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[morrison]

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Luv, so glad to see this post. Was worrying about you. I know your job is stressful. I know you want to give your kids everything you never had, but don't let it come at such a lofty price. You are bright, skilled, experienced, and a great worker. You can get any job you want. If it's time to leave this one, it's probably for the best. You'll make the right decision without booze involved. I hope the AA meeting is a good one. Those things can be hit or miss, but I think if you are going on your own freewill, that is a huge plus. I'm sure you feel crappy after a 4 day binge, but you know this ill feeling will be gone tomorrow. Drink your fluids, break a sweat if you can, and get some good food and vitamins in you. I noticed you've posted in several threads, so I don't have to tell you to keep posting to keep your hands busy. Haha. You know the drill, what the hell am I reminding you for. :h

[Guest]

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Thanks, yes, been getting some fluids. I am heading home now and will be OK. AA at 7.

[Guest]

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Thank-you More2.....I am going to AA, I hope it is good. I am nervous and scared. I look like hell too. They will know why I am there!!!!!

[doubter]

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day2

Hi everybody,
I'm feeling better and day 2 AF. wish all of u the best.

[Noelle]

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doubter, I'm glad you're feeling better. Think how much better you will feel with more days AF! Good luck!

[Guest]

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doubter, we can do this. WE CAN!! I am scared shitless today. I really did a number on myself yesterday. I can not keep doing this and neither can any one of us. My life is spiraling out of control. BUT, I am not drinking today.

[Determinator]

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Luvs, how you feeling today? probably didn't get any sleep which is normal at this stage. Vitamins and fluids dear. it will be over soon.

[Determinator]

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Doubter, big welcome to you and well done!

[Guest]

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YEP, NO SLEEP Dets.......tired today, but I feel better physically and mentally. I went to AA today. That was the absolute hardest thing I have ever done. I didn't speak today, mainly because I cried through the entire thing. My BF went along with me and we will continue to go together. He doesn't drink like me, but does drink to excess at times and needs to stop or we can't be together. Plain and simple, I can not be around alcohol. Not until I am stronger and even after that I don't want it in my house anymore, it just is a slip waiting to happen.
Alot of the women, almost every one had lost their children before sobbering up. That is a real eye opener for me. I would die without my children. They have been my whole world until I started to drink. A lot of the stories were so close to home. Makes you think!!!!!! So, between here and AA and a doctor visit, I am going to get back to AF life. Thank you all for your support the past 2 days especially. Several people commented to me about being so open......I was SCARED SHITLESS...I have never been that sick and suicidal in my life. I honeslty wanted to die and was even thinking about how to do it and was so physically ill I was afraid. That is not a good place to be.

[Determinator]

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Luvs, so glad you are ok. you are going through a heck of a lot now so please take the time to rest up. even if it's just sitting on the porch and staring at the clouds.

well, silver lining here is that a wakeup call is better sooner than later. Things can definitely get worse if we let them. I've stared death in the face in moments of incredible darkness with this affliction so I know how awful it is. we deserve better congrats to you Luvs for being brave and motivated.

[Guest]

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We do deserve better. i saw several AF months and i will get them back. it could have gotten so much worse. i heard stories today that just made me want to die. i couldn't imagine losing my children. i can find a new job, but my kids.....it has always been us three. without them i would fall apart. this past week made me realize that i can not get on this path again. it is a hard fight, but i have never been that close to death. it REALLY frightened me. i am resting, just playing on computer and doing some laundry.

[Guest]

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Thanks More2, I really want this again. Wrapping my mind around it......

[MDBiker]

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Luv, it seems to me you have the "I'll do anything it takes to not drink" mode, and that is what it takes. D is so right about the wake up call is better sooner than later. You have so much life left to live, but not drinking today is the most important thing. I really feel like you have this whipped this time, but you will have to continue to remember why you want it so bad. You are really special to all of us, and you can do this. This is your time.
:huggy
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[Niblet]

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Luv, as you move forward, always keep a mental picture in your mind of how the "Bottom" looks and feels... Never go back there Hon... I'm so glad to have you in my life xxx
Doubter, congratulations and a big welcome !!!
More2, I'm confused... the house that you are getting ready to put on the market, is that the house that you just installed a pool? Is this home you bought not all that long ago, a flip? Don't work too hard.
Bootsie, I'm so glad to see that you and hubby had a relaxing weekend... What a wonderful Birthday present that is !
Morrison, you continue to make my smile with your achievements I'm so gosh darn proud of you my friend. xxx
How's everything with you and your girls Bird?

Well, we actually had a whopper of a thunderstorm with driving rain all night... Wow, 3 days ago we had a huge blizzard and now this !!! We had a really fun time at camp...thank goodness we went snowmachining because this snow is leaving FAST !!! Yahooo I can almost feel the garden dirt under my fingernails !!! Today they closed the school because of all the back roads turning to an ice rink. So today I will be making my lasagne and you are all invited
Hugs, xxx

[Niblet]

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And, I don't know what is going on with my old horse Cody, but for the last 4 days he hasn't had a really great appetite... He will be 30 this July 28 th, so maybe it is just his way of shutting down.. I will not panic as we try him on some different grain maybe. He's not eating his hay as well either even though I had the vet take off the sharp edges of his grinding teeth... I'll just enjoy him and he'll let me know when it's his time to say goodnight. He still has good flesh, so I'm just hoping that he is getting bored with his pelleted food.