30 days???

[savon19]

30 days???

I am trying to write this Very quietly... but... I NEED to do 30 days. I haven't done more than 3 days in.. months.

I'm in process of finishing off the last of my booze. I think I have finally disgusted myself. I'm ready to do this.

I know it will be hard. Not because of cravings as much as it's my way of Escaping things I don't want to think about. Now I will have to think about stuff.

Tomorrow will be Day 1.

Gotta do it. I really think I'm ready... but I will be back here often, probably bitchin' and complainin'!!!

[cowgal]

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HEY, WELCOME!!!

Welcome Savon,:welcome: yep the first few days are rough, but well worth it, come and join in!! We will help you every step of the way!! Keep checking in when you want, I do daily, wish I could write more, but am off to work a gruelling day, so have to go.....................:l

best of luck to ya!!!:h

lots of love,:l:h

MA

[greeneyes]

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Hey!!

I did a BIG landscape project in the yard yesterday and I'm thrilled! Sore but thrilled. I cut junipers that took over the whole front sidewalk into bonsai style. They look SO much better and I have my sidewalk back! I had wanted to do something with them for a long time but you know how you don't get around to stuff when drinking. I'm glad I didn't actually, because it had the potential for disaster to myself and the shrubs!

HI MA! I just love it when you're chipper. Mike declining the trip doesn't have anything to do with it does it? :H

Savvy! Welcome aboard! I'd love to see you do 30 days! You know how good you'll feel!

Drifty, got a couple weeks behind you now right? Congrats! And, drifty, I'm so sorry about your kitty.

Luv, I hope you had a great time yesterday!

[bestlifeldms]

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Hey all! Just checking in for the first time in forever! Life is crazy here, but good! Still sober, 15 mos. Feels great, for sure! Great news, MA, about Mike not coming. You will have a much more relaxed time, I am sure. Can't wait to see you! Hope you are all doing well, doing your best... Love and support! Hugs, Best

[cowgal]

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SHITTY DAY!!!

I had the WORSE day at work, am so stressed, but the LAST thing I wanted was a drink, this truly is a miracle, as I sit here wanting to KILL my 17 year old, I am sooooooooo over it.:upset::upset:

lots of love, WE CAN DO THIS, if I can, anyone can!!!

MA:l:h

[bird]

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hi all
Sorry to be AWOL for so long. I am fine and just wanted to say hi. I think about you all everyday. A bit weepy oh oh...love bird

[greeneyes]

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Aw, bird....:l I'm so glad you checked in! Just the other day I said "Where the hell is bird?" Hope everything is going OK for you. Anything happening on the music scene?

MA you're probably asleep and when you wake up, today will be yesterday! I plan to live the next 2 weeks like that.

[cowgal]

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EXHAUSTED!

Well, I am exhausted, really trying to stay focused, was meditating (or trying to!???) and stay in the moment, day etc..................but woke up at 2:30 and cannot stop fretting about how horrible today can possibly be.........thought I wouldn't bring this job home?!?!? Don't know what I did to deserve my "singled out attacks" yesterday, was "written up" for something my supervisor said she never wrote anyone up for, she asked me"what is going on?" And I told her, I don't know, but don't feel like I can do anything right anymore, all I get is negative feedback from EVERYONE now, was mostly her on my "reviews", now Dr. C apparently has a problem w/ me??? Started crying, and she said "he gets like this esp. when he is back from vacation" "just let it roll off"....................easier said than done...............don't want him to take any more vacations!! I am so tired but cannot even fathom trying to sleep..........................:upset::upset:

Bird, sorry you are weepy right now, we all miss you, tell us what is going on:l..................hope you are ok, sorry I had to vent, I am just wondering what is going to happen, need my job, cannot handle school and this stress, am flunking out.................hope everyone is good, lots of love, :h:lMA

[greeneyes]

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MA, I have to run to get to the hole. It seems you think that the complaints of the doctor confirm your feelings of inadequacy. I think I smell a control issue for him. If he acts like that upon return, my guess is that he has to act like a dog and mark his territory, by pissing on people. He makes sure everybody is aware that he is king and nobody can do anything right without him. TRY to not take it so personally MA. YOu could wash his car on your lunch hour and there would be fault found. I know it's your job, but try not to take on his shit. You're a good, honest, dependable employee and you do your best and own up to your mistakes. That is a good employee! And you ARE good enough. You don't get validation of that at home or at work so let us give it to you. WE love an appreciate you and want you to feel that way about yourself.

Now I have to climb off my soap box and get to the hole. I hope I wasn't too judgemental about a man I don't even know. I try not to be like that but that's just what it seems like to me.

[cowgal]

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Thanks

All I can say is thank God for caffeine!!!!. I am running on it today, he hasn't been mean, or nice today, just won't take it personally..... I KNOW I work my ASS off for him, and in a way he is good to us........ I feel bad for his kids!!! I am a grown up and it upset me so, man..... Not my problem though, I know I am doing my best!!! Love you guys!!! Thanks greenie!!!!:thanks:

MA:h:h

[cowgal]

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First of.

Just wanted us back to the 1st pg. so others can join us in our journey together! Off work early(never thought I'd call 5:00 early!:H:H. But oh well it beats 6:30, right!??

Lots of love, off to gym and bank if still opened.

MA:h:h

[Cinders]

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Hi, MA.

Glad you are feeling a bit more up than the last few.

Yes. We are on this journey together. :l

Love,
Cindi

[brittzak]

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Home guys!!!

I am finally home... My Dads party went GREAT...he was SHOCKED. We all had a great time. But, I came home really really sick. I am sitting here in my big oversize chair relaxing trying to get better today. Shit, hope I didn't catch the Swine Flu in the dang airport..HA
Soudns like you all are busy as normal. BIRD...about damn time you checked in GEEEEEZZZ. Good to see you. HUGS!!!
I will write more later.:l:l:l:l

[cowgal]

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Sorry!!

Luv, sorry you are sick, glad your dad had a ball though, that is awesome!!!!

Just checking in,

Love,
MA

[greeneyes]

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Hey! Where is everybody? Not much to say here. Tapping my foot waiting for Thursday and trying not to drive myself crazy. Eating figs. that nervous eating. I go stand under the neighbors tree and just graze. OH well, there's worse things I could be doing. I wonder if they're organic. They don't fertilize or spray.