30 days???

[cowgal]

30 days???

Day 8

Hate to count here but it is helping me right now get through these first difficult days....... Work sucks so far today, I bumped the laser as I was takiing it to a room as he asked(demanded!) and the filament fell and he freaked cuz the tip broke off (want to know how many timesa week that happens that he just does't see????!!!)lots!!!!! Man did he lay into me, well of course I cried (in front of a patient, how embarrassing!!!! Well at least I haves job.......... Heard him talking to one of the PAs later, so I am sure we will get a memo on that !!!


Gotta go back in there, I get to work 6:30 am -6:30pm tomorrow, my birthday, not that big of a deal, but it I'd sorts depressing.

Lots of huge and love,

MA

[brittzak]

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Ma...actually I think he is a REAL ASS to reprimand you in front of a patient. If I were the patient, I would NOT be impressed with that behavior. To be honest, I would probably leave. That would make me feel very uncomfortable. I have work with physicians all of my adult life and I can not STAND the ones with the "God like" mentality. When I make a doctors appointment, if they take longer than 15 mintues, i cancel. It is their policy to cancel if I am 15 minutes late, so why should i have to wait longer than 15 minutes for them? I am paying them..they are not paying me...technically...he/she is working for me, correct? So, I would not be impressed with him acting like a big BUTT in front of me as a pt.. He should have dealt with you as an employee later if he felt the need. I think you should start putting your resume out there. It doesn't hurt to look. Why keep being miserable??? You hate it there. Yes, you have to work...don't quit, start looking though.
Congrats on the 8 days! I hate counting, but if it helps you...go for it!!!!

[Accountable for Me]

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MA, it is one thing to be 'grateful' for having a job in this day and age but if you are absolutely miserable doing it, the rest of your life is affected.

Seriously, put out your resume. There has to be something better out there for you. Never settle if you don't have to.

Britt said it all, and I ditto it. xoxo

[greeneyes]

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Aww, MA.... I 'm sorry. I can see that job wearing on you along with Mike, your pain, ugh! MA think of school and sobriety as your way out. Work for those two things more than anything else! Keep your job; keep your eyes open, but hang in there! Sucky as it is, it is a job and the job market is sucky too. Buy yourself some flowers tomorrow to remind yourself how special you are! We love you!

[robyn]

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Starting the hard way

:new: Well technically I started about 3 am June 18th after binge drinking all day my 15 year old called 911. The Sheriff promptly took me to the hospital. After the bloodwork and IV, he drove me to a crisis center who interviewed me and determined I wasnt a risk to my health and had the Sheriff bring me home. You can imagine the past three days have been hell. I called the crisis center this morning to get an appt at their clinic and they scheduled one for Aug. 18th. I just burst into tears. After all day on the phone, I finally found a place that will get me in Thursday. So am trying to hang in there hour by hour. Glad I found this message board and all the information here.

[cowgal]

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welcome!

Startingthehardway........:welcome: sorry to hear about your situation, I feel for you, my kids have threatened to do things like that...... It is rough. Hang in there! We will all be here to support you, we all try to check in daily if possible, if you pm me I always will get back to you as soon as I log on, I try to be there as everyone here has always ben to me......

As to my job situation, there are literally NO jobs for LPNs in this town, when I leave Mike, I am seriously thinking of heading back to south Fl. I was told by the place of my old employment that they need a research nurse down there.........I am scared and don't want to sell the horses, my ONLY joy in life right now(seriously!).... Dr Cognetta sorta apologized to me today so I am ok with that situation........ He is WORSHIPPED by his patients and I am finally getting the place, people, and procedures down-pat, I would hate to change jobs again as that is evenore stressfull........been there, done that...........


As usual, thanks for all your support guys!!!!

PS: I have off Friday this week, that is a bonus I am happy to have back!

Love you guys!!!!:h

MA

[cowgal]

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Great to see you back!!

More2, great to hear you so strong and convicted!!!! Day 6 is good as usually through 5 is the detoxing time (yuck) sweating, jittery,fuzzy brained......I just try to remember those things.... Can't wait to hear from TIT, hope and pray her checkup goes well....a thank you for updating us on her:thanks:

I have totally enjoyed this weekend so far, sent away for some CDs for a free one month trial...... By Regenerate, from the national institute for alcohol research (NIFAR) and have listened to all of them in 3 days....... They have given me extra tools, such as meditation etc...... If anyone wants to try I believe they are still offering one month free, well I paid 16.00 for shipping, but felt it was worth it.

Just my two cents worth, it is really helping me w/ Mike's alcoholism...... Did I tell you all he is brewing beer in the garage???? What a supportive, caring husband for a woman w/ a drinking problem to have!!! I am ok though, just focussing on me and MY recovery, he has his own path to follow, detachment is a wonderful tool!!!

Lots of love and hugs to you all, hope you are ok, and good job on day 6 More2!!:goodjob:

MA

[brittzak]

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More good to hear from you again! I am so happy to hear of your progress. YOU KNOW YOU WANT YOUR KIDS TO GROW UP, BUT NOT TO MUCH!!!! I hope mine always need me some. When they come home, it is ok to lean on Mama some. I am fine with that, sounds like u are too. I hope TITs check-up goes fine. Is daughter talking to her yet?
MA, you are doing the right thing. Mike will never change, well at least not for you. He will have to change because he wants to and it doesn't seem he does. I am proud of you. Sounds like the CDs are good for you.
I have been ding reat. My nephews are here from Nevada. Zak is in Heaven!!! He never has boys around. All my friends have girls. He is having a blast.

[greeneyes]

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Hey everybody! Great time at the wedding this weekend. Incredible food! Everyone was moaning when leaving the resto. The reception was a catered dinner and awesome. I think I have stretch marks. :H I better look before I laugh.

Hope all goes well with TIT. She always seems to keep her spirits up - she's such a strong person! We all are really, arent' we?

More2, I'm glad you two are sorting out what is best for you. That mental part is hard work. That endless mental chatter is exhausting. You sound like you're in a good place. I hope you post more about your take on reading the bible.

MA & Luv sound good!

Robyn??? Are you in a clinic still?

[cowgal]

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hey all

Another rough one, 12+ hours today, and I am still up, tired as SH*T, so better turn in soon.............still AF on day 16, losing count and that is a good thing......................feeling so much better, wouldn't want to put that poison in my body anymore!!!! I am so glad, called Barry yesterday and let him know how I am feeling on the supps she (Rhonda) sent me on her advice.......they are great, feeling better than ever w/ them, being AF, and setting boundaries for Mikes "assholishness":H:H..................I am so happy right now, wish I could bottle this feeling

Better get going, always logged on on my iphone so check in daily during my lunch 1/2 hour, talk to you all later, much love.:l:h:l

MA

[Cinders]

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MA,

It is so great to hear you sounding so strong and so happy. Glad to see it. :l

More2,

You are blessed with a great son. Enjoy. If you talk to TIT, please tell her Cindi says "hi" and is praying her check up goes well. Tell her no bellying up to the bar on this trip.

I agree, drinking is absolutely no fun anymore. It is right on the hairy edge of destroying my entire life. So, no more for me!!

TIT,

If you see this. Sending love and prayers.

Nibs,

I really miss seeing you around. I hope you had a wonderful B'Day and are doing really well.

Magic,

If you log in, just sending love your way.

Robyn (8Belles) and all Newbies to this thread. Hi. You can do this 30 days. It is awesome. Check in and tell us how you are doing.

Love,
Cindi

[cowgal]

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oh my!!

We cannot have this!! we were on page 3, no no no!

Hope everyone is doing well, I have served my 45+ hours for the week, so just had coffee after dinner, bought a good book, and am planning a fun busy day (after sleeping in of course!) tomorrow......................Thank GOD I am off!!! I feel like a kid on their first day of summer or something, just happy!!

Planning a trip to Pittsburgh, my little sister is so excited (and so am I!) I am hoping Mike cannot go, plan to rent a Prius and stay at Best's if the invitation still exists....................haven't heard back, but if Mike goes, I won't subject her to that, I am hoping and praying soooooooooo much that he cannot go, he has been supoena'd for court or something and it looks like I am going alone YEAH!!!!

Going to learn how to "burn" CDs from Zac (yes I am NOT the IT whiz!!) it will be good to learn a new thing, and I am "caffeine'd up" so need something to keep me busy:H:H

Just hope I can get to sleep before 1AM!! But who cares???

Cindi, good to see you, Nibs, hope your birthday was a BLAST, TIT you are in my thoughts and prayers, hoping everything goes just wonderfully up there..................:l

LUV, Bird, More2, Spedteach, all others have a wonderful night!!!:l:h

MA

[greeneyes]

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Wow! MA's back! Did you have a phone consult with Rhonda? You sound great. Can't you just tell Mike it's a "sister" trip and he's not invited this time?

[cowgal]

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Greeneyes!

Didn't mean to miss you in the last post!! Sounds like a good idea, actually the way things are going, Mike probably would like to avoid 27 or so hours in a car w/ us.............................it is the kids and me, then him (we lead REALLY separate lives anymore, and that is ok) He has his own path and I am happily on my own, and YES, Rhonda talked to me the 15th and I have been without ANY desire since, am on some new supplements and will call her again in the beginning of Aug.......................probably during my trip................it is worth it!

Good to see you, man it is almost 11 and I am WIDE awake, will check in later, still burning CDs, this is fun!!!

MA:l:h

[Niblet]

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Hello everybody and thank-you so much for the Birthday greetings... It was nice and quiet actually... I spend alot of time enjoying a book on our front porch listening to the birds. My mom dropped by for a nice little visit.
I've really enjoyed my first week of holidays in the garden, camping but it's pretty chilly these past couple of days.
Gosh it feels like I'm so out of touch with you all... MA, I'm so sorry about what happened at your work. What an A$$ he was to bawl you out let alone in front of a patient... Geez !
Well, I'm on the fly as has been my life this last while.. We are packing up for camp and this time Ryan is bringing a pal along... Oh, and our youngest son Ty got the township job meaning that he could put his car on the road. We paid half of his insurance and he'll repay slowly his half over the coming month or two. He really is a careful driver and I'm really happy for him.
So, my cinnamon buns are rising downstairs and almost ready to be poked into the oven... I have some barn chores to do and some packing.
You all are in my thoughts even when I don't onto the computer xxx
I really enjoy our little "cyber family"...
Oh, and I've had a problem with my toenails for the past 5 months... Over the counter stuff hasn't done the trick so I went to the Dr.. He prescribed apo-terbinafine.... Alcohol and this doesn't mix apparently because it affects the liver. In 3 weeks I have to have my liver levels checked with a blood test... I'm going to have to really only have a couple on the weekend and double up on my milk thistle. I will find out in a few weeks if even that is an option for the next 90 days or so. I may have to be AF to clear this fungusy toenail.
Gotta fly, Hugs, xxx