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[Niblet]

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It's been a beautiful hot day. While I was out watering my lilacs I watched a beautiful deer across the road in the mennonites field.. Sooo pretty. Glad to hear that abs are going well for you Brandy... We are so individual in our lives eh? Isn't that wonderful about us humans? Hugs everybody... I forgot to water my galdarn tomatoe plants and I absolutely LOVE tomatoes.. Have a wonderful evening everybody, hugs, ~Niblet~

[Guest]

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Went out on the boat tonight, was out for a bout 5 minutes and the transmission blew...dang it! It was still nice...no sweat. Got in ok...reverse worked...LOL. I don't let anything bother me. I have lost so much and I am losing so much still in watching my Mama, I have really learned to cherish life. I truly don't sweat the little stuff anymore. I don't care. I am just happy to be sobber and enjoying my life again. I was gardening this weekend and just overwhelmed...I was crying thinking how truly grateful and lucky I am...I have two beautiful children, wonderful friends, and great career...I am more blessed than many...and yes, I have had a rough time, but I should be grateful I ever had a love like Billy and a good Mama, some people never have either. So, instead of feeling sorry for myself and drowning my pain with wine, I am going to be proud of my love that I had with them and will always hold in my heart!

[MDBiker]

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WTG Brandy. 17 days is great!!!

Glad you had a good day nibs.

Luv, you struck a cord with me on the boat thing. Three years ago when I was drinking a lot I bought a boat. We live at a little lake, and mama bear wanted a boat to get out on the lake and relax. Get this. I have never had it in the water since the day I bought it. I was always too drunk to feel like I could launch it, and now the batteries are dead and it needs to be checked out before I use it. pretty stupid huh. I think I am going to sell it, but I guess I need to get it running so it will sell. Sometimes I am so lame. Go figure, I always thought boating and drunks went together. ;o)

Anyone heard from More2? Did she tell us she was going to be out of pocket and I forgot?

Luv y'all
bear

[Niblet]

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Humm yeah Bear where is the rest of our lil family? They are sure missed when they aren't able to check in....
Luv, what your said was so very true and beautiful.... You never cease to amaze me. Hugs to you, you inspire us all on so many levels.
When we go "boating" it involves paddles... We use a canoe, or a paddle boat.. Isn't it nice to be on the water? Enjoy your day everybody and find some special time to be nice to yourself. Hugs to everybody, ~Niblet~

[morrison]

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Ready again

I'm ready to give this another shot. Day 1, but gotta start somewhere. I need to keep busy. I have to stay positive, and not let anger and depression control me. I will do this.

[MDBiker]

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Woo Hoo, welcome morrison. I was wondering what had happened to you.
I hope you and yours are dong well.

[toughintexas]

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Morrison, ya pin head!!!! I started a WHOLE THREAD on you, you better have read it....lots of blondes, and Bear, on a motorcycle riding thru casinos looking for you! You better stay here, we need you, nobody is perfect, and like I said, some of us may not graduate kindergarten, but by God we're studying hard! Bear, take Mrs. Bear out on that boat before you sell it, just once...Nibs, sooooo glad Cody is excited about the mare...wahhhhwhoooo...Luv, hope all is well....I'm worried about More2, also....gonna call her tomorrow....I'm pretty good, but not as perfect as I'd like....and have a filly going to the World Show starting Fri., will show Mon., and be gone all week, taking 'puter tho....hopefully this will be my first World Show without a hungover morning!.....

[rachel28]

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glad u r back morrison, u r alright, xxxxxx

[morrison]

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Thanks for the support guys. I know I'm ready to be sober again. Basically, I was so messed up for awhile, I got in a bad place. Kinda gave up, you know? Plus, I was too ashamed of myself to come on here. I would come on drunk as hell, and didn't like myself, and would post negative things. For that, I'm sorry. When I see my personality on the booze, I can't describe how deeply I hate myself. I know how I felt when I was sober for awhile, and remember the guilt going away, so I know I just need a couple weeks to dry out, and get back to the routine that works. This time around, I hope I remember to not dance with the devil and tell myself, "hey, you've been good, and you had a rough week, so just tie one on tonight." WRONG!! It always starts that way with me. Then its once every weekend. Then twice a weekend. Then I start drinking earlier, and then on work nights. Anyway, you all know how it works. Just wish I never started again. I have no control. I even drove the other night, and I was hammered. So angry at myself. I'm doing this. I'm excited again about doing this. Wow, I'm back to my long ass rants. I must be ready. Haha.

[rachel28]

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i for 1 am glad u r bk, it wold b nice to know u better, i got the hang of this posting now, as u may tell, nice to hear u r feelin bit more positive, i know itseasy to say an hard to do, but DONT BEAT YOURSELF UP, yes its easy to say, im guilty as charged, but, guilt usually = benders, if u slip, accept that there is no miracle cure, hark at me, i have not had a n af free day in yrs YET, i been drs awaitin blood test results, i was really stupid weekend, bender on drink an drugs, blood test mon, i tried to justify it by saying at least dr will have true idea of what the hell he is dealing with, as i dont sem to b able to b to honest wiv, dr, i m starting to b honest wiv myself so i guess tat is a start, dont u go dissapearing again, u had every one worried xxxx

[morrison]

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rachel, please try to get off the booze and drugs. I too am a garbage drunk. Look at my username. Do you know why I chose it? Cause just like Jim Morrison, I would do anything that was put in front of me at times. It would only need to start with a beer. Then it would be shots. Then probably just some weed. Maybe some pills. Next thing, I'm up all night on crystal or coke. You can do it, but you do probably need to take it slow so you don't get sick from withdrawals. I'm glad you are here though. It would be nice to see your success. You sound like a beautiful person with your posts. The first few days of being sober are pretty darn hard if its been a long time for you. Most of us had to go through that. But, don't be scared. Just get something to help you with the initial withdrawals so you don't get too sick. Good luck rachel. Look forward to some intellectual discussions in the future. I gotta take off now though. Actually need to get me some more Campral. (I've been putting this off for weeks, but gonna get it done.) Take care.

[rachel28]

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oh we sound so alike, was wondering y morrison, now i know, good u r bk,

[ducky]

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Hey Mor, and Rach.

Late here but Mor glad you are back. Rachel you are a HOOT.

Be back tomorrow.

[Guest]

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Hey guys More2 went to the desert to look at a house with her husband...she'll be home soon...

MORRISON...man so glad to see ya! Love ya...mean it! NO MATTER WHAT...sobber, drunk...you come here. That is what we are all here for. We aren't here only for good days. We are here for good days, bad days, indifferent days. When you are sad, happy, want to cry, want to yell, want to rant...whatever. We are a family online. We share a common problem and try to help each other through it as best we can. Some of us are able to manage AF, some of us can moderate, some of us are struggling.....BUT wherever YOU are...one thing you can bet on...we are all here for each other.

[Niblet]

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Glad to see ya Morrison ! You are such a good person inside... I can hear that. Stay right here with us cause we want to be a soft place for you should you need it and should I need it I'm gonna be needing you... We're in this together through the good the bad and the ugly...
Toughintexas, I'm soo excited for you and your lovely filly !!!! What is her lineage? My old Codys' name is " Hanks' Joe Cody" You may have heard of "Joe Bailey"... He would have been a great, great....... grampa to Cody. I'm crossin' my fingers for you and your filly at this HUGE show... Where is it held? and is there a paticular name of the show eg: Congress, etc... YAHOO FOR YOU !!!! The preparations for such an event is truely staggering I'm sure ! Take Good Care Hon !
It'll be nice when More2 gets home from her trip...
Rachel I'm hoping that you are able to take your youth and know that it is in your favour to kick this way of life.... There is sooo much more out there for you... It's time to be good to yourself cause you are such a BEAUTIFUL compassionate person.. This world would be a much better place if more people were like you... Take Care of yourself and I truely wish you nothing but all the best this old world can bring.. YOU ARE WORTH THIS.
Tuckin' in night all, Hugs see ya tomorrow Ducky, Luv, Bear, Morrison,,, I just know I'm missin somebody and I'm sorry if it is "you". ~Niblet~