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    30 days???

    OH Bootsie, Sorry to hear you had surgery...I hope you have a speedy recovery. Hop back on the wagon...don't mix those pain meds with alcohol for sure...you will be lopp to loop. I need a pedicure too. I broke my toenail yesterday...hit my toe so hard...I almost cried. rolled on floor and all...lol...in the middle of the night...I hate that! I am 7 weeks today sobber! YEAH!
    Had to rush Mama to ER yesterday...she was vomiting uncontrolably...I haven't shared inawhile, because I don't want to bore you guys with day to day stuff, but she is so sick guys...and we STILL haven't even started chemo yet....she weighs 99lbs now!!!! Has now lost from 128 to 99....she is dying....I have accepted that, but it kills me to see her suffer and she is suffering. I stay VERY positive in front of her...if I feel I have to cry a minute I go outside...I do not want her to see me. I don't want her to give up, I told her we don't give up hope til there is no hope and there is hope until the day she dies! Because the only one that KNOWS is God! I truly feel that too. Miracles can happen. I am realistic, but hopeful too and grateful that God at least gave me the time to care for her.

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      30 days???

      Bootsie I'm hoping that you're right up to snuff in no time.. Doesn't feeling like heck make you truely appreciate a clear happy head? Take Care of yourself sweety. ~Niblet~

      ~ I hear a whinny on the wind~

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        30 days???

        7 WEEKS FOR LUV !!!!!!!!!


        I'm soooo proud of you.. I truely believe that everything that happens in already wrote in the books so to speak... You were meant to be sober to fully enjoy your renewed time with your Mama as your son Billy gently rests on your shoulder all the way. :upset: (tearing up, sorry) We are all here for you and I know you know that already, but we feel for you soo deeply. If only I could carry you for awhile and lighten your load I would. Please keep posting for us to be there for you as you have been for us.. We want you to share so that we can be there for you as you have been there for all of us..
        We luv you >>>>>>
        Yours, ~Niblet~ :l

        ~ I hear a whinny on the wind~

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          30 days???

          I have a rose garden that I spread some of Billy's ashes in and I put a bird bath Billy and I had bought together and I put a bench out there, a cross that glows...it is a place I go to feel close to him, I talk to him...don't think I am nuts...to me it is his grave site...anyway, he never got to meet my Mama, so I told him yesterday...when she gets there, he'd better take good care of her!!!! Oh he has a hummingbird feeder too...it is shaped like TEXAS...he was from Texas too! We met here though...isn't that a hoot? Have you all ever heard that song about that says an angel with no hallo and one wing in the fire? It is talking about what a good guy he really is, just kinda rough around the edges...that was my Billy. That song came out after he died. I would have played that at his funeral if it had been out. I went yesterday with his brother to get a little bench to put up at his tree ..the one where he wrecked...has a nice little poem on it...they had an angel...we laughed cause his brother said we could get it and break a wing off. He tried to be good...he was just onry.

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            30 days???

            Oh Luv, thank-you for sharing such a touching part of your life with us all... I too talk to my grampa sometimes when I'm working out in the vegetable garden... I do believe that they can hear you and are with you... Your Billy has met your Mama, but she has yet to meet him.
            You are such a beautiful person... Many Hugs to you, Love, Niblet.

            ~ I hear a whinny on the wind~

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              30 days???

              oh my gosh, you just have me all teared up today reading these beautiful posts. sniff sniff sniff. i just am so happy i'm not in public. oh i'm so praying for your mama. my mother and father have both passed and my sis who raised me as well. so, i know they are always there. in fact, i play golf and can always feel my daddy telling me exactly how to hit that little white ball. no mixing any pain pills with booze. i'm on day 3 of sober girl and but body post surgery is hurting. sure hubby is tired of sleeping with moaning girl. and well moaning girl that isn't a sexual fantasy. aahahahahahaha. he looked at me this morning and i said don't you even for one minute think it. that is what a nice shower is for, bye bye. lol not til all stitches are removed and i'm back to exercise bootsie again. sigh.
              anyway, hearing about billy and your mama makes my heart feel with love and joy for just the pure spirit of love that you are. niblet is right, your presence reaches into cyber space for miles and pulses right into me and makes me know that just for one more day i can have a drink free day. so, here's to lemonaide. you keep that beautiful raw self open. no matter what the mood, feeeling, raw emotion, it doesn't matter. the expression of you is so authentic is makes my heart sing. smiles boots
              :welcome:

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                30 days???

                Luvuall - an angel with no hallo and a wing in a the fire? I haven't heard that song but it made me smile to think it. I would have loved to meet Billy. He sounds like a character.

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                  30 days???

                  Luv, You are really an inspiration...your successes are terrific. I will pray for your mother. I have gone through chemo twice. Keep safe and healthy.

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                    30 days???

                    Hello all it is almost midnight here and we just got home a short while ago from a birthday BBQ at the neighbours.. Hubby had 6 beers over the course of the whole day and evenig. I packed and enjoyed diet pop... (now I usually drink good old water though) I had the most wonderful time, played on the swing set with a sweet 3 year old lil' boy, got myself thrown into the pool, clothes and all........ Total HOOT !!!! It IS OK to be AF !!! Several loving friends questioned about me not drinking.. And I can honestly say to you guys the same answer " It just feels right, I was getting so I didn't have that spring in my step to do the things that I love." That truely is how I feel now... This is becoming my new habit. I know I have a long ways to go and I'm not made of criptanite, so I can't get lazy with my thoughts. If I ever think " a nice cold beer would taste good on a hot day like this" I literally think of the " old days" and simply say "NAA!!!" What I got goin' I'm not about to give up.
                    Enough about ME!!
                    Luv, would you happen to know the artist that sings that beautiful song about the angel with no halo and a wing in the fire? I must have heard it I would think.... Would I maybe hear it on a country and western station or more like an easy listening...
                    Time to tuck in my friends, and I just wanted to Thank-You all from the bottom of my heart for being such an honest compassionate bunch of beautiful people... I love you all ...
                    A tuckered, ~Niblet~

                    ~ I hear a whinny on the wind~

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                      30 days???

                      This is the song...the song is sung by a guy singing about his Dad....

                      One Wing In The Fire by Trent Tomlinson

                      Daddy's been a back-row Baptist,
                      With his share of front-row sin.
                      His Saturday night still on his breathe,
                      Every Sunday when he'd walk in.
                      He's never led the Benediction,
                      He's never sang in the choir.
                      But he's an angel with no halo,
                      An' one wing in the fire.

                      Mamma lives by the Bible,
                      The Bible lives by the bed.
                      An' she's lied alone so many nights,
                      With scriptures in her head.
                      Prayin': "Good Lord, just be with him,
                      "I know his Faith is tired,
                      "But he's an angel with no halo,
                      "An' one wing in the fire."

                      "An' I know he lives a little left of livin' right,
                      "An he's come close to goin' way to far a few times.
                      "But I'd trade a thousand prayers if just one prayer would come true:
                      "Lord, please believe in him, like I believe in you."

                      Daddy's always been there for me,
                      From T-Ball to touchdowns.
                      Fixed my car an' fixed my heart,
                      When they've been broken down.
                      I know he calls for more forgiveness,
                      Than most folks do require,
                      But he's an angel with no halo,
                      An' one wing in the fire.

                      An' I know he lives a little left of livin' right,
                      An he's come close to goin' way to far a few times.
                      But I'd trade a thousand prayers if just one prayer would come true:
                      Lord, please believe in him, like I believe in you.

                      Well, I just can't imagine,
                      What Heaven might be like.
                      If me an' Mamma make it,
                      Wiithout Daddy by our side.
                      Lord, could you please remember,
                      When it's time to call us higher:
                      That he's an angel with no halo,
                      An' one wing in the fire.
                      Ooooh.

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                        30 days???

                        PS...yes it is country...so give it that twang...LOL

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                          30 days???

                          I MISS YOU BEAR!!!! COME HOME!!!! TELL MRS> BEAR HAPPY B-DAY.

                          I got Zak a floppy earred bunny today. It ia a dwarf. It is the cutest thing I have ever seen. he is brown. I love him. He has a big home. Got him all settled in...gave him fresh kale and timothy hay, etc...he was so happy. You guys should see him. Zak is at his Daddy's, so I can't wait for him to get home today. He'll be so excited.

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                            30 days???

                            ThankYou so much for the beautiful lyrics Luv, I know I've heard that beautiful song I'm sure !!! A bunny !!! I used to have one before they are so cute !! Zak will love it I'm sure.. Have a great day all ! ~Niblet~
                            I can hear a leisurely cup of coffee calling me out on the deck where sometimes we see bunnies or deer..

                            ~ I hear a whinny on the wind~

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                              30 days???

                              IM BACK!!!!
                              I thought I was going to shrivel up from lack of MWO. I missed y'all and I see I missed a lot on the board. I have a lot of catching up to do. We had a good birthday; movie, ice cream cake, dinner. It was great and unlike last year (or 10) I was sober this time. Woo Hoo ! My two grandsons want me to move up there so bad; and they are so cute. The little one (3) is always in trouble. . . . He He I don't know where he gets that. I just talked to my son and he is half way back from the Austin Motorcycle rally. All are tired and probably hung over. A good time was had by all. I am going to spend this evening workng on scooters. I will try to find time to catch up on the threads. I missed all of you.

                              Bear
                              What St. Frances of Assisi said of himself is true for me.
                              ?If God can work through me He can work through anybody.?

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                                30 days???

                                WELCOME home! Glad you and Mrs. Bear had a good time with family...you were missed! Just isn't the same while you are gone.

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