30 days???

[toughintexas]

30 days???

gotta start again too

:h Ya'll are so awesome, I've done sooooo much better, but I'm at the bottom of the list I'm afraid....Also, I feel so computer illiterate...I want a sign before my name, a picture, how'd ya'll get one....lol....wahhhhh....Tell me where to go get a left hand sign....he he he....I guess I'm starting tomorrow....BUT....I did do 24 hrs. first time in yrs., on Weds., then, having not read the book, left to go out-of-town...again...trying to do AF....well, I've posted this and told More2, and Dixiebelle, that I did have 2.5 glasses of wine Thurs/Fri, only one Sat., and 2 tonight...going to listen to the CD's tomorrow....got a lil out of whack on the way it goes...BUT, 2.5 glasses of wine or ONE is sooooooo much better, and ya know, I can STOP at less than 3, my goal was moderation, and I know I'm doing that, but I WANT TO GO AF...for a month, to purge and prove to myself I can....just like you guys.....ya'll are incredible...you are my heros, I'm soooo much better for ya'll, and I'm really there, I just want to do the program, and I'm dedicated to SUCCESS...but it is a journey, and I think moderation has helped me not to have so many "antsy pantsy" times, and let the supp's work....I have topa for back-up, but haven't taken any yet....I think I can do this with ya'lls help and (sorry haven't spent any time in What We Believe)...but with my Higher person...who could be a drunk white woman in need of recovery!!!....Thanks all, post me 1 day, tomorrow I'll get 2....bottom of the pile, but much improved!!!!!

[morrison]

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hello

More to life. How are you doing? Good I can see. That is great. Well, put me back at day one. I'm not freaking out about it though. I knew I was going to drink last night. We had the fight ordered for awhile at a friends, and had a blast. I didn't get out of hand, and had the fun I knew I could with my friends. However, I still know that is not what I want to do. I've been there too many times. Hey, I had a good time, felt okay today, no guilt. Maybe I'm healed. WRONG!!!!! I know that was just that instance, and more times than not, I'll get out of hand. So, I'm fine being on day 1, cause abs is best for me. I'm just not going to beat myself up about it, but not going to fool myself in thinking that last night was the norm. Wow!!! I'm actuallly learning something. 34 years old going on 13 as my mom would say. :H

[Guest]

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Well, next year...35 going on 14? Some day we'll finally be grown right? Does it work like that Morrison? I hope so, how about you? LOL.....

[Guest]

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I just realized this time next week I will be sitting here a 30 day'er....hoooootie hooooo...here I come...here we ALL come.

[MDBiker]

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It's been a long day, but at the end of it all, I am still AF. Hallelujah :lilangel: . Everyone is doing great. Morrison, I am glad to see you not kicking yourself around, that never helps anyone.

Bear

[morrison]

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LUVUALL;132937 wrote: I just realized this time next week I will be sitting here a 30 day'er....hoooootie hooooo...here I come...here we ALL come.

Show off.

[Guest]

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Show off signing in....24 days AF...6 days to go. But, I do plan to keep going and will on this thread. As I feel 30 days is NO where near enough for me. If I had a drink right now in the midst of the madness we are going through it would certainly send me spiraling down, down, down...so, think I will just hang with my friends here...safe, comfortable grounds and I promised my Mama and daughter I was NOT going to let her illness send me into a frinzy! Sad, not sure if they were more scared of her dying or me losing my darn mind again like I did when Billy died...really sad, huh? So, I will be here for them!!!! AND sobber at that!!!

[hereatlast]

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hey 25 days yeah
morrison i think theres nothing wrong with moderating if you can as ive said before AA could never be for me the way i get through this is by thinking if i decide to drink its not the end of the world, the only thing is i couldnt have stopped like the other people who are able to moderate, its certainly not a question of hey look at me im af its god i wish i was able to moderate, i think as luv says i will not stop at 30 days i am so impresed that you are able to be strong luv given all the crap you are dealing with. and on another note why should we grow up i am 47 going on 17 and intend to stay that way, well i may have to grow physically older than 47 but in my mind i will stay 17, the biggest compliment i feel is when i am sober my kids tell me i am mad !! and being af has made me more carefree than i have been in years

[hereatlast]

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well i thought me and luv could have 6 large beers with whisky chasers !!!!!
no only kidding getting to the end of 30 days is only the beginning for me it was hell in the beginning so i agree with you more for a thread to help others know what to expect or how we got through or didnt !!

[toughintexas]

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Morrison, right there with you...

:upset: I posted last night, then blew it....I too, yesterday thought, wow....this is great, I've done so good, I'm never going to wake up feeling awful, regretful, mad, sad, or like a looser again....like I said, I'd moderated soooo good, even watching hubby having more...and he is supportive too, I was so proud of myself.....so I thought too, I'm CURED....yeah right, so I know what you mean...my daughter, who thinks I got a grip on this long ago, and never knew doing so was a struggle, well, we were having dinner, and she remembered that it was 3 yrs. to the day I had that cancer surgery, and she poured me a glass of wine with hers, and told me how proud she was that I was hanging tight, not getting upset about having to go for my check up at Hopkins in a couple of weeks, and after dinner, she went back to her place, which I missed her being here, we'd had a great day....I was outside reading Anne Lamott's new book Grace Eventually, which is AWESOME GUYS....and I could totally identify with her, and she's so funny, and it was like talking to you, hearing the trials and having support....then, my husband handed me another glass watching Desperate Housewives, and then I started thinking about everything, and just fell right off the sidewalk and flat on my face, thank goodness this time not literally....So anyway, I'm starting AF over today, I'm afraid to moderate right now til I get these CD's listened too, got that book read, and yesterday, I was feeling soooo good, I'd forgotten most of my supp's...so that didn't help....I SO MUCH APPRECIATE THOSE OF YOU I E-MAILED PRIVATE THAT CALLED...hope I wasn't too much of downer....I'm just soooo disappointed, but more2 said to concentrate on the 1 day I was AF after forever, and 5 dys I barely drank, even out-of-town, so I'm trying hard to not focus on the slip, but I feel like a big grease spot of roadkill....(I'm from Texas remember....highway surprise with fries is on a t-shirt)...I've just always been able to do whatever I set my mind too, and this is just throwing me for a loop, southernbelle says maybe that's it, the Big Guy is showing me I'm not all so powerful and not in control....I'm sure thats right too....so guys, let me hang with you on this thread, I'm going to give it the college try right now again, I'm just so ready to GRADUATE...LOL....that's what southernbelle said to me, sure hit the nail on the head. Love you guys, cross your eyes, fingers and toes for me, just not while you're driving....I just wish I could quit crying...but then again, alcohol is a depressant...duh....Well, I could never do this without all of you, so don't give up on me yet!

[toughintexas]

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my fish

Thanks to you all that showed me how to do the picture, I feel happy about that...I'm a pisces fish, and right now, I sure feel like I'm swimming in numerous circles!!!:upset:

[Kimmy]

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22 days - and boy am I craving - my med are still stuck in customs and I dont think they are going to let them through - they are calling them illegal. so I have taken to redecorating my house - I will let you know how that goes, thank heavens I have a big house it should keep me going for awhile. I have gotten hold of my kids craft paint and i am painting everything - the colours are great the painting is bad, but the hands are busy.

Well done to everyone you guys are doing so great - LUV - you right next week we will be on 30 then what....you are going to have to come up with another great thread.


22 days AF - 8 to go.. and I must remind myself - so here I go "Self - you have been on MWO for over 60 days - I think - but you have not been drunk for 54 days and of those 54 days I have been 22 AF. Well done self.

The Prune is turning into a plum - up the plum

[angellina]

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Hi Kimmy,

I am so sorry they won't let your meds thru customs. Are there any other herbal meds you can buy or any over the counter meds from pharmacist?
Keep up the good work - I'm AF thru 'cold turkey' too - 13 days - so i admire your 22 days.
:goodjob:

luv, Angellina-x-

[toughintexas]

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Kimmy, I'm so proud of you, I can't wait til I can post success like that....I KNOW I will tho.....

[JayDee]

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May I join??

I just came across this thread and would like to join in....coincidentally I had my first dry day on April 16 and just about hanging in there so any support is going to help.
On the Wednesday (April 18th) was the first time I had been dry for 3 days for, hmmm, must be 30 years. Now its 3 weeks !! I feel very chuffed with myself but, as I said earlier, support is vital and this group looks great. Day 30 isn't far away....
I FEEL GOOD