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[brittzak]

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Jez....I have tried every method imaginable. You have to find what works for you. The goal is sobriety...not how you gain it.

[cowgal]

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good morning!

I am doing well today, though I did drink last night, but I did go to the gym which makes me feel good..........................counting the days til Lenair, hearing from everyone how it is..............that is very motivating!

Jez, welcome again, and keep coming back to let us know how you are..............this is DEFINITELY not AA, though I try going every so often for the social aspect, have a few good friends there, so that is nice........................the gossip of this small town turns me off though, when I don't go to meetings as often as "I should", everyone assumes I am out there drinking and bombing out totally.....................YUCK!:upset:

Anyway, feeling strong, confident and will change my mood from confused to happy!

love you guys!!!:l:h

MA

[bestlifeldms]

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Hi all!

Bear Lady, my heart goes out to you and yours. I can imagine that this is almost as though you are living someone elses life. W/O your companion, it doesn't feel familiar. Slowly, it will. And, as you say, he is with us...

Welcome, A Work in Progress! This is a wonderful group here. I just came one day, and never left. Like finding a new family! LOL! What is it they say, guys? You can't pick your relatives! :H Some of us are slightly off our beams, but that keeps things interesting!

Cowgal! Keep your eye on the prize, honey! It will be here before you know it!

So sad about TIT's father in law. How awful! We just never know! I always wondered how many people take their lives while under the influence, being not of sound judgement, wake up dead and go "Oh Shit!" I don't know that he was drinking necessarily. But it caused me to think about what I had always wondered. Have to admit, the thought crossed my mind more than once while drinking. Scares me now to think about it!

Gotta get busy, guys! Love you bunches! :h

[A Work in Progress]

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Thanks, all. I changed my name from "Jez" (I was too impaired to pick a name I liked when I signed up a couple days ago) to "Work in Progress."

What is "Lenair"? I have seen it mentioned several times...

I am OK, but feeling kind of foggy. I am wondering if it is the supplements. On other occasions (even recently) when I have gone AF for a few days, I have always felt fine.

I am doing basically the supplement schedule in the book, but not yet with the Topa... And I haven't gotten any of that "Calmes" stuff, yet...

Any thoughts?

[momof3]

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Hi all,

I do not contribute to the boards much but I do read them and feel like I know many of you. Your words have been an inspiration to me and have helped me keep me sober.

I know many of you have written about your experiences with Lenair and I have exchanged personal messages with some of you. I wanted to make public my experience with Lenair. I first went to Lenair in March of this year and left there excited about never drinking again. Unfortunately, in April, about 45 days later, I had a slip one evening--several glasses of wine. It happened the same week that my brother attempted suicide and ended up in the same psychiatric hospital where my fiance committed suicide over 20 years ago. I know this was a contributing factor. I went back to Lenair the following month for a tune up and have been AF since (over 90 days). Overall, I am feeling very good although I do think about alcohol every day. I was hoping that this would not be the case since many of you who have gone to Lenair have written that it is a nonissue for you. The testimonials on the website speak to this as well. I'm not quite sure my experience at Lenair is what is making me stay AF. I have had long periods of sobriety before so time will tell. I think it worked but I'm not absolutely convinced. I so wish that I was. I am not a depressed person nor am I bipolar, but I do have alot of stress in my life like all of you do. I do feel healthier, I've lost weight, have alot more energy, and I'm enjoying my children so much more. Is this due to Lenair? Sobriety? Both? I don't know. I do know that I am grateful for each that I am AF. Thank you for listening and blessings and love to all of you on this journey.

[cowgal]

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hope so

Momof3, I sure hope it is the Lenair that has changed your outlook on life and al....................that is sure what I am looking for.

Work in progress, I didn't know what Lenair was either, til I saw all these guys w/ success stories from going there, I have battled al and lost so many times, I finally comitted and am going to houston on 9/8 for 3 treatments................can't wait, cuz I have been unsuccessful at it even w/ AA, don't want a rehab center, then I will be labeled alchoholic for the rest of my life, bad enough I had taken Campral w/ no help, so it is probably labeled that I am an alcoholic!! Oh well, cannot change the past..................

you have had alot of problems, me too, but not so bad (well, maybe so, my brother died in a motorcycle accident, dad comitted suicide a year before, husband sucks and is verbally and sometimes physically mean to me......:upset::upset:............)


All I can say is I am very hopeful it will work for me, I am at my wits end w/ this crap!!!!

Lots of love,:l:h keep us posted on your progress..........................

MA

[Cinders]

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Momof3,

THANK YOU for your post.

I was talking to my dad about Lenair today, they are ready to put me in Betty Ford (shiver) and I said, "Let's see what happens there."

My dad said, "You are going to have to have strength when you come from Lenair."

I said, "I know, I do, but if it helps, if it keeps the wolf at bay enough, I can do it."

I really do not want to end up at a 12 Step program rehab.

I like AA, I go to AA but I do not think it is the "do all end all" of this problem.

If Lenair simply does not help me enough, I am resigned to taking a long term medical leave and going into long term rehab.

I am thinking the St. Jude approach, which is not 12 step. They approach the problem as "you drink/drug" to feel good. In 6 weeks, we will show you what you need to do to feel good without the drug.

But 6 weeks out of my life will be DEVASTATING to my family. DEVASTATING.

I am the financial person in the house.

Damn, I hate myself. I do. Why can't I just do this on my own?

Because I am weak. Shit.

Sorry, guys, but that is how I feel right now.

Love,
Cindi

ps. I have been through a 12 step rehab program already, so I do know what I am talking about.

pss. My brother would just tell my I am a whiner and "get over it." I tried that once. Luckily it didn't work...

[cowgal]

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cindi

I feel for you Cindi,I feel weak too, and I am coming back to a RAGING alcoholic, but others have done it, maybe I will get strong enough to end it (the marriage that is)

Are you drinking?? I cannot get off the merry go round right now, I know that all I have to do it STOP, but there is always a reason to drink......................anymore any way..................:upset::upset:

I will be thinking of you, don't let anyone talk you out of Lenair, there is just too much positive feedback I am getting, I almost KNOW it will work......................will talk to LUV and Buckledown and get more encouragement........................if you want to talk I will pm you my #

I love you, really, and hope the best for you..................:l:l

MA

[Cinders]

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Mary Anne,

You have to understand. The only thing I have to deal with is a loving husband who gets really pissed off when I drink.

Not because drinking is "bad" but because I drink so much I hurt myself. He cannot stand it. I see the pinched nose and the worry.

He loves me.

I have no excuse.

I am just a drunk. Me, by myself. No one else to blame.

I was never mistreated as a child and only slightly mistreated as a wife when hubby went through the "usual" stuff that men go through. However, even in those times, he loved me and still does.

It scares me, Mary Anne, that I might lose that love for this addiction.

I scares me badly.

Love,
Cindi

[Cinders]

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But apparently, not enough to quit "on my own."

Darn.

Love,
Cindi

[cowgal]

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I want to

I personally want to LOSE that love for this addiction!!! There are so many other things I could do if I didn't always drink and waste my life!!! I am scared that it won't work though!! I need this to work, or I will lose my job, husband (well, that wouldn't be bad, he likes me drunk, duh!) at least my job, my health and eventually my life, it is that bad, at 45 I have pain in my liver area, stomach problems, alot of things I KNOW are related to drinkin (being a nurse I know "just enough", but not enough...............)

Love you,:l:h:h

I am praying and pulling for you.....................at least you have a loving husband, I am going all alone to this, scared about the 7 hour drive but that desparate!!

MA

[Cinders]

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Mary Anne,

You are NOT going alone. We are all with you and ToughinTexas offered to stay with you while you went through it.

What a wonderful place this is.

No kidding.

Loving friends and loving people.

We are so blessed to be here.

Love,
Cindi

ps And, I will tell the truth about my experience. I will. I believe many have before me but I will tell the truth about Lenair, good or bad. Do not worry. I am an open book and have always been one. A WYSIWYG (wissywig) (What you see is what you get). I will never change from that.

[momof3]

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Cindy and Cowgal,

I am happy that you are going to Lenair. If I had to do it all over again, I would make the same decision to go. I am AF for 90 plus days afterall, and I was in real rough shape when I went to Lenair--shaking, dry heaves, extreme anxiety every day. My life was completely out of control in every way.

I decided to be forthcoming with my experience because it did seem different from many who have had the experience of alcohol being a nonissue. That has not been the case for me but my desire for alcohol and my depression over not being able to have it does seem to be getting better as time goes by.

I tried outpatient rehab 3 years ago and followed up with 12 step and it wasn't for me either. I did however, get 7 months of being AF. I have also gone up to 2 years being alcohol free in the past without any treatment program.

I wish you both the very very best. YOU ARE STRONG AND GLORIOUS. Please PM me if you'd like. I'm happy to answer any questions you might have or just be a support.

[bird]

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Tex needs help.Check the step dad committed suicide thread in ASAP

[Cinders]

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Momof3,

Thank you.

How are you doing now?

I hate to ask but the future is so...... important.

Love,
Cindi