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[AMELIA]

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Yep Luv, I know from experience you are right.
x

[MDBiker]

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Hey Amelia, one thing I do that worked really well at first, and still works well today for that matter; is when I think about taking a drink I try to remember what it was like the last time I was drunk; instead of painting the picture of how wonderful it would be. For me reality kicks in and I know why I don't want a drink. Maybe you could do something similar.

bear

[AMELIA]

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Md, thank you for your response......I so know that feeling.


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[Niblet]

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Hello again, nice to see everybody ,
Sorry to hear about your run-in with the wine bottle Cindi, but it does sound like you have made a very wise, yet tough decision to take some AF time for yourself... As new habits are formed you will gain strength on your journey...
Amelia I would like to share with you something that I found was my saving grace... When I felt a craving coming on... before it set its hackles in I would simply say to myself, "no" ( remembering all the negetive things that go along with drinking... self loathing, blackouts, being judged, no self esteem etc,,, etc,,, ) As soon as the craving passed, take a deep breath and visualize yourself a happy , healthy, person that wakes up rested after a good nights sleep.. It really helped me...
More2 you are doing soooo awesome with the moderating... Going to the wineries would be so interesting. Did you take a bicycle? I've seen shows where they do tours by bicycle.. That would be fun !
Tex, how did all the haying go ? Did your weather hold for you? I'm so glad to see you in the exercise thread... That is so much fun eh? I just love it !
Luv, you are so "real" and so funny... You never cease to inspire me.
What a trip eh Bear ? Did my pics make it OK ? Rest up my friend.
Morrison, I'm gonna post that recipe for real right after I'm done here You got this beat my friend... Keep on Keepin' On,,, we are all pullin' for you...
This week I'm taking care of the neighbours farm down the road. (the horse that hurt her foot is all better by the way...)
Hugs Magic xx
Hope that everybody is having a wonderful evening, Hugs,

[Guest]

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Nibs, I keep getting the pics back from Bear too, they are not going through... and Niblet, if my stories don't scare someone into sobriety, I figure nothing will...LOL (I know it doesn't work like that...trying to be funny) I think of my drunk stories and some are funny and some are so sad! I can only take a couple at a time before I am ready to change the subject!!! WHEW, what a mess.

[Niblet]

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As the saying goes though, "Life's a mess, clean it up"... One step at a time.. One tiny experience at a time... Always a bit forward.. I was talking with a friend of mine who was going over a rough set of roads and my way of putting it was, " Life is just like having a VHS tape playing... Always go forward.... If you must,, pause for a time, but do not ... Rewind " She said that those words really helped her. I think I'm plain overtired and should send my Niblet butt to bed, so night night Hugs,

[Niblet]

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Oh and Luv thanks so much for trying Hon, don't worry about the pics...

[Guest]

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I loved them!!!! No problem...Bear what is wrong with your email?

[Niblet]

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I would sooo love to share them with Bear !!! Hey I got an idea, I'll PM Bear my personal email address, he can just send me a "hello" and then I'll simply "reply" with all the pics... that might work....

[Guest]

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That might work...try it! I liked them!!! Shot, I am ready to come visit.

[Niblet]

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I got room for ya !!! think of the fun we will have !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[toughintexas]

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Hey, I'm having trouble posting, I'm going to see if this comes thru, 'fore I type my fingers off again!

[toughintexas]

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Ok, it worked that time, yesterday, I couldn't log on much, said not available, today the lil circle kept going round, and round, and round, and didn't post my message, happened a couple of times yesterday too....wahhhhhhh!!!!! Ok, what pics did I miss Nib and LUV...I wanna see, I wanna see! DB, I totally agree with all the other posts about what to stop and think about as references about NOT drinking too much....the REWIND thing is awesome...PAUSE to reflect on the past mistakes, but don't ever go back! Always forward...I never, ever want to go back to falling down drunk, waking up wanting to die, loosing a whole day on the couch cuz you totally punished your body and brain the night before, the wondering, what did I do, what did I say....whew...no way worth it! I pray my fool head off, and I couldn't do it without all the wonderful folks here, no way, no how!....Love to all!

[Guest]

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I am so grouchy I can hardly stand myself!!! I have had no sleep for 2 nights now. Mama doesn't sleep at all...she sleeps ALL day then up all night. AND she is not quite!!!! Then she decides she will smoke on the back porch and turns on the flood lights...which shine right in my face at 2 in the morning through my bedroom window...lovely. So, as soon as I walk in the door from work yesterday she greets me crying...she cries ALL the time now, and wants a hug. POOR THING! But, the last thing I want to do is be greeted by her crying when I walk in from work...I still have homework, kids to tend to, dinner to cook. BUT, sure I drop it all and give her a hug. I sound SO MEAN! I am just OVERTIRED and truly being tested. So, I go to bed...early, UP ALL NIGHT AGAIN LASTNIGHT!!!! Then I set the alarm for 6:30 today and she comes in and wakes me at 6:00. I am praying for patience.....I have gotten up by myself since I was 16 by myself (I left home at 16). I feel guilty for losing patience....she doesn't know. Of course, I haven't said anything to her. Most of the time she doesn't even remeber being up and about. She is so medicated!

Zak has a cold, bad one too. Hasn't been in school a week...

Brit did some exercise yesterday in volleyball where you jump on the wall and the ball of her foot is a SOLID blood blister...I freaked out. I told her hitting the wall with her foot with that hony tonk b-donk-a-donk, screwed her foot up good! LOL...she is my daughter. We are no strangers to the big butt club! LMAO

Then I get my fave coffee this morning from Starbucks...I look forward to it everyday, it tasted like crap!!! The girl that usually makes it didn't and this lady didn't know what she was doing.

If this doesn't drive me to drink, I will never drink again! I have came to that conclusion. I think this is a test....WHEN DO I PASS???? LOL

[toughintexas]

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Oh LUV, I can just "hear" your frustration girlfriend, and being overly tired is just the WORST....can you get help with things? I mean someone to come in during the day and keep Mom a tad of company so she doesn't jump right on you after work? Or just someone to come help right after work maybe? You are just over-extended...I don't know how you do it! And it'd sure all fall about if you decided to drink, what a diaster that'd be! I know all about how medication makes folks act, my brother was in a near fatal accident years ago, and everything thing the gave him to sleep, worked in reverse...he was in the hospital so long, he didn't know day from night....I had to go up on weekends, he was Care Flighted to Harris Meth. in Ft. Worth, about 3 hrs away, so we had to stay there for months, and not at home, that was awful, no meals, all that...we were "hospitalized" too really....anyway, he was awake all night too...chattering like a magpie....omg....Maybe if you could get someone to be there during the day, and maybe clean a little, and maybe cook one thing, and keep her company, she'd sleep at night, or call the Dr., and see if you can get anything that might help....I wish I could help you more! You really need to find time for you somewhere!!! Hang in there, this too shall pass.....