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[Niblet]

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Good Morning Everybody !!
First of all I'd like to say, " Where are you Tex " ??? Does anybody know? I'm really missing you girl !!! waaaaahhhh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yeah, what tha heck happened to your Barbie ma bile !!! That's terrible !!!

Luv, I feel it in your post that it is almost that time... I'm so very sorry that I can only type words and cry softly to myself. What a beautiful full circle you have shared along with your Mama this last year. Brit and Zak really got to know their granny, well, not so well and then will be blessed to be able to say "good-bye"... Too often as you painfully know sweetie, we do not get that privilege, and that sometimes echos for ever more. I'm thinking of you today and will say a prayer that your Mama stays painfree, until the Lord wraps his loving arms around her to bring her back home... She will always be with you Hon. Hugs to everybody,

[bird]

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Hi all,
I'm feeling alot better today and getting that urge. I crammed some kudzu in my mouth and chomped it down. Not very good by itself but I'm not eating it for the taste. Should be O.K. since I don't plan on going anywhere. Luv, sorry its so sad around there. I'm saying a prayer for you. Too bad about your car Bootsie. Morrison, you sound great.Nibs. I wanna go camping! Its still to hot here. Later on. bird

[bootcampbarbie]

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hey luv bug. i'm feeling the emotions all around over there with mama and then billy's bday. tis a celebration of how big the heart can grow and how much love can spill right on out of it. because through it all there is much much gratitude. i'm praying for mama and the kids and you as well. i'm praying for mama's birdie too. well, nibs i'm happy to hear that the mare made it with her medication. i'm missing our tex girlie too. no doubt she is galavanting around saving the good ol state of texas. love that girlie. well, morrison shall we start comparying our work outs now? bench press routines? hahaha i'm back at the gym tomorrow. i'm way to sore after my barbie accident. i hadn't quite captured it all so hadn't written little family about it. but friday evening about 6 p.m. i was just dropping off client and had another client parked behind me on a main street downtown. we were planning out our next course of action. he got out of barbie's little baby marcedes. then i looked in the mirror and traffic was a ways a way. i wanted to talk to other client before driving away. but nooooo not to be. apparently a little girlie of oh 16 had forgotten the speed limit is 35 not 65 and she had forgotten that there are 3 lanes and that means you don't drive inches from the cars. so when i opened my car door she was so close to my car the force of her car easing by my nose slammed me back against my car and ripping up my door. her car had a nice long streak down the side of her ol bmw. bootsie however has a nice deep gash in her back and well was pondering how close she came to being without limbs and head. customer behind me was absolutely freaked out. i actually wasn't i think because it was just so shocking that i never actually freaked out. but my back where the skin is off of it hurts. other than that, I'M ALIVE. and then i went to get girlie's information and she was crying and shaking and she ripped her fingernail. i hated to be a wet noodle but i'm like honey, as i held her for a long time while she cried. i know that you broke a nail and all but you do realize that you are driving way over speed limit and that you are reckless and that 4 more inches you would have killed me. that means you are way lucky right now. so i got what she had no dmv information no insurance info. and apparently since my car is parked my insurance seems to think it is her fault. hummmm. but i have alot of witnesses as everyone was so freaked that barbie didn't die. so, that's my little barbie tale. i decided to then promptly take sat and sun and today off. yep, i didn't do a damn thing. my girlie, lapd client came over sat and we did nothing really. then sunday i read an entire book on the couch. today, i will actually get my lazy ass up now and clean up and go to the movies. hottest day ever here in l.a. 114 yesterday. hubby is out riding bike. i just needed a chill time. would like to go camping at nibs though. birdie hope you are getting through the cravings. i am not having any but then i usually don't during the day. nite time is when i get em if i do. so i need to find l.o. to add to my mixture.

[Guest]

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Thank-you ALL for the prayers and kind words. I slipped today! Didn't get drunk, but I am still disappointed with myself. I drink 3 wine coolers. First drink in alomost 5 months!!!! I wanted to just keep drinking, but stopped myself. This is just the worst...I am watching my Mama slowly die. She cries all the time, not from pan, but sadness because she does not want to die and leave us. I wonder how long she will hold on...how long will she have to suffer? Did you see the pictures of Tammy Faye Baker? She got down to 62 lbs!!! It just breaks my heart.
More2, I called my Granny today as she is coming next week...I told her to bring my sister...BUT she won't come. She can put her hand out all she wants, I will never forgive her for not coming to see Mama. How could you not come see your dying Mama when she is asking for you? I don't understand it.
Bootsie, I am so glad you are ok. Enough tragedy! Wish I could just give you a hug...
Bird, I am so glad you are feeling better. Zak had a nasty cold too. Summer colds are the worst. He is all better now.....

[morrison]

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Oh Luv, don't be disappointed with yourself over 3 wine coolers. You are going through so much right now, I can't even imagine how hard it is. I feel so sad and helpless when I think of your situation. It breaks my heart. Your mom is sad, but she will have peace one day, and no more pain. What is wrong with your sister? That is really selfish of her too. I don't know what I'm going to do when the day comes for my parents. I dread the thought. I know you probably get sick of hearing this, but you are a lot stronger than most. There is no doubt in my mind that I would be getting sloshed regularly if I had to endure this. Luv, you know we're here for you no matter what. Don't worry about these slips. You know we all have them.

[bird]

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Luv,its only 3. I could have not stopped. Maybe your sister is afraid to see your MoM like that. Can't deal with it or something. Just a thought.....take care. bird

[Guest]

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Thanks Morrison and Bird...I will get back on the wagon tomorrow. I probably would have drink more, but I thought I was gonna have a panic attack over it. It was more stress to drink than to not drink!!!! I am disappointed, but I know I can get up, dust off, and start over.

[lucky 2.0]

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That sister needs to be bitch slapped big time and hard!!! I am sorry she is such an idiot and creating pain for you luv.

[Guest]

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Thanks Lucky! She will regret this, when Mama is gone, she will be sorry she missed out on saying good-bye when she had a chance. The sad thing is she has a free ride here too. My Granny and Uncle are driving here, she could ride with them.

[Niblet]

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What really tears at my heart strings is that your Mama and HER Mama is asking to see ... HER !!! I simply am Disgusted !!!

[bootcampbarbie]

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hey luv bug. i'm very proud of you that you had 3 wine coolers and not like 2 gallons. really, proud of you. time for you maybe just for a bit to up the topa as well. just for a bit??? as for your sister, well, tis an odd thing. sometimes people simply can't cope. you know they just can't cope and are so selfish that they can't get out of themselves to be there for others. so we know that isn't you because you are there for so many. sending you lots of bootsie love. you are a treasure. and since my sister is pretty much like your sister, i'll send them both some healing love as well. it is a challanging time for all. and well, i confess while i didn't drink today, i did't get my lazy ass off the couch either. my back still hurts so i cooked more food for hubby and promptly read another book. guess i decided to have another day off. lol not like it is ever really a habit. chin up girlie.

[stiff one]

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Well 2 months ago I was here with almost 45 days AF. Then I went on holiday as you call it. And I went to Hell in a hand basket. Visited my Aunt in Wales and we drank, drank, drank. After that visited my wifes cousins in Ireland and we drank, drank, drank. I let it be ok cause we were on holiday. Came home and i've had something to drink every day.
How do I stop this madness before it kills me? I'm 30lbs. over weight with high blood pressure. That scares me but this thing has got me by the ass and won't let go.Taking the herbs and suppliments. Trying to eat right and exercise daily. I think about drinking all the time. I want to start my 30 days and want to feel better but I have to find a way to flip my whole attitude. Alcohol is definitly a depressant. Sorry this turned into a wining session I just had to tell someone something.
Tomarrow WILL be day 1 for me! I have to do this!

[stiff one]

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I didn't mean to disregard Luv Bugs situation. Sounds like she has really got it tough. I'm just a babbling drunk!
But not as of tomorrow

[magic]

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Hey Luv

I've been thinking about you and your Mama every day while being away and sending loving thoughts to all of you. I hope your Mama can find some serenity and wish her a peaceful passing. I hope it is peaceful for you as well.

I also hope that you will find some solace in the time you were able to spend with her and the loving care you have unselfishly given. You are an angel on earth. She is a lucky Mama.
And you are a lucky girl to have her.

Your sister will have to live with her regrets.

Coolers? They don't matter one bit. Forget them.

Tell us what we can do for you.

Sending up prayers so they'll be ready and have a special place prepared.

Nancy xxx :l :l

[MDBiker]

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Hi guys, I had a great holiday. I spent time with mama bear and worked on my bikes. Nothing is better for me. Luv, you can call me any time. I mean it. Any time. I don't think the three coolers mean a tinker damn, but I know it is so easy to not only fall off the wagon, but to be run over by it. I have experience in the falling off area. You and your family are in my prayers every day, and I only hope that when I cross this bridge with my mother I am half the person you are. You truly are a gift. And Bootsie is very right; she is so smart, please up the topa for a while. It will help and I won't worry so much about you. Bootsie, you have an angel watching over you. I can visualize how close you came, and it scares me. And it was really sweet for you to comfort the little girl, she probably really needed it. She knew what she did was wrong, and was probably frightened. Barbie, you are a sweetheart and deserve a few days off. Magic, I am so glad you are posting here more. More2, bird, stiff, resolute and Morrison, I hope you all had a great holiday. I really am here for any of you if you need me. I don?t want to push anything; I just want you to know I am willing to help any way I can. If I missed someone, I am sorry, but it is really late here and I am getting up to open up the plant at 6 in the morning, so my head is not exactly on straight. I love you all and I wish I was spending more time here with you.

:huggy God Bless :huggy
bear