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[toughintexas]

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Our realtor is from Loveland, it is just a "burb" of Ft. Collins! It is soooo nice there, I'm looking forward to meeting neighbors, and having an Open House, and doing a few things I want to do to the place....haven't got the offer in yet, but I'm being positive...right now, it'd just feel good to curl up in the house with a fire in the fireplace maybe! Got home last night, and it was hot as heck in the kitchen and living area, and today, got the report that the compressor is out here, so its just one more thing...I can't wait til New Years, it HAS GOT TO BE BETTER! I know God doesn't give you more than you can handle, but he is TRUSTING ME WAY TOOOO MUCH RIGHT NOW! lol It just doesn't seem to stop here lately. I do love Ft. Collins tho, and hope to make it home someday....I really have got to get myself back on track right now tho, I'm just not "myself" lately, and I hate that!

[toughintexas]

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Oh, one cool thing is, the neighborhood is an old one, really has lots of old big trees, and a huge Douglas blue fir tree right in the side yard, it's also right outside the bathtub window of the master bath....soooo pretty.....the streets are a mile wide, and all have sidewalks and bike paths...its so cool, everyone rides bikes, they even have a bike library where you can check one out to ride, and try it on for size....lol.....its like living "back in the day" kinda, but there's everything in the world to do, that you can even imagine, with the small town feel still in it, and tons of views....I think its my "safe haven" for times to come!

[Niblet]

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Awwww Tex, we have sure missed you Honey Bun xxx
That neighbourhood sounds absoutely darling... You are such an resilient gal and will be your old self in no time flat. Yep, the dear Lord doesn't hand us more than we can handle. You must be Texas tough !!!

Best, it sounds like you had an amazing time. I love reading about your life. Congratulations on all those AF days !!! Phewwww !!!!! You Rock

Well, today was a good day and I only ended up with a bit of a mark on my cheek close to my eye. It is a bit swollen, but mostly just sore to the touch.... washing my face sucks !

Yesterday our sons girlfriend had to have their family dog put to sleep. He was really old, went into a seizure and didn't come out. His hips were quite bad also. It is so sad that our pets don't live as long as us. I called her yesterday and she said that they were happy that he is now in a better place. RIP "Duke"

We have some unseasonably hot temps coming our way this weekend... Yahoooo !!!! May get as warm as 25 C, or 78 F... for October which is normally frosty and bits of ice in the rain.... we'll take it !!!

Well, I'm gonna go and grab a snack.
Again, Tex, it's great to see ya Sweetie xxx
Hugs everybody xxx
ps, Lucky thanks for the picture of your dog Lucy and Cowgal for the beautiful picture of your Cocoa !!! Gosh how I'd love to meet all you guys !

[toughintexas]

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Nibs, love your horsey, thanks for the pic, and thanks for the support, you and Best, are the BEST....lol....Cindi too!!! I love you all so much, I'll rally back to "normal" and start pitching in to help everyone else again....just lost my footing a tad I'm afraid. I went to get a massage this afternoon for a bit, sleeping here and there and flying around had me worn-out...while I was in there, More2 called me back, she's in Hawaii, for like another 2 wks., poor thing.....lol.....she said she'll call tomorrow if she can. MA, I love you tons, you are doing soooo great! You'll find the perfect job and life soon, you have all the tools you need to do it now, and you deserve it! Ya'll keep the group prayers coming, I need them!!!!! Love you all!

[cowgal]

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good morning!

Well, boy was I tired last night, at work until 4:30, then taxi mom from then til I got to the swim meet at 5:30...............was raining pretty badly so it ended at 6:45 or so. I got home, ate and was showered and in bed by 9:00, asleep by 9:30!!

Work was ok, in orientation ALL day! Boring!! Then learned my schedule, will be IV certified on Friday (10:30-6 or so........another long brain-crunching day!) I officially start when the certification comes back on Tues...............scheduled to work Wed. 7-3. Looks tough, I will be physically EXHAUSTED I think. If it doesn't kill me it will make me stronger though! RIGHT!??

TIT, it is SOOOOOOOO good to have you back here, I cannot express that enough. I love you dearly, along w/ everyone here.................really CHERISHED our week in Houston, you were so helpful and loving!!!!:l

Nibs, LOVE Freckles, she is ADORABLE, enjoy her!! You probably have nice riding weather coming your way!

Cindi, I am so happy you don't have MS!! Did the doc say what it is??? I have been praying that your health is ok..............YAY!

Everyone else to come, have a great day, enjoying another day off, AF!! Hope the weather cooperates! Got to get a lock for my locker at work.........it is like a mini-hospital..............

Love,:h:l:h

MA

[brittzak]

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having a rough spell myself right now. boyfriend and I split up....been kinda blue lately. sober, but sad! TIT, I lived in Miami through hurricane andrew....what a nightmare! I feel your pain. I cant imagine having to go through that and all the other turmoil at one time. i know they say God doesnt give you more than you can handle but he sure does push it at times...LOL my heart just aches for you right now.... Why didnt more2 take us to hawaii? I am pissed....ha ha ha

[greeneyes]

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I'm in the boat with you Brittzak. We can paddle for each other when one of us gets tired! Monday and Tuesday I really wanted to drink. But didn't. Britt, you and I are coming up on 4 months! Someone posted a while back that if you and I could do it, anyone could. :H I howled over that - wish I could remember who said it. I gotta run. I need to do a couple things at the office and have to be in and out before everyone gets there. I got to the point that I cannot be in the office with the receptionist. DUH.

Everybody take care. :l

[toughintexas]

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Aw Luv, that's too bad! What happened? I know that puts a downer on things for you, but hey, its better to let it go now, than to have to do it later right? I'm so sorry for you tho! Looks like lots of us are looking forward to the New Year! MA, I'm glad to be back, it strenghtens my resolve! I woke up this morning, and it was like my system felt all of your prayers and thoughts....I feel renewed for the battle, and started the anatbuse this morning, so I won't even have drinking on the table. I have tons to do, haven't even unpacked yet! I think the offer is going thru on the house, so I'll have tons to keep me busy...like finding antiques and furniture in a place I've never even shopped in! My butt is puckered up! I don't know why More2 ditched us for Hawaii, she's probably having great time with hubby, getting used to being an empty nester! Love you all, will check in later, the cupboards are bare, gotta get groceries, wash and get to the gym, I need the endorphins to keep in the rest of the way!

[toughintexas]

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that was Kick in the rest of the way!

[cowgal]

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great!

It is so great to see you LUV, sorry about the break up..................that is hard, to have a relationship end like that................I hope GOD will put someone new and positive in your life!

Greeneyes, great to see you here too!! 4 months! LUV, that is great! I really felt challenged yesterday after such a long (sorta depressing)day in orientation.......... just sat there, read and watched boring movies and filled out papers...............for 8 HOURS!! YUCK, I really felt as though I "deserved a drink" afterwards, but the thought was very brief and fleeting................that is a blessing!!

TIT, you sound AWESOME!! So positive, I am happy for you!!

WELCOME BACK!!!!

lots of love to everyone,:h:h

Later,

MA

[brittzak]

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We just didnt see eye to eye on many things. Wasnt an angry break-up, just time to admit it is over. Has been rough. I dont do change real well. But, I am learning. Greenie, I am amazed at your strength girl. I would be a looney tune for sure. You are doing so well. You go!!!!

[Cinders]

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Hello my 30 day friends.

TIT, thank you for checking in and being honest. Honesty is so much a part of this site. It is awesome. You will get back to where you need to be because GOD will help you. I believe that totally. :l

LUV, I am so sorry you broke up with bf. BUT, I have talked to you about who he is and why you are together and I thought at the time it was not the best thing for you. You are such a beautiful, incredible person. You will find your soul mate again. There is one here for you. Just pray for it. God will provide.

Greenie, Same thing. You are hurting because of the change. You knew this darn crap before it slapped you in the face. You did. You are so incredibly beautiful, you truly will find someone who cares about YOU instead of about him. And, now that you are a sober, beautiful woman, you will be able to love "him" instead of worrying about "you" the drunk. I hope I said all this right. I love you and simply want the best for you.

BIRD!!! Where are you??? Do not let difficulties with school and life distract you. You are such a wonderful mama (and there is absolutely no other job in the world that is more important than that) and an incredible "artist" about so many things. Please let us know you are okay.

Mary Anne, I can't add to the wonder here. I am so grateful that Lenair worked for you and you are happy. Because Happy is what life is about...

More2, Hawaii? GIMME a break. I think I married wrong.

Momof3, Best, luCKy, Nibs, Magic and all others...
I am just posting a "streams of consciousness" kind of post.

I love all of you, I really do. Please do not be hurt if I missed your name, just know all of you helped me through a horrendous time. Truly. And, Bear's kind words and love were there for me, too. I still miss him so much. I can see why God took him back. He was needed in Heaven.

[brittzak]

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I love ya Cindi....I married wrong too! DAMNIT......More2 did good huh? I was so thrilled to see your post this week. I had NO IDEA you thought you may have MS. I have a friend with MS and it is a horrid disease. I know you are still dealing with alot...I love you!!! The fact you have remained sober through this all is extremely admirable. Be very, very, very proud of yourself.

BIRDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD...come home. I know we all get busy and cant come here everyday, but you have been awol for a stent now....get your hinny home.

[toughintexas]

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Cindi, you and Best, and Luv, and Greenie, and Mom3, ya'll are all such inspirations! I remember when we were all soooo down and out and struggling....you are right, God does see us thru! We just have to walk in Faith and strength everyday! No matter how "off track" I have been just lately, its not anything like the day I logged on here over a year and a half ago! So, I may not have graduated kindergarten yet, but, I'm getting more good conduct marks than bad, so I'll keep hoping I'll get to move on to 1st grade in the New Year! Ya'll are the best, and there's no way, no how, I'd have ever gotten this far, without all of you!!!! And yes, loosing Bear this year, and then my stepdad, and Uncle that was like my Daddy, was just a tad too much for this gal....I have wanted to talk to Bear so many times lately, but I just try to look up in the sky, and plead for him to punch the Big Guy in the shoulder and point down at me, when I need the extra help! I can just see him shaking his head, loving me, but wanting to thump my skull and tell me to just stop it! lol Just do today titty baby, just do today! MA, you are a natural wonder too, I know this new job is a bit depressing, but ya know, just think how depressing it would be to be living there, for the rest of your days on earth, and I can't think of a better person, with all your shine, and spark, and caring, to be put there to brighten those folks days....you'll be the one they live to see each day! So, just turn it around, and think what good things you can do to make their life better, and it'll be returned to you two-fold! Greenie, you are amazing too....I've been there, done that too ya know, with a dentist, and I have to tell you, even living with less, and not the trauma/drama of having to put up with that "crap" is worth it....you'll find your new life too, and wonder why you didn't just dump his hinney long ago! Luv, ditto, I don't know much about your ex-bf, but, you have come sooo far, and been thru so much this year too, you need to just take care of you, pamper yourself, and the kids, and you'll find Mr. Right too...keep the faith girlfriend! I'm off to the gym, got the groceries in, and got cleaning supplies, have a helper coming tomorrow to do fall cleaning, so I'm prepared! Tonight is the bestest TV night for us, so I'm going to make a "comfort" dinner for hubby, it sounds gross, but he likes grilled turkey sausage, and homemade cornbread, and the baked beans, and tossed salad every once in awhile....so, he's getting it tonight. Usually we are health nuts, and have sashimi grade yellow fin tuna, or natural pork tenderloins, or buffalo, and squash, ya know the drill, but he's having a "hankering" he said for country food....lol.....I'll check in on you all tomorrow. Please keep praying for me, I can FEEL it working!!!!!! I'm SERIOUS too! Love you all tons and bushels!

[momof3]

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Wow! Haven't checked in for a day and look at all that's happening.

Nibs, I hope you are enjoying freckles.

Cinders, So happy to hear that you do not have MS...here's to more healthy days for you.

Luv, Sorry you are feeling blue but it sounds like you did the right thing. When we get sober, we look at the people in our lives (often those we chose when we were drinking) in a whole new light.

T-I-T Welcome back and wishing you all the best with staying AF. We are building up plenty of sobriety here on this thread so let us carry you along. OK?

Greenie, Cowgal, others, you are an inspiration to me.

Gotta get the kids off to bed

Mo3