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[MDBiker]

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Well, Well, Well.
I survived the day just like yesterday. And yes I have been off and on the bike all day, even though it has looked like it could pour down rain at any minute. Thanks for the support guys. I am doing ok, but I know I would be better off with another job. I was given my yearly performance review today. It wasn?t awful considering I was drinking so much I couldn?t think for several months. As a matter of fact, if I had been on my game, I would probably have knocked their socks off. Now that I am sober, I can see where I was doing a half assed job a lot of the time. If I hadn?t had so much experience I would have probably lost my job. Luckily even with a hangover I knew enough about what I was doing to perform at a reasonable level. I told my boss today that I am better now and he will see that I am not the same person I was before my nervous breakdown. I can think again. It feels good too. I am so thankful for everyone on this site and for the love and support here. I couldn?t have made it without you guys. :h You are like family to me.

God Bless
Bear

[MDBiker]

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I just thought of something that made me smile.

The bike really is therapeutic and it is a joke around bikers that “you never see a motorcycle in front of a Psychiatrist office do you?” So I always try to park my right out front…He He!

[Guest]

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They park around back so it doesn't get scratched.....and of course, can't give up the rough front...LOL Glad your week is getting better Bear and this next year is YOURS!!! show em' what ya got! I know I am good at what I do and last year wasn't exactly my best, I am very respected in my field and I know everytone was thinking"when is she gonna snap back" I have literally seen it in their faces in the last few meetings "man, she's back!!!!" They can see the changes in me too...they will see them in you too. You just show them......I am so proud of everyone's progress.
So, what is everyone doig for the weekend?

AND where is MORRISON????????

[Niblet]

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Yeah !! come to think of it Morrison hasn't been around for a bit now eh??? Come out Come out where ever you are.... I'm glad that things are going your way Bear... I had an Uncle in Prince George that used to keep his Harley right in the livingroom during the winter months... No kidding... Now he's up in heaven with really low gas prices. Ha !! Ha!! Have a great weekend,,, I will hopefully be finishing planting my garden tonight and we'll likely head out to camp for a couple days to put the raft out and replace a door. Take Care All,,,, Hugs, Niblet

[Guest]

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I am so jealous Niblet...I wanna go!

[toughintexas]

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Can I still play?

Ok guys, I'm going to spare you all the lousy details, since I seem to be the slowest learner with the best intentions....short version, still was sad over loosing my dear horse, had more extensive testing than I expected, which scared/scares me...had to go off all supps/topa (that I'd only been on a week to start with, the topa that is...)...and was out-of-town, and kinda "naked" to the battle in a place that brought about alot of anxiety...wish I could say I held out the entire time, I did really good til the Dr's on Mon., then was in physical pain, topped off by a good dose of fear, and wahhhhlaaaaaa......fell off the wagon...also, had to stay 3 extra days, didn't help a bit to be 3k miles away, no computer to chat to ya'll with, altho More2's call came when all was well, and gave me tons of hope, that I just lost at the hospital...bummer...and Niblet, I just saw your awesome poem about my Nugget, thank you, I'd left already when you posted it...ya'll are all so incredible, and it makes such a difference to be here with you all....I barely made it home yesterday, never felt so awful, truly taught myself a lesson...won't go there again....too hard, drinking just makes everything WORSE NOT BETTER...when will I learn....I have! I started today on the supps and topa again...so if ya'll will let a retard play, I want to start over....those of you that pray, add me to the list for my test results please, gotta wait til next week and the holiday for that added relief!.....Whew....Bear, I know about STRESS....glad you were farther down the road than me and able to hold out, can't wait to be those of you who can DO THIS RIGHT!...I know I have GREAT TEACHERS THO! Love to all.....

[southernbelle47]

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TIT you are ours..........................we love you with every beat of our hearts..............
Happy that you are back.....
Love,
Nancy

[toughintexas]

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Thanks Nancy, I could never, ever do this, without each and every single one of you....thanks for not flunking me out of the group! Mare is having surgery Tues., probably will get my own test results Weds. or so.....I'll get a "A" for effort if I can hang on, but I'm going to die trying after my past stumbles...its tons easier with a clear head....love to all, glad to be back in the fold!

[MDBiker]

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WELCOME BACK TEX!!!

We were just talking about you today. I was worried since you were gone so long. We missed having you here with us. It is easy to slip when you are ouside of your support. We were praying, but it isn't the same as being here.

Get some rest and come back out and play when you feel like it.

Bless you
Bear

[MDBiker]

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Music Man, niblet and Luv, thanks for your support. I am better this evening. My wife is home and I am off for three days. I can relax and enjoy my time this weekend. I will still be posting, but maybe not as much.

Usually this weekend I would be riding up to Red River New Mexico for the Red River Rally. I usually leave here, ride up there, get a T-shirt, and ride back. round trip total of about 850 miles. It's a long day, but man what a ride. This year since I am sober and I feel a little delicate about it still, I am staying home with the wife to snuggle.

I love you guys,
bear

[Guest]

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Texastough....if we all left after a retard moment...we'd all be gone. I'd be the first retard gone for sure. Queen of the dumb-dumbs here! That would be me!!! So chin up and jump back on the wagon...topa pills and supps in hand...

Bear snuggling with the one you love during re-coup time is the best for sure...just what I suggest! that ride will be there next year!

[Niblet]

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What more can I say,,, Luv took the words right out of my mouth ... We all gotta roll with whatever this world hands us... I will add a prayer for you Tex, and I'm glad that you liked the little poem that I wrote while blubbering away writing it... Hugs to you.
Bear, your wife is so lucky to have a fella like you to snuggle with this weekend.. Enjoy.
Aw,, now I feel all warm and fuzzy inside... Not numb anymore. ~Niblet~

[toughintexas]

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Thanks guys, I'm up doing some catching up on about a million business e-mails I missed after a week, and doing good, I can FEEL THE LOVE and it sure does help! Thanks for the awesome words and support....Bear, snuggling is the best, and I'm betting its the best holiday weekend you've given your bride in awhile, she'll buy you a t-shirt worth a million bucks I'll bet...Nibs, thanks, meant alot more than you'll know, and Luv, for heaven's sakes, we better not get into a "who's the most retarded" contest, they might lock us both up! Thanks guys, and Bear is right, its best to be here while trying to get this right...I'll be around all weekend, so I'll be checking in....everybody stay cool.....love ya all tons!

[Guest]

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Tough...yeah, lets don't...I KNOW (afraid) they have a padded room with my name already on it. They need no excuse to come get me and out me in it. Will just give each other support....OK. Glad you are back!

[Guest]

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hey where the heck is everyone today????