30 days???

[Niblet]

30 days???

OOHH Luv, if we could all just take a bit of your Mamas pain so that she didn't have any we would... You are so thoughtful to bring her some beautiful bird to look at to help keep her mind off her pain.... Oh I know you wish you could just wave a magic wand and make everything all better. I'm sending up prayers for your Mama Hon.
I like your avatar too Toughintexas , very cute. How is mare and orphan foal adjusting?
Today was a day filled with alot of mixed emotions for me... We traded our old girl in ( 1992 GMC extended cab, 4x4 truck) I LOVED that truck and couldn't be there at the time of leaving it and exchanging it for the new truck I would make a complete ass of myself in tears the whole bit I'm afraid... We had our old truck from new and I just was sooo attached to it, but things were wearing out as things do and it wasn't feasible to keep putting good money after bad... The new truck is really nice but will take awhile to "bond" with it.. Is that silly or what? I actually felt a pang of genuine guilt for trading our old girl in... After all... it is only a machine... I keep telling myself that.
Thanks for helping me keep track Bear I didn't realize was it yesterday that I was on day 50. Hereatlast, bless your heart for the job you do... I know that your hospital is a better place having you there.. You are so down to earth and compassionate... You may not know it but you touch peoples lives that are having such a rough go of things. You are truely an angel in a nurses uniform. May you be blessed for all that you do.
I'm a tuckered Niblet and wanna say Goodnight All , Hugs to each and everyone of you,

[bootcampbarbie]

30 days???

hi luv. been praying for your mama that's for sure. i bet the little burdies are awfully pretty. i'm actually sitting here with my 3 best friends, my dogs. lol yep, i really figured out this week that through thick and thin these little buddies are always with me. always. and wow, when you start to sober up well i noticed i had some not really very kind people circulating around me and well my hubby says i tend to only see the best in people. bad habit i suppose. so i've been doing a bit of housecleaning this week. doggies are happy. as i'd rather be with them then these so called friends that i no longer have. hahahahahhaah, now poipu ran up the stairs this morning barking and crying and jumped on to my lap. for a 70 lb dog that is a lot to hold as i only weigh 40 lbs more than her. i felt like that show. what is it lassie? hahahahahaha so i run downstairs and sure enough her sister bear has caught herself another mousey. seems bear has decided that in a previous life she was a cat. so, 80 lb bear has caught for mama's sheer joy and pleasure 5 big ass mice this week. thank you bear.
i think the withdrawls must bring on depression. as i am way depressed or it could be lack of pain meds or life or whatever. i don't have a reason to be depressed cept i'm sad about kicking a few so called friends to the curb. but bootsie has to have a new attitude.
so toughintexas i'm so relieved that you are healthy, happy and using those hoof trimmers for good measure. perhaps you could go on qvc with them and make some extra dough. and bear you are always putting a big ol smile on my happy face. yes, i don't fault charlie for his thoughts but he was a bit obvious. hahahaaha at least i didn't throw up on charlie. but it wasn't an attractive moment for ol boots.
and hereat last i admire you for the work you do. you make such a big difference in people's lives. it is alot to manage and i admire you for showing up and giving out the one thing everyone could use a little more of, just plain ol love.
today i'm going to chill out and rest my body. cuz i have to show props all day friday through sunday. and i want to be in top shape so i don't throw up on anyone. hahahahaha smiles you all. sending you all a big ol love hug. and i'm drinking my nice little vitamin water.

[Guest]

30 days???

Today I am just having a suck day! Feeling very sorry for myself. Had to call my 80 year old Granny and tell her her baby is dying of cancer...if that isn't the worst thing in life EVER. I swear sometimes I think I lead another life and I am being punished in this one for it. Cause I sure as hell haven't done anything really bad in this life to be tortured! LIKE I SAID...feeling sorry for myself. STILL AF, but today has been HARD. But, Lord knows I wouldn't dream of it, I have to take care of Mama now. I would die if I got drunk and couldn't care for her. That would be the icing on the cake. OK...through venting...I will take my happy pill tomorrow...promise!

[bootcampbarbie]

30 days???

so sorry luv. my father actually went very fast. it was a blessing really as he passed away in his sleep. tis tough as i know we all have to go at some point. my dad lived a very long and beautiful life but still wasn't long enough in my book. and my sister passed away of cancer a few years back. i've missed her much. but she was so sick for many years. such a trooper that gal. she died so young at 55. so, you just hang in there girl. we are all saying lots of prayers for you and mama and family.

[Guest]

30 days???

Thanks ladies...my Mama is 55. Too young in my book. I feel like I keep getting robbed here...people are supposed to be around a bit longer than 36 (BILLY)and 55(MAMA) years aren't they????

[louise]

30 days???

Yes Luvuall, they are. And definitely children are supposed to outlive their parents. 3 of 6 of my grandmother's children (including my mother) died before my grandmother. She just kept asking why. And my stepdaughter died of cancer a few years ago - I would have gladly traded places if I could have. You're in my thoughts.

[Guest]

30 days???

Your poor Grandmother...that is SO SAD louise. I just can't imagine. This past year has really been a test for me. One I about failed, but a test none the less. I just cannot imagine losing one of my children. I believe that would send me over the edge.

Better this morning guys...woke-up on the good side of the bed...at 3:30 of course, but the better side. Heard someone getting sick..just as I was having a dream that an airplane was crashing into my house anyway! GOOD GRIEF! Thought it was Mama...knew it wasn't Zak...as you know he sleeps with me...he was accounted for. waited outside the bathroom...it was Brit. My daughter...she was fine. Guess just upset tummy. Warm bath and back to bed and she is fine, of course, I am up now. Usually am anyway. Told her about my Mama yesterday...she cried some. She is tough...she is not my more sensitive child. That is Zak...at least I should say, not on the outside. She is a good girl, just got her Daddy's compassionate side. Me and Zak...we cry if we see someone else cry. we don't even have to know why you are crying, just hate you are sad. he even did that as a tiny baby...he'd cry in the nursery if the another baby cried. We're crazy!

[roxane]

30 days???

LUV you really are going through the mill.

maybe Brits upset tummy was a physical sign of her emotions, when my OH was diagnosed with cancer we both thought we had flu the next day but it was the shock of the news.

[bootcampbarbie]

30 days???

hello and here's to a new day, friday. not much saying so far this a.m. want to make myself a bit of coffee though inbetween these phone meetings. sending you all good love and light. i slept really well last nite but still am a baking oven. ooh love nite sweats. hahahaah hope all those years of alcohol are just sweating right on out of my system. i thought if you stopped drinking you'd look better. guess that happens in a few months. lol cuz i think i look worse. smiles to you all. and yes, peeps should stay around alot longer, my mama died when i was 6 weeks old and in the last few years my dad, sister and grandparents as well. so, seems as if it is good practice to get as much in as i can. 47 comes up july 17th. it would sure be nice to see it AF.

[Guest]

30 days???

Roxane didn't think of that. Might well be why her tummy was upset. Brit tends to keep her emotions inside more than the rest of us. Poor baby! I know she is worried and sad too.
Bootsie, you will see a good change soon...promise. My skin looks tons better! You are still recovery from surgery too.

[roxane]

30 days???

well LUV we are 'stiff upper lip' brits so we both were stunned and i didnt feel i could ask him about it unless he wanted to talk, he didnt. next day we were both off work ill. emotions come out somehow, whether we want them to or not.

bootcampbarbie, keep that birthday in mind and i hope you can do it! the sweating is the crap coming out of your system. make sure you drink plenty (water lol) and keep up with the vits.

[MDBiker]

30 days???

Hello everyone. I started to post last night but I went to sleep at the computer. i just seem to be tired all the time. Luv, I am sorry you had such a crappy day, but I can understand why. I hope Brit is better today too. You need to find a way for you to get some downtime yourself or you are liable to be sick too.

More2, easy on the coffee. Elizabeth worries me too. I know she is having problems, but I don't think I understand what is really going on. I hope she is better now.

Boots, those sweats do suck. And I think they last too long also. Lots of water is a good call Roxane.

Louise, I am glad to see you are here to keep everyone in line when I am busy. lol

I will try to spend more time here this weekend, but if I don't "see" y'all again today, have a great weekend. Do a little something for yourself; you deserve it.

bear

[toughintexas]

30 days???

Hey Guys! Stayed an extra day in Kilgore with my friends, got home late this afternoon...Luv, sorry things are so stressful for you, my heartstrings pull for you, my Dad passed away at 55, and I felt very cheated too...you are wonderful to be such an awesome caregiver, and Bear is right, you have to get some "downtime", you can't get sick too, even a matinee movie this weekend, some "decompress" time! I really got that the past couple of days with my older friends, it so helps to take the focus "OFF OURSELVES" somedays, and do for others....and to just sit and not have to do anything but be company for someone else, then again, if you HAVE to do that, you can get too much of it...lol...Bootie, hang in there....lol....and hey, I'm typing with a 79lb bulldog half on the laptop, and my 198lb. mastiff at my feet, and a Jack Russell on the couch who rules the roost....dogs are Mans Best Friends...with the horses of course! Bear, you feeling any better? I'm worried about you, you've been "too pooped to party" for a couple of weeks now, you still taking your vits, eating yo Wheaties??...lol...are you working too hard??....Maybe Mrs. Bear needs to come home for a few days and babysit you! Anyway, the hubby and I are headed to Lone Star Park in the morning, to watch live TB racing, and the simulcast from Belmont Park, hoping to come home with heavier pockets than I leave here with...lol...Ya'll watch if you aren't busy, there's a filly in the race!!! A filly hasn't won the Belmont in a 100 yrs., and that's a for real statement....should be fun! I'm sending prayers and thoughts to everyone, and hoping for a great weekend for all.... More2, get some rest too, breathe, breathe....lol...watch the caffiene...I know I've been gone 2 days and left someone out, but I'm sending out thoughts and prayers to all on the site!!!!

[Guest]

30 days???

Goodmorning all my luvs! How are we in AF land? I am 8 weeks AF today!!!! 2 months, can you believe it? Slept better last night. Mama had a good day yesterday. She LOVES her birds. I hear her talking to them all day She named them Tick and Chiggar. LOL One is mean! He picks on the other. Isn't that funny!!! Guess I will do some yard work today...not much in the mood this morning, but somone has to do it and I haven't seen the yard fairy this morning, keep looking for her though...LOL

[Guest]

30 days???

where the heck is everyone today? BEAR...you didn't ask for the day off??????