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[lucky 2.0]

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bird,

I wished I lived in a state that did sell on Sunday. In CA it is EVERYWHERE- even @ Walgreens! I can get it anywhere, anytime. Not good!

Stay strong and good for you for rearranging your room instead of caving! Cravings are not fun but they do not cause physical pain and they will subside. Stay strong!

[Niblet]

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Good SUNNY Morning
I'm just stopping by Super-d-duper quick to tell everybody here that we got a phone message last night !!!!
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O U R H A Y I S R E A D Y F O R U S T O D A Y !!!!!!!!!!!
Thank-You Lord !!!

[momof3]

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R2C--I love that piece of advice: "You have to want it (being AF) more than anything else and stick with it." I am adding it to my "staying alcohol free collection." This collection of advice keeps me AF when it gets tough.

Brittzak--I am happy to hear that you are staying strong. Just know that these cravings are cyclical. If you stay tought, they will go away and you will be on an even keel again.

[Cinders]

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Hello, Everyone.

Well, the weekend has been pretty busy and I am still AF.

Interestingly, the night sweats and the unable to sleep have disappeared since my first visit with Rhonda. Hmmm...

The cravings have not disappeared but I was around booze all day yesterday and could have EASILY snuck some and never did. The thought occurred but the act never did. That is amazing.

So, Lenair may have had some impact, after all.

I am waiting for the Monday and Tuesday sessions before I pronounce either way.

More2, thanks for posting for TIT. I haven't read it yet but will do that next.

LUV, so proud of you for not caving.

Momof3, I am so glad you started posting about your experience. It helps a lot. I told myself before I came here that if this "didn't work" I would NOT give up, and I won't. However, in my mind if I have just sad that I can't drink and have occasional cravings that I can overcome, IT DID WORK. Because that would be so much better than my situation before coming here.

Nibs, glad you got some hay. Sure the animals are, too.

Cowgal, I know you are away, but if you see this, hang in there, girl. I will keep you apprised. Trust me.

OkyDoky, Hi!!

BearFamily, :l

Love to all!!
Cindi

[cowgal]

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hi all

Made it back from the beach, surprisingly, left my wallet there, so no ID, not money, no credit cards, CRAVING, not booze, I am hurting BAD!!!!!!!!!!! I feel horrible, hopefully can sleep it off, but it is past midnight, and i have to be up at 5....................

just thought I would check in, love you all, feeling like crap but I can sweat it out, becoming a pro at that!:H:H:H

love you all!!!:h:l

MA

[momof3]

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Cindi--This is such good news that you are not drinking, that you got a good nights sleep and you have not had night sweats--all very good signs. Good luck today.

Cowgal--I'm sorry to hear that you are feeling so badly. Can you find some time to get out in the fresh air and ride today? Will that help? :h

[cowgal]

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at work

I was up all night drinking and only had 3 hours of sleep so feel like shit today, drove home from the beach yesterday and it really took it's toll on me, I am home all alone which should be a good thing, but it is not...........................

I need some support........................help.

MA

[ready2change]

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MA..first I will give you a ((HUG)))...then I'm gonna ask you to dig down deep and find the strength that you have found before to go AF. Go back when you get time and read your posts from before when you were AF and sounded so upbeat. Then read these posts where your beside yourself. Which feels the best? I'm sure you have the answer to that.

If Mike is your biggest trigger and he is gone for the week...you should have no problem going AF? Just pamper yourself...come home, go to an AA meeting, take a hot bath. Just MA time.

It sounds to me like drinking alongside Mike is not the best thing you could be doing. And I'm not sure why your doing it? If you two fight as you state, alcohol only fuels this behaviour. If you don't drink and he does, you are better equipped to deal with his verbal abuse. But we all know how it is when both parties have been drinking. Do you drink with him to try to feel close to him? I'm really trying to understand this. Because I read in so many of your posts how awful he is to you, I'm just trying to figure out why you would want to drink with him. Honey, I'm not judging you here...I just want you to do something before this gets really out of control.

R2C

[Niblet]

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I'm sending you lots of love cowgal xxx take one hour at a time sweetie and know that we are all here for you... Sorry I've not spent time to catch up, but it is sooooo busy around here these past couple days. Today we are taking the kids for a swim at camp.. We will also bring home the bbq for this next weekends family BBQ at home here. We need the extra cooking area ... gotta fly... all the hay is in safe and sound, and nobody has a sore back... Thank-You Lord !
Hugs,xxx

[bird]

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Hi all,
Its so terribly hot here. Went to work this morn and forgot my ice chest. Came home to get it and the girls had 2 chickens in the house. The new chick and her mother. The chickens were asleep on their backs. More2 I'll send a pic if you send me your email.CG this week should be alot easier with Mike gone. Not that much longer to lenair. Nibs they are cutting hay across the road from me. The hay field is full of white egrets with just their heads sticking out of the hay.Very pretty. Thank God school starts next week. The kids are bored.Later on...bird

[Cinders]

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Bird, Nigs, More2, Cowgal, R2C, Momof3, and everyone else,

Bird, I love the visual of the egrets in the hay field. Does sound pretty as a picture. Thank you.

Doing well, had second Lenair session and feeling good. Still don't know if it is working but will keep everyone informed. I totally promise!!

Love to all,
Cindi

[cowgal]

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promising

I just spoke w/ my sponsor (and you Cindi) and I have hope that I can kick this thing, I HATE this disease!!!! Bird, thanks for sharing that visual w/ us! Everyone, I am sorry about my being a downer to this site right now, I just was feeling hopeless, and got to get a grip!

Nibs thanks for your well wishes, I appreciate it.....................REady2 and more2 too......................I can take any advice I can get!

I love you all dearly,:l:h and like your feedback, it makes me feel loved, which I am lacking in my life.................

Mike is coming home tomorrow, :upset:YUCK!(feel sorta horrible about that, maybe there is something wrong w/ me???) I just got off the phone w/ him, but I will go to an AA meeting and make myself scarce................

love you all!:l:h

MA

[brittzak]

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I AM BACK...HOME SWEET HOME....

I love my friend to death...I mean to pieces....but her children are a real handful. I mean a HANDFUL...the baby called me and ASSHOLE the first day. HE IS 3....we have just raised our children VERY different. And in Miami almost everyone drinks...I didnt sleep well either. But, I am home now. Zak and Mike came top pick me up at the airport....I got all teary seeing zak and so did he. We have been apart 11 days....the kids were at their Dads...longest ever for us. We hugged and kissed all the way home. Then when I got home Brit came running......met me at the car. I was so happy to see them both. My babies....and no one has called me asshole yet. LOL

COWGAL....I am sorry I havent been around for a few days and you have needed me. I am home....we will talk tomorrow honey. Hang in there. I KNOW KNOW KNOW how rough this is. Lenair has helped me tremendously but you will still have to put a bit of umph behind it. Taking the tinctures daily and the diet are work. I am still very glad I went because in the past I would have caved big time.

Having you all helps me tremendously as well. I just always feel so loved here and feel I can come and say when I am having a bad day and not be judged.
Bird that is so funny about the girls....God only knows what the kids do when we aren't home.
Cindi I am so so so thinking of you.

[bird]

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[bird]

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thats 2 chickens asleep on their backs if you cant tell hahaha