lover or enemy. soulmates are our greatest love and virtue. so sarah was your and is your soulmate. she stayed as long as she was able. she gave you the opportunity to crack your heart open even wider and come to the even more beautiful you. i know with billy, sarah and mama i could look at this as a test of how much more can you stand, heartbreak wise, but i believe it is an opening of yes, how much more can you stand to open up your heart and heal. life is fragile. life will end in death. life is permeable. so we hang on to those beautiful moments and we celebrate what we have. i believe that you have been given a gift of celebration. a gift of love, so true, so so brilliant that few get to experience. of course we could fall deep into sadness of loss but loss in evitable. of course we will have loss. how could we not... i wish for you the ability to cry big buckets of tears over sarah as i would over any of my children or my dogs or those i love and in that grief find my way to my heart... find my way to my love and open up that key. and find my way to forgiveness. somehow you are being given a gift to forgive, love and release..... and in that find yourself. find and define yourself. then when you look at your life you can see well i give away what i want of me but i keep the parts of me that i most wish to keep, i never give it all away, i keep only those around me that i most want. my house is not a swinging door for everyone. i have boundaries. i make sure that what happens in and around me happens because it is my choosing... and i gave what i gave not to my depletion (as i learned i did) but i gave what was responsible to give. my mama will die. but she will die a beautiful death whole and complete, we will celebrate her last time here. we will not be in mourning that she is leaving. we will now celebrate all that she has perfected in her life and celebrate everyday that she has left with all of us. i am a beautiful representation of mama as are my children. let us celebrate that..
so, maybe you find me insensitive to sorrow. but know that i am not. i simply find that at the end of sorrow's rainbow you will find grief, and if you search through grief you will find her long lost friend, hope
hope will lead you back to you... and if you stay long enough with hope and she introduces you to loneliness then you will come to a doorway called the "passage"
somehow in the passage we need to learn to make loneliness our friend,
then you can gather up sarah, billy, mama, and all those you love in that passage
and you know you can because it is a beautiful drawing room with a big fire place
and they are all there waiting..... you can all hold hands, sarah can climb up on your lap, you can pet her for hours and you can let them all know you were never alone, ever
it was simply an illusion. sitting on that big beautiful couch, stretched out, you can let them all know,,, you are coming into your own, with your heart healing and intact. you are becoming your very own woman/person. they are always going to be with you here in the "passage" by the way.

so, just my visioning if you didn't want to read it. move on. it is just what i saw to tell you. and now i better go back and see what i wrote... phew. hope there weren't typos. earl grey anyone? everyone else. well you know i love you. and et al.

[lucky 2.0]

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luv- i am so sorry to hear of your loss. major big hugs to you!

xo

[Guest]

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Bootsie,
That was beautiful. Thank-you!!!! During my talk with my Daddy today I have faith I wisee them all again, it is such surrow being left here on earth, the loliness until we meet again. I KNOW, not to let myself get bogged in the surrow, but to make their lives something everyone could be proud of. I will lose more friends and family through life, it is part of living...we all will die. I don't feel tested really. But, I do feel enough now...we have had our share in a short period of time. We could use a little break.

[bootcampbarbie]

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well i've been writing about loneliness darling. i'll post it if you like... maybe you will find it helpful...

[bird]

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Hi all'
Hey my kids dad died last night. Someone stabbed him and then he had a heart attack. I was kinda upset about telling my kids but they werent as upset as me being they had only seen him twice in 10 years.geez.....bird

[Cinders]

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Geez!!!

bird;234023 wrote: Hi all'
Hey my kids dad died last night. Someone stabbed him and then he had a heart attack. I was kinda upset about telling my kids but they werent as upset as me being they had only seen him twice in 10 years.geez.....bird

[bootcampbarbie]

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wow, bird sorry to hear that... i guess it is kind of hard to get money out of him now.... i can see how easy it is to have a heart attack after someone stabs you. yikes.... i'm surprised you didn't have a beer after that one... take care of yourself girlie

[magic]

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Hi Bird,

Oh, F**k, what can I say. I'm sorry to hear that too.

Whay are you going to do?

m xx

[bootcampbarbie]

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bird i just thought of something..... you should be able to collect on his social security i think. pm me........ or pension maybe for the kids???? i'm just worried about you and the kids and support..........