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[Niblet]

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Top of the morning to you all !!!
Awww, More2 and Lushy, I'm so happy for you girls. What an experience to meet somebody from this big old family of ours..

Morrison, have you ever studied meditation? I've not, but from what I can gather you are in an altered, relaxed mindset.. Almost like turning down the "volume" in your mind and life... Could be worth checking out my friend. xxx

Awww, baby goats are the sweetest things on this earth, well so are kittens, puppies, foals, calves, piglets, chicks,... Happy Birthday Bird !!! I think that is just sweet that your daughter says that to you... It is just awesome that you overlooked that situation about your daughter saying "Happy Birthday"... Sweet little girl.
Bear I can "Hear" the big smile in your post...So good to see

Luv, I'm relieved to hear that you are not underweight... I won't worry now... I'm so glad that you and Brit had such a blast at the pageant... They sure grow up fast eh?

Bootsie, don't work to hard and make some Bootsie time for yourself.

Well, our youngest son Tyler got is G-2 drivers licence yesterday and boy oh boy is he happy !!! I let him drive part way home once we got off of Highway 17 and then this morning he and hubby went to the dump... He'll log plenty of hours.
We're getting a little warmer temps today thank goodness.. We are going to see my friend and her hubby by snowmachine at their ice-hut... It will be a nice day for a snowmachine ride..
Hey Tex, how is Orlando?
Cindi, I'm sending you a big hug XXX
Take Care everybody

[Guest]

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Well, I had a big blow this morning. Mama has decided to go back to Oklahoma to die. That is where ALL our family is. My Granny is there, my Mama's siblings, etc....here it is just me and the kids. None of them work either so there doesn't have to be anyone hired to care for her. She is requiring 24/7 care now. She can't be left alone at all. I could do it by myself, but it would be very hard. I am very sad and kinda scared. Her coming here was the beginning of my sobriety. For the past year I have HAD to be sobber to care for her. i couldn't take care of her drunk or hung-over...it wasn't a choice. she will be here with me for at least 2 more weeks.

[Determinatrix]

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Luv - What a gift she has given you - a reason to be sober. That is beautiful.

Dx

[morrison]

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Luv, sounds like that is best for your mom. And remember, YOU decided to quit drinking. YOU took control. Give yourself some credit. You've been amazing and level headed through such tumultuous times. You've done great, and will continue to do so.

[Guest]

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Thanks DX and Morrison. You are right..I did do it. Just a panic moment I guess. I still have me and my children to think of. I have to keep it up for them too.

[bootcampbarbie]

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hey girl i hope that a good nights sleep did the trick for you. and wow is it simply pouring here. just got up to check and make sure we have no leaks anywhere and thought i'd check in on you before going back to sleepy land. just know that it is what is best for mama too. you are going to be fine. your sobriety didn't depend on outside circumstances. you were and are sober because of inside you not outside you. circumstances will come and go but your sobriety will always be that inside choice. so rest up and know that you are being watched over..... take care luv bug. tuck in and have a good rest. jammie time today. hey bird how's the new place coming along. are you still getting the new place. i haven't had time to catch up. and nibs how are you/////

[Guest]

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Thanks Bootsie! I made it through. Yesterday was hard, but I did it. I know it is best for Mama nd I need to respect that and it is time for me and the kids to stand on our own again. time to finish the circle. Scarey...YES...HELL YES...but I used to do this!!! I fell, fell hard, but i am up now and i will move on.

[bootcampbarbie]

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well, today it is split pea soup day. we searched the canyon for ham hock and after we found it and were cutting up all goodies this morning i went searching for said ham hock and hubby had thrown in trash. lol. uhhh why honey. well i thought you needed some other ham bone. uh yeah you ya nuthead. anyway, he is such a blessing. so i made him cut the onions ahahahahahaah. and hten he locked down everything again outside as it was about to blow away by storm. we have nice fire, split pea brewing and tea and hummmmmmmmm hot cocoa. the really good kind. okay so it adds a few lbs. whatever. so now on to read paper and hit the books. sending you love luv bug. and all. remember your resolve was always from the inside despite circumstances. not the outside. yee of little faith.lmao

[MDBiker]

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Hello all, just droping in to say hi and I a fine. I will try to get back in a little while.

bear

[Guest]

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Good morning all. I am having a really hard time letting Mama go. I have cared for her for a year now. She has been my every thought day in and out for a year. It is hard to stop caring for someone after that long. I am very sad. I must let go. I know I have to, but seeing her go is going to be very hard.

[Cinders]

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Hi all, Like Bear, just popping in to say, "hi."

Bootsie, so funny about hubby throwing away the ham hock. Of course, where I live in the deep south here, finding one is driving a mile down the road and going into the nearest Piggly Wiggly.

Nibs, thank you for your hugs. They helped a lot!!

Luv - I wish I had great words of wisdom and comfort. You are going through a big upheaval and change and this should scare you. The last big upheaval threw you into the morass. All I can say is, forewarned is forearmed. Don't let it throw you back into drink. Think, think, think about what you can do to replace the vacant spot mama's leaving is going to put in your life. Replace that spot with something wonderful. Something kind. Something good. Pray on it, Luv. God will send you guidance and I can guarantee that guidance will not be "drink." :l

Bear and Bird - "HI!!"

Love to all,
Cindi

[Guest]

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Ok, I thought I had a couple of weeks with Mama but she is leaving TOMORROW!!!!! She and I keep crying every time we look at each other so she is leaving tomorrow to lessen the pain. You all are going to have to listen to me whine for a couple of days!!!!

[Cinders]

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Whine away, Luv. We will all be here to hold you. :l

Love,
Cindi

[Guest]

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Thanks Cindi---I am just so upset today. If I am truly honest with myself. This is for the best. It is best for me and for my children. Caring for Mama has been very hard. It has taken a toll on me mentally and physically. Watching someone slowly die is very hard. AND in the midst of trying to heal myself. My children need a break too. We need to get back to a normal life. We haven't had one in 2 years. It will be nice to be normal again. I am just so sad.

[Niblet]

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Luv, I'm so very sorry to hear about your Mama leaving... Although at the same time what a beautiful legacy this is... You have come so far and she has spent some wonderful quality times with her grandkids that will remain in their hearts forever. I wish there was a way that we could all make this easier for yourself and your family... All we can do is be there for you to support you in any way we can... You are so dear to all of us xxx