30 days???

[Determinator]

30 days???

howdy there crew, don't mind if I plunk down my bottle of tobasco and a couple shot glasses. Been a very rough day and just thought I was losing my mind this morning. didn't have one drink though thank dog and it's going to stay that way dammit. I'm close to understand the mechanisms as to why I'm not able to moderate...but not quite. when I do I'll be happy to share my ramblings.
Luvs, sorry your hurting hon. magnesium, C, calcium and librium if you have it.
sounds like a busy time for all so we must be well and strong. Off to see if anyone is in chat. XXXXX friends!

[Guest]

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Thanks all, made it through today. Not feeling to well and very disappointed in myself. I feel like I am slipping in to the same pattern as before. I don't want this life anymore. I have to get my mind back around being AF. So, today is day 1 of 30...that is my goal for now.

[Guest]

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Day 2 for AF for me, I have re-set a goal for 30 days, I will do this, I have to. I will make it through.

[Cinders]

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Luv, Det and Bird,

We can get back to our AF ways. I know we can. I have to. I must. Otherewise, I am not sure what will happen to me. My last binge was a doozy. (I am getting my window repaired tomorrow. )

Day 3 AF for me and feeling pretty good, actually. Well, it's only 6:30 a.m. sooo. :H

However, even if the day gets rough, I am going to just let it get rough and ride it out.

Nibs, TNT, Bear, Suki, Dx and everyone else, thank you for being here, guys. It helps to have real friends who understand.

Love,
Cindi

[Determinator]

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hola amigos y amigas, day two AF and finally feeling humanoid again. Deeby glad you didn't hurt yourself worse...owie!
anyone know how long after your last drink that you can start on anabuse?
just remember friends, the part of us that doesn't care, wants to drink and hurt us is a semi-mindless primitive part of our brain that we can control with conscious action. we are it's master.
be well my friends

[Cinders]

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Det,

That may be true but the other part of my brain is apparently pretty mindless, too. :H

Starting shaking today. Really don't want to take the Librium.

Doin' okay, though.

Hang in there buddy. We can do this DESPITE ourselves. Hell no, WE WILL DO THIS, despite ourselves.

Unless, of course, we want to live with the other option. I am certain I don't want to do that!!

Sure wish Greg had a clue what I was going through. I laid down to take a nap so I could get past the heart pounding and shakes and he shook me awake to have me help him pull wire through a wall. Yes, the job is for something I want but he just doesn't quite get it or have any sympathy at all.

Love,
Cindi

[bird]

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Yeah day 3 for me also. Sounds like that for some of us. We will stick together. Went to circus today and it was so long and loud and 10 dollars for 1 cotton candy. Had a headache when I got outta there but home now and in my comfy jammies. One of our baby finches was out of the nest when we got home and flying around the cage. Very cute. later on...bird

[Hovercat]

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2 days for me too, can I join in this new 30 day AF?

[Guest]

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Of course you can Hovercat, welcome!!! Anyone is welcome to join in.

Spring is coming, my flowers are starting to come up..THANK-YOU JESUS!!! Winter is incredibly depressing for me. The holidays, it is freaking gloomy outside, so I can't work in my roses. I swear I just get depressed which leads me to drink to pass time, which gets me more depressed and feeling sick. Good grief! But, I will not let these recent slips send me spiraling downward. I WILL NOT!!! I am back on the wagon. I have been thinking about you post Dets....thanks for sharing. I will remain AF!!!! I will do this dammit!

[MDBiker]

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I hope all of you 30 day AF abstaners are doing well today. Keep up the good work. I will check in later

bear

[bootcampbarbie]

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well, reporting in as i've been working 7 days a week. since lenair i've been still yep sober and no cravings no wantings no thing to try to avoid no nada zippa and off of 200 mg a day topa. ohhhh yeah.. it is good and i'm kissing hte ground everyday. so no benders on the horizon and no even drinking. wow, i'm the tea goddess. love you all. just checking in will read later as i'm just a working girl these days. that apparently has been alot of catching up to do since i'm not drinking. sigh sigh

[Determinator]

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heya Bootsie! nice to hear from ya. any secrets on your quest for sobriety?
Deeby, magnesium, taurine and calcium can help with the shakes...but it's still going to suck for a while.
waiting for a phone call from my doc as I have some questions for him.
more soon....happy AF day!

[toughintexas]

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Aw Luvbug, I hate that for you....we know in that primitive part of the brain, like D says, that this is something we can handle....soooooo many folks wish they could change their circumstances, and can't....I have a dear, sweet, beautiful cousin, that I grew up with, that has 2 kids, 13 and 16, and she is battling her second bout of breast cancer...she's gone for 6 yrs., in remission, didn't feel so great, went for her check-up like I do for the big C, and its in her lungs, and liver and spine...she's 41 yrs. old....she has the most positive spirit, and just keeps on going, she'd trade "problems" with any of us, I know it not the same "condition", but this is a struggle we CAN fix, its not fatal unless we let it be, or damage ourselves or others by continuing this crazy spiral....I found out about her relapse when my Grandmother passed away, that I shared with ya'll about 8wks. ago, and it pretty much "scared me straight"...I looked at her, and thought..."omg...she'd trade struggles with me in an instant to be able to stay here, healthy and alive with her kids", and I felt soooo selfish, and small and stupid....I'm not saying anyone else should feel this way, but in a way, that was a wake-up call for me....I've had the big C myself, and feel so blessed to be ok right now, I don't want to take my life, or health, or family, or anything for granted, or abuse it if I can possibly help it....I just thought I'd share that, and maybe it'd hit home for someone else...or not, but its just an eye opener for me...I love you all, and want us all to be A-OK, now and forever....I'll probably go down for the count next, but I'll sure do it kicking and screaming.....I'm praying tons for all of us!

[Guest]

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Today was a better day...... we will survive this. I pray!!!!

[Niblet]

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Tex, I'm so very sorry to hear about your cousin What a message you have given about it.. amen... We do have something we can chose to fix. She could teach us all so much.
Welcome Hovercat, we are glad to have you.
Luv, you will do this sweetie...and you are. xxx Spring will be here before you know it and you can get your yard ready once again for the "home and garden" front page.

I'm so happy for you Bird... you are such a blessing to those girls of yours.... Sorry about your headache from the loud circus, although on the otherhand doesn't it make you appreciate a nice cozy home all that much more ? Complete with PJs' and baby birds trying out their new wings.. how cute. Congratualations on day 3 !!!

Cindi, are you changing a light fixture or moving some power outlets? So tell Hon... You make me so proud too I might add... Keep up the good work with the beautiful spirit you share with all of us.. I feel so lucky to know you. xxx

Bootsie, I'm really happy for you, you tea-toddler... You go girlie !!!!

Bear, it almost sounds like you need more "Bear time" , although I'm sooo glad to hear how well you have recovered.. that is awesome !!! You and I always talk cold weather, so actually this morning we had -32 Celcius !!! Trees could be heard splitting in our bush from the sap expanding in the cold... But the handle didn't come off the truck thank goodness... :H
Well, I'm gonna go jump into my jammies and then watch a movie with the fellas."Invasion"... sounds like it may be a bit freaky for me, so I'll likely crochet and catch the odd glimpse.. Night all and know that tomorrow is another day... chin up my family, love to you all... Hugs, xxx