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[bootcampbarbie]

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oh i'm so sad about cody. i guess we all gotta go sometime. ah cody. i'm going to lite a candle when i get home for my 4 hours of sleep tonight before i run back to the conference umm maybe not what if i fall to sleep and um catch the place on fire. well, i'll pray on my way home then. ah i'm so sorry bird that you hate school. and i know i know it isn't funny. but you have to get at 48 this is very funny. you can not withdraw you little brat. you have got to do it. no whining. absolutely not. i will get my barbie ass in a plane and get over there and drive your butt to school, pack your lunch and sit outside your classroom. ahahahahahahaha. so get out mathlab and buck up. if i can do 12 long and grueling years in night school while working full time and get all my degrees pumpkin head you can go to school. and i know you can.... and gosh i believe i'm headed back again in 3 years. ahahahahahahaha one more degree won't hurt me. ahahahaahahaha. so buck it up. and instead of alcohol try umm lemonaide. makes the math easier. although i will say i swigged alot of wine and did homework in my day. i just wouldn't recommend it. see i told you our lovebug was busy.. oh i'm so sorry you keep changing your trip to hawaii.
well, i'd just hop the plane and tell hubby come when you can. i'll get you at the airport. plenty for me to do to get the island ready for you. aahaghahahahahahahahahahhaha. i_ and i'll be all chilled out by the time you arrive. okay wow, aren't i little ms advice. i leave you and come back all ms. advice. you can tell me to fuck off anytime you like. oh um sorry bear lady that wasnt very polite. umm you can tell me to umm slap myself how's that? ta ta barbie over and out. hard to be a barbie when i've gone back to brunette. hummmm

[cowgal]

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good morning!!!!

Well, nice to have you back Barbie!! Yep, I went to Houston to see Rhonda and Barry............sweetie, cutie-pie, TIT met me there and we totally enjoyed our 5 days together, she is soooooooooooooooooo cute and sweet! Those of you who have not met her need to, I really mean that!! And the most positive, insightful person I know, it was definitely a GOD thing that brought us together, she helped me more than Rhonda I think!!!:h

LUV, good to see you too! Sorry you are so busy w/ the kids and work, I too shall be like that soon enough...............

Have an interview today w/ a pulmonary office in town, only part-time, but at this point I will take anything..................wonder if I will be able to collect part of unemployment too to help out??!

Lucky, good to see you, stop by more often!

Everyone have a great Thurs................I have a busy one too....................

lots of love,:l:h:l

MA

[greeneyes]

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Hi all. MA I was thinking about substitute teaching until I find the job of my dreams :H. I can quit and probably get unemployment based on the circumstances since alimony is probably not a reality. Let's make that deffinately. I can't figure out why I'm not freaking out. Maybe LUV will get me a job.

Bird I feel your pain. I hate school too and I had to drop math 102 in college. People ask me a question involving math and then say "Oh, yeah" as they see my blank look. :H However. I agree with bootsie. Buck up girlie. You can do this. And put that wine glass down, it isn't helping. Do your best one day at a time. You really can do this!

[Mrs.BearJr.]

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Lady bear from what I know is doing fair. I think its still a overload and she it trying her best to work through all this. She is coming in town today to handle more business.. (seems never ending of course). But through all the craziness that has been our lives these pass months we manage to pull through and find some light at the end of the tunnel. we pick up what is left of our selfs and find some new meaning to what is now our lives. I think moving on is the hardest part of letting go. when is it ok to move on and to allow your self to be ok. My heart breaks for bear lady, some day seems so blah, words cant describe. But my prayer is that God will give her purpose and drive. meaning and love and a since of peace that heal and restores.
with all my love,

[cowgal]

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prayers

Prayers and love go out to the entire Bear family.:angel:ray::lilangel::wings:

love & peace ....................:l:h

MA

[brittzak]

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Hey all....Greenie give me a call when you get a chance. We havent had the chance to catch-up since your court date. I am really in your corner girl and hope all is ok. You will be FINE!!!!! You could sub until you find something more suitable. Maybe you can come out to Gilbert! LOL Hell, Greenie you can come stay with me and the kids if ya need to...shit you dont eat anything..you dont drink...would we even know you were here? HE HE HE

Bear Family, death is hard...very hard, but sudden traumatic death leaves you very shaken and vulnerable for several months. This does not go away overnight. Your whole world changes LITERALLY within seconds. I KNOW you are sick of hearing this but you will begin to heal in time....what that time frame is is not measurable by society, it is individual. AND just because one takes longer to begin this process than another within the same family does not mean one loved your lost loved one any more or less. Everyone heals at their own speed. Please do not expect to be FINE after the first year. I can not tell you how many people thought that because we had made it through all those FIRSTS that the second year should be a breeze. There will be times for the rest of your life that a song will play, his birthday will come, you will see someone that favors him, etc and that will bring a tear to your eyes. Let yourself feel. I think the biggest stigma society puts on us is to GET OVER IT. You NEVER get over it, you learn to LIVE WITH IT. For me, I have learned to accept I will forever miss Billy. To me at this point, it makes me smile, because I know that he is worth my memories and love. AND Papa Bear is too. You all sound like you are moving forward. Your loss is still very new. Just continue to love one another.

MA.....dang girl, you didnt tell me you were an artist. What do you draw? PORTRAITS??? I am guessing cause you said you had to blow-up a picture. I would LOVE to see your work. I am praying for you. I know a good job is right around the corner for you. OH and busy is good for me. I am so HAPPY to be able to function busy again. I am back to being the good Mama I used to be, working like a maniac...course they proably wish I was still drunk at work cause I am much more on my game sober and on top of theirs too..HA HA HA

More2, I am SO SO thinking of you tonight. Your baby is growing up. I can only imagine!!!! I tear up thinking of my kids leaving. It will be an adjustment, but you and your husband enjoy each others company...hey you can run through the house NUDE! Call one of us if you need us. We are all here for you.

My Bootsie girl...an editor. You are so beautiful. I love the pics. I am gonna PM my address so you can send me a copy. I wanna know someone famous!!!!! AND ya live in Cali too....my friends will think I'm the shit...HA HA HA

Nibs have fun at camp!!!!!! You sound busy and having fun as usual. Glad the garden did so well this year.

Bird...I can imagine going to school is rough. You hang in there. You can do it. Get back on your antabuse and give it a REAL good push.

TIT I love you! Sorry for all your pain right now. Big hugs to you. You have a heart the size of Texas. We all love you very much.

Cindi, I know you havent been feeling well. Prayers going up from me to the big guy with your name on them. XXXXXX

I am working all day Sunday. Gotta get the house all clean and decorated for Halloween. I decorate my house for Halloween, Thanksgiving, and Christmas. Go all out!!!!! I have the cute ghost theme for Halloween...not the bloody scarey thing. LUVUALL...

[cowgal]

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hey all

I am up and off to another interview, this one at a nursing home (YUCK!) but something is better than nothing, it is probably time for me to swallow my pride and take whatever comes my way.

As to the artist, LUV, I have an art degree and I had been doing artwork for a living when I met Mike....................not really anything except the occaisional painting since then (except a few pieces of stained glass back in the early 90s.............I specialize in , of course, horses!! And other animals, like wildlife etc.............I have alot of my work on my walls in the house, but really need to get back into it, and TIME is the hot commodity! I (not even working!) don't have enough time in the day!!

Off to the interview, then lunch w/ a friend (he is a friend in AA ), then the gym THEN, maybe I will work on some artwork, never got to it yesterday, my studying of World History got the best of my afternoon, YEAH Bird, I hear ya, school SUCKS!!! I am probably taking next semester off, too much $$!!

love you all,:l:h good to see you back LUV! And Barbie, now we just need Cindi, but I heard she is busy too..................good to be busy and AF!! I am sooooooooooooooo grateful to not have ANY desire!!!YAY!!!!

MA

[Cinders]

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Hi Guys!!

I have been missing you but having some struggles with health, etc.

I love all of you. I am so happy MA is doing well. Best is almost at 6 months!! Barbie is back!! TIT, More2, Nibs, BearFamily. I love every one of you!!

Bird, Don't get discouraged. Once you are through math, you are done. Your classes will be good and bad. Stick it out for a couple more semesters before you decide to quit. If there is anyway I can help you with the Math, please let me know!! I tutored both of my children and my husband with math. It is my major.

As soon as I know for sure what is going on with me, I will let you know. Meanwhile, know I am lurking and reading every other day or so.

My 30 day family is one of my true refuges. Knowing all are here and well helps me a lot. :l

Love,
Cindi

[toughintexas]

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Morning all....still trying to catch up! Cindi, you are in my prayers, I'm crossing my fingers, eyes, and toes for you....(now, how I'm gonna drive, I just don't know yet!) MA, you are going to reinvent yourself, so,....God may be closing the doors on those jobs you really hate, and don't flourish in, so he can guide you thru a door where you can use those magnificent gifts he gave, to the fullest...so always remember, we aren't in the drivers seat! One door closes, a new wonderful one may open, keep your mind and heart open! Luv, glad you are good! More2, I swear I'll call you today, its been heck getting back in the groove and caught up, plus we had the closing on our property yesterday, our hay meadow, and was tied up with that...we are going to put our farm on the market for grins and giggles and see if we get a BIG bite on that....lol.....we still have 28 acres around the house.....going back to Ft. Collins and make with real estate agent again, will leave Thurs., come back on Tues., we may just get an executive rental for income, and then we can all meet up there! That'd be a blast!!!! Nibs, are you going to camp this weekend? Bird, take a weekend break girl! Best, congrats, congrats....whoop whoop is right! Love you all, will check in tonight!

[cowgal]

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hired!

I don't know if I am happy or not, but a job interview I had went well, and I am hired making just about the same salary as I was at my last job.................starting, which I am feeling that will increase as the time goes by.................all my free time will be gone, but I will be able to get back on track $$-wise, so eventually get the horses back, have $$ in the bank, have benefits, so will be able to go to doctors if I need to etc..........................the kids too, as I will get them covered on my plan.....................:h

I, like I said am abivilant about it, but I am sure good will come of it.

Artwork will still be on my agenda, after I finish this history class I am taking now...............then, get my RN??!! Who knows, the salary is WAYYYYYY better as an RN, than an LPN.

I am SOOOOOOOOOO glad to see you back Cindi, your health is a concern, but will pray about it for you! Hopefully the big guy upstairs will help you too.................he's been guiding me through this difficult time.................I not only haven't desired to drink, I actually have been "happy", truly HAPPY, now that is a feat!!

I love :h :h you all dearly,Tex, Best, Barbie, LUV, Nibs, momof3, lucky,bird (stick w/ it, school will get easier, I HATE math too..............take the easy classes if I can), everyone else..........................................I know you are all here for me and that makes it better!!

MA

[bestlifeldms]

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Just about the end of a crazy, too busy, crappy day! I'm not usually this foul, mood wise, that is. But, man - el-stinko- disposition here. The insurance company cancelled the mediation hearing that my hub and I had scheduled for monday, 29th. Trying to settle for an agreeable amount $ for the contents that the insurance tried not to pay us for. Really ticks me off. I just want this fire thing to be done with, close the chapter of that book and put it behind us. Just p's me off that they (big insurance companies) play around with people's lives. Grrrrrrrrrrrrr! Had hearing in court this morning for a case here at work. Didn't go well either. I thought the 4 attorneys were going to get into a "fist a cuff" right out in the hallway. Never saw anything like that in all these years. Security started heading our way. Here I am this little old lady, in the middle of 4 guys whose testosterone was WAY TOO HIGH! Yikes! :wow:


MA- congrats on the job! I had no doubt. I will tell Mr. Best. He asks about you.

Ditto on the I love you :h:heart::h all bunches, MA, Tex, Barbie, LUV, Nibs, momof3, lucky,bird (study hard little bird- it will be worth it.)

Time to blow this popsickle stand. Son is watching his GF's 3 yr. old. I'll go home and play with her. That will put me in a better mood. Take care all!

[lucky 2.0]

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MA- Congrats on your new job! That was fast! So many have been without work for such a long time. I am so glad you are not one of them.

Best- Sorry about your crappy day but it sounds like you have a good plan to get out of your funk. Dealing with insurance companies sounds like no fun and I am sorry you are having to go through it. Enjoy your playdate!

[momof3]

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Happy Saturday

Hello All, I really appreciate all of you on this thread....such strong people who even in the face of adversity are working hard and staying optimistic. We rock!

MA, Congrats on the job. You don't sound too thrilled about it...just look at it as a short term step in your journey...Wow, going back to school for your RN...that would be great. There's no stopping you now. I'm hoping that you will get those horses back soon. It sounds like they bring you alot of peace and comfort...such warm, gentle creatures...I love everything about them.

T-I-T, Sounds like you are getting back into the swing of things even though the rug has been taken out from under your feet several times.

Luv, A discouraging day for you...I would be upset too with having to fight for the money that you deserve...It's not like you are trying to sham anyone or get rich...can't say that for the folks who have gotten us in this economic mess we are in.

Nibs, Greenie, Bird...look at all of the changes happening in your lives. My gosh, we are all going through a transformation and I think it is in the right direction.

Cinders, Hope we are graced with your regular posts againl soon.

All others I may have missed....Happy Saturday.

Momo3

[greeneyes]

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Hope everyone is fine today. I'm in desperate need of jeans and hate to shop but Belks has a big denim sale this AM so I'm going to buck up and do it. Then go to a community fair thing and hopefully pick up some gift items to add to my stash in the closet. X-mas is coming soon, you know. Hummm.... Christmas. Wonder what that will be like for me.

MA glad you got a job w/ good pay and benefits. I hope you like it. I'll call the school district about subbing next week. I wish hubby would fire me or lay me off. Unemployment atty said my chances are risky. Oh well, I agree with TIT's thinking.

Everybody sounds pretty good. We ARE all incredibly strong women. It's good to remind each other lest we loose sight of that fact. :l & :h to all.

[cowgal]

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Hey all!

Happy Saturday!!! You all sound awesome (sorry you had such a horrific day yest, Best) but you DID prevail! We are all on the right track, I agree!:goodjob:

TIT, hang in there, you are doing well in spite of, you too Cindi!

good to see you Greeneyes, Momof3, and everyone else.

I am not upset about the new job, I am just really enjoying being home w/ all this free time, which I know will TOTALLY disappear when I start the job................pay is good, it is a nursing facility (challenging, rather than BORING like my old job! I will be walking and on my feet all day instead of sitting at a desk BORED out of my wits!) I am excited about that, and my patient contact, I enjoy patient contact and the fact that I can make a difference w/ the love and care I give my patients................all is good.

I am off to the gym, then building a library/book unit w/ Mike when he comes home from the job.

Tomorrow will be a horse day, going to see them and ride a little, it is really nice and cool in the AM right now.................about 60degrees, then up to almost 90 in the PM, so guess when I will be riding!?

love you guys,:l:h:l


Have an awesome Sat.!!

MA