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[momof3]

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Great advice Best...

[brittzak]

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MA....please know you can come ehre and tell us anything and we will support you and love you. we are all just concerned...probably because man yof us can relate on a very personal level. I love ya girl!!! Call me any time.

[momof3]

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You bet!! It is so very healthy that you are talking about this here. You are one strong and amazing cowgal.

M03

[toughintexas]

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Mom3, thanks, I do care about MA, we practically lived together for a week, and it felt like we'd known each other for a long time by the time we had to part company. If I'm one thing, its a loyal friend, I take my friendships, as blessings, and really try to take care of them. I'd do it for anyone on here, and I know ya'll would, and have done it for me! Best, I hope it all works out for you too, we had a business we loved but had to let go of, about 10 yrs. ago, and it was really a tough, and emotional decision, but such a relief a few months later...I think we have all got to "simplify" as much as possible....even keels daily are so much better! I totally agree that MA needs to take care of herself, and think of what the boys are going thru with Mike also, and listen to them, and her heart, and her friends....then, make her decision....I just say that if he lays a hand on her again, or pushes her, or does ANYTHING that requires running in and locking herself in the bedroom, bathroom, etc...that she needs the phone with her to call 911....anything that happens that is that intense, and you have to tell your kids to call the police, or not, is UNACCEPTABLE.....in fact, I'll say it here....if, in some way, some one else found out about this going on at home....his pot smoking in front of the boys, being drunk, them seeing him abuse her, in any way, verbal, mental, or physically....someone could let it slip at school, or a friend hear about it, and CPS or someone could get wind of it, and if its like Texas....swoop in! MA could be held as responsible for staying there, and letting things go on that may require one of the boys to call the police, and still not change the environment for them, and keep taking it, and living like that, and she could be deemed just as responsible....its just not a good deal. I hope that talk they had involved some dialog about this never happening again.....I love her, and all of you tooooo much! I've lost too many special folks lately, and I'm determined that the rest of this year, and next year, are going to be as painless as possible! LUV, how's the puppy? I want pics! Got lots of running around to do, I'll check in later! Love you guys!

[brittzak]

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The puppy is so good. I will post pictures soon. I just love her. I love all animals though. I am getting Zak an African Grey for Christmas. We truely are a ZOO....HA HA (at least I am no longer swinging around like a damn monkey..LOl)
Momof3.....cravings have been goos the past week now....no desire right now. Thank goodness. Was getting REALLY hard some days to remain AF. I want to be sober but I want to be a happy sober too. Thanks for checking on me.
Nibs...shit happens girl. I was a little sad about Mike at first but kinda glad it is over now. Was far more stressful than happy times laltely...of course could be cause I am sober!!!! Sometimes people look better through the fog of booze...know what I mean? LUVUALL

[momof3]

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Happy to hear that things are going well for you Luv. Oh, and a little puppy...what could be wrong with a little puppy in the house? We have are own little zoo here too.
xxoo
Mo3

[bird]

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Hi all,
Sorry to go AWOL. I was having a bad time with school and drinking alot. Finally decided to hell with it, I hated it anyway plus the gas and missed time from work. Anyway, did have my little audition yesterday which was so scary and embarrassing and exciting. I had been practicing non stop for a couple weeks and losing sleep over it and not eating much. So he liked me and we are going to start rehearsals next weekend. Am so excited its all I can think of and still practicing like crazy. Will have to to keep up with this. Anyway...the kids are out for fall break so will try to get caught up the next few days. Really missed everyone and thanks to CG for calling. love bird

[cowgal]

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WOW

Lots of happy news here, Bird, GLAD your audition went well!! Cool, I will have to drive up and listen to you, can the kids come? David LOVES jazz.................he used to play sax and wanted to do the jazz band, but couldn't...............LUV, the puppy sounds so amazing, you need to post a pic of him!!!

TIT, Momof3, Best.............everyone who has expressed concern, I will ALWAYS post and be honest about what happens w/ Mike on here....................was concerned about last week, that he was acting so wierd, but when I asked him to talk about it w/ me he had been holding all sorts of fears in and venting on them.............fear always leads me to problems too.................a few friends here pointed possible "fear" out when I told them the situation.............was fear of losing control over what the kids do (I always know what is going on w/ them, don't share always w/ him etc.) Fear about me changing so much, (I was usually easy to control, since I drank over everything, was numb and mellow alot, now assertive and voicing my opinions etc.) Fear of not making enough $$ (Not one penny has come in for unemployment, no job on my part, he was worried very deeply about mortgage and becoming another statistic of home foreclosure.................):upset::upset:

I feel a little better that I can be loving and understanding towards him, it IS hard sometimes, but feels good to not give in and be bitter (although I sorta felt I had a right to!) And Rhonda did say he was troubled, she was definitely right in more ways than one!

Gotta go get ready for work yesterday was good, but my legs and feet were SO SORE by 1 or 2PM, let alone 3!!! I will get used to it though and will be stronger because of it!

Lots of love,:h:l:h

Anyone I didn't address hope you are well too!!! Thanks all for caring!

MA

[brittzak]

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We love you MA.....only you live your life. Be safe...and happy...that is ALL I want for anyone here. OH AND SOBER!!! Off to the fair with the kids soon....

[bestlifeldms]

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More 2, Enjoy your trip! I have been to the same beach on Kauai. Quite a treck, but so worth it! When I was there, you could only get to that beach, by hiking the trail you mentioned or by Zodiak. Don't know if that has changed. The road actually ended in a parking lot then the trail began. Beautiful! If I remember, that is the beach where the girls in south pacific sang "I'm gonna wash that man right outta my hair!" Kauai is my favorite of the islands. Our oldest son graduated from the Univ. of Hawaii. We will be anxious to hear about your trip when you return. Had to go to the liquor store for a bottle of wine, a gift for someone here at work. The clerk looked surprised when I walked in and said, "Hi stranger, we thought you had died!" LOL! Pretty bad when they know you ~ because you're there so often. No triggers, nothing when I went in. I kind of wondered if I would feel anything, but I didn't. 192 days, today! Good thing I sobered up and am taking care of myself, because the way the market is behaving, I'm going to have to work until I'm 85! LOL! Love to all!

[Niblet]

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Darn computer !!!
I just made and lost a long post.... argggg !!!
We have such a slow dial-up connection that has a ton of our boys' stuff on it... we need to clean it up enough to de a defgrag.... gosh...
I've been now over a half hour and have only posted once finially,.... and lost the dang thing...
Oh well, I'm so happy to see you Bird, happy about the music for you.
More2, your vacation sounds amazing !!!
MA, know you are loved and cared about so much here XXX
Marilyn is back ripping off the til through me again... I had gone into great detail on my lost post... 30.00 heist this time and the cook is also in on it.. do I say/do anything and risk my job...do I just keep my head up my a$$ and keep my job... funny how nice she is to me on the days she is ripping the company off !!! She is truely evil and hopefully will have to face this with the Lord someday !!! It 's just plain wrong !

I cleaned up my bridle tonight and will do the saddle tomorrow... brought the trailer home last night... 2 more sleeps !!!
Yep Luv I'd love a pic of your pup.. what is her name?
Hugs, xxx,,, Hope I don't lose this condensed post too...

[cowgal]

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sorry Nibs!

I hate when that happens! I have "composed" long posts and lost them too AAUURGH!!!How exciting about the ride, sorry work sucks so bad!

My feet and legs are SO Sore!! Ihad nightmares all night about working alone today, I know it will be ok, but still a little apprehensive on the "unknown"! I may be there well past 3, but it will be ok, then THANK GOD I am off tomorrow!! I have been pooped out and asleep before 9PM most nights since working..................and the best thing AL hasn't crossed my mind or lips!!

Love you guys,:l:h:l sincerely........................had a good dinner and evening yesterday, will keep you all posted(literally!)

Have an awesome day!!!

MA

[bird]

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Hi all,
The post was down on page 3.geez....Had my 1st rehearsal last night with those guys and it was great fun. I was scared shitless but it worked out fine and I gor a recording date with one of them for Nov.2 that pays well. So I was on cloud 9. Took the kids camping Thursday night, we stayed in a treehouse. It wasnt really a treehouse,just what they call it. A screenhouse on stilts. The owls hooted all night and the moon was full. More2 you'll have to post some pics. Best congrats on 192. CG, you sound good. Nibs ,maybe you could send an anonymous letter or something. Later on love you all bird

[greeneyes]

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Not much to say here. Watched a meditation DVD I bought and really liked what the pamplet inside had to say. I think I'm going to make it a routine a few times a week and then hopefully daily. I am wanting spiritual and emotional growth and to learn to peacefully let go of things that are not good for me. I tend to hang onto things. Perhaps that is why the divorce is so difficult. I work hard at keeping the unwanted emotions at bay rather than dealing with them. It's making me weary because they keep coming back.

More2,l your trip sounds fabulous; can't wait to see pics.

Best, I can't wait for the 26th when you hit 200!

Nibs, could you write in Word and then copy and paste here? Will you get in trouble if Marilyn gets caught?

MA, you sound good as usual! Soak those legs in a hot bath with epsom salts. You'll be fine on your own. You are confident and smart as a whip!

Bird great the rehearsal went well. What's a recording date? Treehouse sounds fun!

Everybody take care. Send greenie some love.

[cowgal]

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consider it done!

Greenie, love is sent your way! I think the meditation will do you a world of good................I hate to say it , but going to AA meetings is helping me w/ letting things go, "let go, let GOD" is my favorite saying.....................just gotta remember it when I get all worried at work, yesterday was rough, 1st day alone, will be fine after awhile, just REALLY out of practice. Had a wonderful meeting last night,have a busy, but nice day today.................swim meet in about 1/2 hour, then a huge spaghetti dinner/gathering at one of my AA friend's mansion..........literally a mansion, he opens it up twice a year for about 3 hundred or so people to come and enjoy AWESOME food and fellowship...........looking forward to it!

More2, don't remember if I said "WOW", your trip sounds great!! Really looking forward to the pics!

Nibs, is this when you go riding?? Enjoy her!! I will get to ride tomorrow, miss the guys DEARLY!!!

Tex, Bird (can't wait to see you play!!), LUV, Cindi, Momof3, Best.................I (probably) missed a few...............too early and not enough tea yet:H:H!........well all to follow, have a wonderful Saturday!!!!

Love,:h:l:h

MA