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[Beaches]

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OK if I can keep up, which maybe I can or can't I would like to join in..... I will do my best.

[bird]

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Hi all,
I really messed up last night. Thought I'd cook out and have a few beers but you know how it goes. Started drinking really fast and cooking and blah blah on the phone. Got sick and threw up. Havent done that in a very long time. Still very queasy this A,M, and called in sick. Its very depressing and I really wonder if I'll ever make it. Feel like crying but cant even get that going.Damn. bird

[Cinders]

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Bird,

You sound just like me. Last time I slipped at home a few weeks ago it was, I'll just have a couple glasses of wine while I am cooking.

Man oh man, how quickly I started slamming them back!! Each glass couldn't get finished quick enough. Then the next day angry hubby, disappointed DIL and hating myself.

It really showed me that there is absolutely no way I can ever moderate. The brain chemistry and the cravings in my body and brain simply won't allow it. You know, the one drink is too many 10 is not enough...

Remember, though, Bird. This is NOT a competition or a race. It is a day by day effort.

You have been really well and one slip does not negate all the hard work. Period.

Pamper yourself today and figure out how to deal with the trigger positively next time so at least you have that situation under control.

Take care,
Cindi

[12many]

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Hi Bird-

Screwed up last night, too. I was supposed to be tapering, but that is as impossible as moderating at this point. Take care and take it easy on yourself today.

-d

[morrison]

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Yep. Can't mod. We all know it. Very, very, very few can. Can we just be real about that? Sadly, I've admitted to being a drunk long ago, and I still can't get my shit together. I can write all I want too, about the reasons I drank yesterday. Or the day before that. But, its all bullshit. Maybe I just really like this insanity. Maybe I don't have a romantic life like the writer or artist many of us would like to be. Maybe this insanity is the closest thing in my sick, twisted world. Who knows. Bird, we are here for you. You aren't alone on this journey. I'd love to give you the answer into why we make ourselves so miserably ill. Don't know. :upset:

[Guest]

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Morrison if you find it out, do share as we would all like to know what the hell is wrong with us. OK? When you first start trying to stop, OH THE STUMBLES! I so wanted to moderate, still try to convince myself some times...knowing damn good and well I can not moderate. I wish I could too. Every single time I try for more than 1-2 dys at a time though I end up drunk again for a week. If I have a couple of drinks one night and no more than that I can do it, but I can't moderate for more than a day. The next day, it would be 2-3, then 3-4, before you know it I am back up to staying drunk 24/7. BAD BAD BAD....I finally just had to give in and admit I can not moderate. I am not saying that is how everyone is...that is how I am though. Like Morrison said very few can moderate sucessfully. I am just an all or nothing kind of person.
Bird and 12, start again today. Drink lots of water today! It does help. Hugs!

[bird]

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Maybe we could all go on Dr.Phil. We could dress up like our avatars...hmmm

[Guest]

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Oh shit, I am changing mine then! HA HA HA AND he had better make us a mini-series, we couldn't possibly fit this in in one hour!

[Accountable for Me]

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OK, I am sorry, but I am sitting here laughing my ass off Bird and LUV! TOOOOOOOOO FUNNY!

[bird]

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Dr.Phils Halloween House...then hed have our avatars and some of us would be drunk and some sick and some sober and nibs would be cooking

[bird]

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And bootsie would be excercising

[bird]

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And we'd have to bring all our animals.

[morrison]

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Haha. I just saw myself dressed up like Mayor McCheese, stumbling all over the place with a bottle of rum in one hand, and a smoke in the other. Hey, Dr. Phil. You're a big pussy. Wanna fight you punk!! Haha. That would make for great TV, don't you think. haha. Great idea bird. That is hilarious.

[Accountable for Me]

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Oh my goodness. Can you possibly picture that? That is fricken hilarious!!!!!!! What a group we would be. I think he would retire after a week LOL!

[Accountable for Me]

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I think the show would blow Jerry Springers whacked out shows RIGHT out of the water. Dr. Phil would have ratings so high he would be richer than Bill Gates! He would have to compensate us of course.