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What a perve....sometimes I guess you just aren't in the mood Bootsie. LOL Poor girl, was wondering what kind of surgery you had, but didn't want to pry. Glad you are better...doing good on the Af days too. Way to go!!!!

[toughintexas]

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WHEW!!! PRAYERS WORK!!!!!

Dr. in Baltimore called himself, he admitted that he didn't like a couple of areas he "spied" while I was there, and dang near tried to excise it while I was on the table, cold turkey...thus the pain and suffering afterwards! I knew the "routine" wasn't "routine" as I've been doing this every 3.5mos for 2 yrs., and every 6mos. for one year....so that's why you couldn't drive a nail up my butt with a sledgehammer the past couple of weeks!!!! It took longer because he had Johns Hopkins medical lab, path. lab, and hospital lab, all run it, and screened for 8 different types of cancer....he's scratching his head...BUT IT WAS NOT CANCER, NOR ANYTHING ELSE WEIRD!!! THANK YOU JESUS!!!!!......LOL...... I think I prayed it away! He thinks maybe its scar tissue from all the biopsies, and just looked "strange"....all I know is that it took a couple of days off my life anyway from sheer fear! lol I told him next time he decided to get the "big digger" out without me being medicated, to let me take something for pain, and come back!!! Anyway, I almost passed out from relief! Thanks to all of you who have said prayers, kept me in your thoughts, and been there for me!!!! It means TONS! This is the best place ever! Bear, I'm glad I contribute something back to all the words of wisdom, and friendship you have shown me, you are an awesome role model, and anytime I can cheer ya up, or give you thoughts to ponder, I'm right here! More2, and Southernbelle, ya'll keep me sane, thanks for the phone calls!!!! I think I'll go fall head first in the pool just to make sure I'm not dreaming!!!! Love you all! WAhhhhhhhwhooooooo.....now I can forget about it til November, and THEN I'll go back and not fall off the wagon, I have time to "get right" instead of having just started and going thru this!!!!! :thanks:

[Guest]

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Told ya you were Texastough!!!!!! Prayers were answered! I am so happy!!! You made my day!!!!!!!!!! Love you!

[MDBiker]

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Bootsy, I think the puke thing was pretty good. You know according to Kinsey 54% of men think abou sex at least once a day and some much more often than others. Put a beautiful woman into the mix, and viola instant fantacy. I think it happens a lot but he was much too obvious, maybe on purpose. At any rate, sex first then the thread. lol I am glad you are getting back into action. Since you are AF, I personally don't think it would hurt for you to take a pain pill now and then just for relief/sleep. You only have so many of them, and when they are gone, they are gone. I always tried to ration mine out just in case I needed the last couple for some major screw up.

Tex, I am so happy for you. I knew it was going to be fine, but I understand the aprehension also. I understand the don't make me wait without meds thing too. he he. God is good.

More2, I am sick of this rain myself. We are over 3 times what we normally get by this time of year. Everything is wet or drying out. Hope you enjoy the errands,

Luv, you inspire me. I wrote you a whole letter last night and then didn't mail it to you. It was good to get some things out for myself. I might send it anyway later. I also am still praying for you and your mom.

I have to go to work, damn, so I will check back later.

bear

[toughintexas]

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More2, that's funny! If my Dr. weren't this tiny lil guy that you know was a nerd all thru school, and is a ob/gyn AND surgeon, AND oncologist, that studied so long he had to mail-order a bride, I'd be worried....lol...... Bear, I'm glad you were keeping the Faith for me, and I'm glad you were all right!!! Whew......apprehension was the key word! It's kinda like hearing "you're pregnant" the first time, you know it can really happen AGAIN, cancer is kinda the sameway....never think it'll be you, til it is, then you know you could hear it again...I'm going to do everything I can to NOT have it again, do lots of alternative supp's etc.... Anyway, thanks again guys, I'm going to celebrate with a Blood Orange Sparkling italian water I found at Whole Foods last week! lol

[hereatlast]

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hi everyone, need some suport please going back to work next week and so damn nervous got to care for teeny tiny babies been off for 5 months due to mega stress at work too many deaths at work and crap things at home like being burgalled sister in law dying and now a flood but i have to put me on hold and support the families whos babies i care for i dont know if i can do it was doing great af but when we went away alcohol crept back in not too much but i dont want any i am so uncertain any help or thoughts would be valuable i used to be an excellent nurse 26 years experience but know i just dont know

[toughintexas]

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Hey Here, I posted on your other thread, you are a good nurse, and you'll get back up on the horse, you have helped lots of us, so you can for sure do this too....stress is the pits, but you know its worse when you are shaky as heck from overindulging...at least at work, you'll be too busy to think about drinking....I know when it rains it pours, just got my tests back, and like I said, horsey died day before I left for cancer check-up, things didn't go as "routine" as routine the last 3 yrs., stressed out, had to stay on the E. Coast longer, major pain, physical and emotional worrying....fell off big time myself....then crawled home...lol...and first voicemail off the plane was another fav. mare on the horse ambulance with a rare flesh eating fungus....I mean, they say God doesn't give us more than we can handle, but he may have just been trusting me a TAD TOO MUCH there for a bit...but I kept praying, and having Faith it'd be ok, and I'm not a Bible thumper....but I really do think that the "enemy" whether you believe or not....be it the hot ol devil, or the alchohol itself, sees us beating it/them, and they try to lure us back into the den of "crap" and "diaster" that drinking too much causes.....you gotta fight the good fight and stand firm...and forgive yourself....if you hang onto your mistakes, you feel so bad, you just do it again, you've done great, and will again....those babies need you, you are a great nurse, no go get 'em!!!!

[toughintexas]

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now go get 'em I meant to type, gotta get that manicure for these fingernails, keep typing wrong....think I'll just get the hoof trimmers and go for it here at home....lol

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Bear...it's killing me...send the letter. LOL

More...thanks for thinking of us. Been a rough week...will write more tomorrow. Been a bad day!

Tired and wheepy tonight guys and have to take Mama to the doctor early...luvuall!

[louise]

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Toughintexas I am very glad to hear your good news. I'll be thinking of you Luvuall and Hearatlast.

[MDBiker]

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hereatlast;144295 wrote: hi everyone had a fantastic break but did not stay af soo disapointed but nothing bad happened fantastic hotel at boughton on the water in the cotswolds got back to the still damp house waiting for all the work to be started but got to dry out first ( the house not me !!) i dont know what to do about me im not drinking alot but want to go backto af got to go back to work next week god i am dreading that i feel so down at the moment i was doing so well

You know Hereatlast we just kinda skimmed over this post, and I am ashamed of myself for not responding. I realize you are very concerned and I know you are unhappy about your slip. But, You made 45 days. YOU MADE 45 DAYS:goodjob: . that is a great accomlishment and you shoud be proud of it. When you did drink, it wasn't like you went back to where you were, you managed it well. Don't let that upset you. We believe in you, and know you are back onboard again. Try to move on at the pace you are comfortable with.

As far as going back to work, you have a good reason to be nervous. I always get nervous when I take a week of vacation because I don't know what is going on now. I am out of the loop, and it is not easy to get everything back straight in my head or schedule. Don't doubt yourself, you will be better than before, but it will take a little time to bet back in the groove.

You are going to be great at work and you know it.

God Bless
bear

[MDBiker]

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Tex, I like the new avatar. Real horsey

[toughintexas]

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Thanks Bear, thought I'd change from being a fishy for awhile! I'm headed to Tyler to do a few things with my daughter today, get my fake blonde done in the ol hairdo, and go on to Kilgore to spend the night with a dear older couple, and take her to run errands tomorrow, so I'll be back in to check on ya'll Thurs. evening! Everyone hang tight! Love to all, prayers for all of us coming from Texas!

[MDBiker]

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Wow, it is lonely on this one tonight. Hope you all are haveing a good nite. I had a good day, and I am considering taking a nap. I will check n later
bear

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Bought Mama two cockatails today...one yellow and one grey. She can see them while she lays in her bed. She loves them. She is in pain all the time now even on her meds.