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[morrison]

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I DID IT BEFORE, AND I'M GONNA DO IT AGAIN!!! Yes, there probably wasn't a need to shout, but it is how it is. I didn't F' up, I didn't get arrested. Matter of fact, I just got back in the habit of being a weekend warrior. I know where this path leads. Destruction. Thank God I did learn this. I'll be here for all of you, as you will for me. The key is to never give up. I did over 6 months. I will do it again, and more!!! Love you all.

[akgirl]

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Today is day 1...again. But this is a special start date, my son's birthday, that along with all the tools, my plan and this place. I think...I KNOW I can do 30. I'm in!!!!

[Cinders]

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Hey, 30 dayers!! It has been a little over a week since my last stupid binge.

I agree, let's get back in the swing of AF. Every time I mess up, I hurt those around me in a huge way and I bring myself closer and closer to the brink of death.

I only have so many sobers in me and I will have no idea which one will be my last. So, I better do it right!!

Love,
Cindi

[cowgal]

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WOW, I missed alot!

I have been working my little tail off........................haven't had ANY time to read or post!! Tally get together sounds AWESOME, anywhere really, just let me know when and where and I will be there, but I will be working in the daytime and don't get ANY holidays off..............at the rehab anyway........

Interviewed at a big derm office in town last week, they want me to meet some other docs tomorrow and maybe have a "trial day" in the office, which I think is a great idea. I will keep you all posted, it is more $$ and weekends off..............this past one I worked, and it SUCKED!!! I miss my kids!! And Mike was trashed by the time I got home every night. Not fun.

I missed alot here, your neighbors sound like a hoot Bird, reminds me of in Boynton where we used to live, "rednecks" would yell all kinds of stuff, now I cannot even hear my neighbors they are so far away.

Everyone hang in there, I am going to start dinner, then to bed early, have the second interview at 8:30AM tomorrow and want to be well rested. I am off tomorrow, but one day off for each 3 or 4 (depending on the week) is rough. Guess it is where I need to be right now, I am learning "something"(??)

love you guys, looking forward to meeting you all, and seeing Bird again!!!

HUGS!!:l:l

MA

[brittzak]

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MA, we are thinking Jan 16-18. If we all plan that date NOW...make it work in our schedules. It is a weekend. I think Greenie, Momof3, and I will fly in. You and Bird are already there and I am sure anyone else that can make it will fly in as well.

Well, today was not a good day. Ex-BF was a REAL ASS....why can't it just be over when it needs to be over? I am actually good with it being over, but he calls I try to be nice then he gets mad cause I frankly don't want this relationship anymore. I really just need to be alone with my children for awhile and work on myself.

AF since my blow-out last week and I will not DRINK...I will not. Topa and antabuse will be here next week sometime, just knowing it is on the way gives me strength. Last night we all three cuddled and watched TV in my room. I love my children so much.

Morrison so glad you are back!!!!! We missed you...all of us. we all know where the weekend warrior leads us....at least for a few of us it leads us to the WEEK long binge until we are so ill we can barely move...or really so depressed wish we were dead. Catch it now...we CAN do this. We can.....you have your antabuse? I know it works for you.

[momof3]

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Hey gals,

I have the weekend of Jan 16th blocked off on my calendar. What a great way to start 2009.

MA...good luck on your interview. I hope you get a new job soon...one that does not include weekends and is not so taxing physically.

Luv, have you told the ex what you said here "I just want to be alone with my children and work on myself." That sounds fair enough to me and makes it less of a personal thing toward him. I swear if anything did happen with my marriage, I wouldn't be wanting to have a relationship for a looooooooooooooooooooooong time.

Cinders, I love your strong spirit.

Bird, morrison, more2, T-I-T, Greenie, and everyone else....be well

M03

[bird]

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Hi all,
Yeah lets all get back on track. I'm on anty again, hey Morr, are you gonna get on it again? It's the only thing that seems to work for me. Yeah I'm excited about the get together. Later on....bird

[brittzak]

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Momof3, YES YES and YES, like someone said in chat NO ONE likes being rejected.

[cowgal]

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go everyone!!

I am so happy to see everyone determined to get and stay back on track!!! I am going on 2 months since Rhonda worked her "majic" on me, and it was nothing short of that, a miracle! I have not had one inkling of a desire, and for me that is a first for all of my life!!

Well, I accepted the offer after "shadowing" the doc and some nurses all morning at my interview....................definitely not what I expected to do, but was ok, and gave me a realistic idea of what to expect.................long hard hours Mon-Thurs, paperwork day on 1/2 a day Friday most weeks..............he offered me the highest salary I have ever made in my life along w/ a sign on bonus...........WOW!! I am turning my notice in tomorrow.............I take this nothing short of a miracle too, GOD is doing things for me that I would have never dreamed of. I would never have had this opportunity had I not gotten "canned" from my previous job (which I thought was devastating!) I really was stagnating there anyway, anyone who knows me has heard me say that I was bored out of my mind most of the time.

I am off to my AA meeting......................birthday night, I made the cake which is my "duty" in the group.......................yeah, another night sober.

love to all.................:h:l

MA

[brittzak]

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Just got home from end of the season party for Zak's baseball team. He had FUN! I had a cupcake, cake made. Very neat idea....shaped like a baseball and made goody bags. I am so much better a Mama sober. It is no wonder my kids hate when I drink....

[cowgal]

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ditto

LUV
My kids are LOVING me being sober!! I just told them yesterday that this may not be the best Christmas coming "present-wise", since money-wise I am not that well off yet, BUT, it will be the BEST Christmas EVER, my FIRST SOBER Christmas EVER!!!:h:h:h

They deserve at least one sober parent, I am soooooooooooo looking forward to it!!

MA

[greeneyes]

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MA, I swear you make my heart sing! :h

[bestlifeldms]

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Celebrating the holidays sober will be truely joyous!!! And, like you, MA, I am sure, my family will be able to relax and enjoy, much more than in years past! Money is tight, everywhere, that I can see. My house too. I have been thinking alot about focusing on gifts that are more thoughtful-meaningful, than the quantity or $ of what we give. Everyone really has everthing they need and most of what they want. So, why pile more on top of that. I was at the home of my 26 year old, a couple of months ago, and noticed throuh his open closet door, some of what I had gotten him last Christmas ~ still in store wrapping. I asked him why he didn't return them and he said that he didn't want to hurt my feelings. Hellooooooo ~ what a waste. So putting my thinking cap on and getting my sewing machine out.

Saw my therapist yesterday for the first time in a little over a year. She was amazed at the changes. Lots of adjustments going on in life after alcohol. Hub is leaving to go see our daughter, DIL and Grandson, tomorrow. He will be back monday. He will trick or treat with them. I don't have any time left -2008-, or would be along too. Hope they are coming for Christmas, but not sure yet. First snow flakes here today. Exciting for me, still, every year to see it. A month from now I will be growling.

Had a temporary drama at our house last night. Doggy had an accident overnight that I found in the morning when I got up. POOOOH. Noticed that it had little bones in it. Thought she must have eaten something when she went outside. Cleaning lady was there, told her not to vaccum over it. After I cleaned it up I told her I would steam it when I came home last night.

I was telling my hub about it and our son asked what I was talking about. Seems our resident Gerbil (Rocky) was AWOL. Of course, we all thought the worst! Hub and I had to hide our elation over the fact that we no longer had a rodent in the house. (Please not offense intended ~ animal lovers) I fell asleep in my chair and later last night, my son wiggled my toe to wake me up, only to see a fat, healthy Rocky, cupped in his hands, about 3" from my nose. Anyway, we are still a household of five, 3 - 2 legged humans, a Non-Gerbil, eating doggy and Yes! Rocky! Have a great day all! XXXXXXX

[momof3]

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Good Morning All,

Yes! Our children receive the greatest benefit from us being sober and present! My dad was an alcoholic and I remember those nights when I was a teenager and he would just be sitting at the kitchen table completely out of it...he wasn't a mean drunk, but a quiet, withdrawn one. When he died, he had been sober for 20 years so he had plenty of time to make up for it and that he did. I was much closer to him than I was to my mom and she never had a drop of alcohol.

MA, how old are your children?

I agree about the Christmas presents. We celebrate both Christmas and Hanukkah because my husband is Jewish so my children get more than enough presents. This year we are going to drive up to New Hampshire and celebrate Christmas with my girls' godparents and their daughter. It will be a winter wonderland Christmas.

xxoo
M03

[brittzak]

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OH boy Momof3, adopt me....Christmas and Hanukkah.....that is like a dream come true for a child...LOL When I first moved to Miami Hanukkah can be spelled Chanukkah as well...I said to my friend...what is CHa-nu-kah...it was so funny. I hadn't a clue. I moved from texas...your either Baptist or Catholic...I had never met anyone Jewish until then. We still laugh today 20 years later about that.

Kids are off to their Dad's tonight. I am going shopping after work to stay busy. This time last week is when I FELL off the cliff...not stumble...fell slap off! Not this week though.

Hope TIT is doing ok...I luvuall