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[bootcampbarbie]

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by the way 12 many how's the halloween festivities progressing? can't wait for more things to go on the lawn??????? lol i was missing more utube things to look at. okay back to work. well, morrison, hang in there buddy. oh i wrote a poem want to hear it?
GRATITUDE
It's good food
It's a wonderful gift
To receive and to give
It's a way of being
A profound understanding
A conciousness
An awareness of being Alive
A frequency of Joy
The elecricity of creation
there's a good place to start.
well i have 3 poems.

[morrison]

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boots. That is pretty good. Show the other poems too.

[toughintexas]

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Morrison.....you do to care about others....you've posted too many positive thoughts and encouragements to others right here on this site to say otherwise...now, maybe you don't care about yourself as much, but you are going to have to START NOW....You need to make that Dr's appt. TOP PRIORITY DUDE...the meds will help with the desperate feelings, and you have to stay outta the watering holes....you have too!!!!! Wherever you go...there you are! You know you have to take the meds...its off the meds and on the booze....you know that...so get back on track...you DO NOT want to die, you know you don't....you've said so...so you have to take the demon by the horns, and sling him off your back.... For those of you that haven't SEEN Morrison...he is a DOLL...he's young and strong, and built like a brick s--thouse, and has wayyyyyyy too much going on to be sitting in a bar, having a female bartender have to give him a wake-up call....and being ashamed of himself....You are too incredible to go to waste...as we ALL ARE....That comment should've stung...now go do something about it...you have too much life, love and your own family waiting on the horizon to ditch it in a watering hole, not taking your meds...the meds will kick in and start to help you cope....GO NOW....We all love you too much for you to not take care of you...Come 'on.....do the positive, get outta that rut, and get outta VEGAS...go home for awhile or permanent, go where your family can help you! Surround yourself with folks that love you! Ok, stepping off my soapbox!

[morrison]

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Tough. Thanks. I PMed you as well. I do want out of Vegas, but I can't leave until I pay the price for my last DUI. Once that is over with, I'd love to get the hell out of here. Going back home isn't a good choice either. I'll figure it out though. I'm hoping once this last f'up is behind me, I can move on.

[toughintexas]

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Cool beans, getting the heck outta dodge is the best idea, you can have that to look forward too...come to Texas...lol...You can move on, you have too...you have tons of awesome life ahead!

[Accountable for Me]

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Morrison, are you beating yourself up for your last DUI? Is the fear of what may happen keeping you in the alcoholic smog and not seeking medical help? The reason why I ask is because I have done that in my past. My DUI a few years back and anticipating the worse in Court drove me to drink more than I typically did. I simply didn't care at that point to think about what might happen, wasn't optimistic about my future, and basically said 'fuck it' I am going to drink. Basically saying 'who cares anymore'. I was alone, my family thought I was garbage, had no friends that weren't waste cases. Are you scared, lonely and using the alcohol to smother those feelings?

I could be WAY off here, and if I am, I do apologize. I know fear and being scared make us do stupid shit like drink more.............

I really want you to get well.

[bird]

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Yeah Morrison,you know whats goin on. That booze just makes you think you want to die or are going to. And I agree with Tex on the move. bird

[MDBiker]

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I think Tex is right Morrison, you just need to start again. I know you don’t want to hear this, but go to a treatment facility. When you come out you will have 30 days and perhaps a new look on life. You can be happy and enjoy life again. Believe it or not, you are the obstacle in your search for sobriety. You can get past yourself, but you have to be willing to do whatever it takes to stay AF. Whatever... It is a HUGE meaning for such a little word. We do love you and want the best for you, but when it all comes to being AF that is a personal item between yourself and your creator.

[toughintexas]

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Yeppers, you just gotta let that go, and think the most positive you can about the court deal, and just realize you can't let it happen again, or you'll have a self-imposed dry-out in the 'ol pokey...and you are too handsome to be in that pokey for long....I have this visual of some big 'ol wrestler type, half his teeth, bad breath, buttcrack hanging outta his striped PJ's...HAVING YOU FOR HAPPY HOUR....LORDY...I don't know, but I'm pretty sure that's the only kind of Happy Hours they have in there...just think how BAD THAT would make you want to drink....WHEW...Buddy...you gotta give that some consideration as motivation!....

[bootcampbarbie]

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i think that you just have to have that as a wake up call morrison. i think being off the meds must have you think suicide thoughts as well. what meds are you supposed to be on anyway? well as i said earlier it is the funniest and i mean oddest thing as in the last what 12/14 days now? how many healing sessions did i do today? 5 yep well, depression is the usual healing sessions but now add that in: depression, suicide and now i've added in battered women. wow, i have to stop coming to these boards as life is imitating mwo. lmao. egadsss. really morrison i'm pretty sure if you were on your meds and you were sober even two days your whole mood would change also if you were eating right. why do i think this? i'm having a topa moment. is it lithium you are supposed to be on? there is no amount of talking that any one of us can do to change any of this. this is a you with you conversation. how does that go? i can't make you want it. you have to want to want to. and welll fake it til you feel it sometimes. i wish it were some other way.
so, you liked my poem morrison? i wrote two others to. i think i'll give you one per day til i write another few. i am writing them while i'm seeing these folks as i am doing something to counter act the sadness that comes up. as empathy can have that impact. maybe try on instead of killing yourself try on putting your toes in these guys shoes. oy veh. not pretty. god god god. not pretty. is it possible that instead of your main purpose in life right now being writing a book on how to kill yourself. you could focus yourself on how to help someone? maybe you could refocus yourself as to not to be so self centered. we all know how self involved we become when we are drinking or using. god knows there are plenty of people who need help. i suppose that is why i have my healing practice outside of my work. it is a way to contribute to others. "and there for the grace of god go i." a purpose greater than my selfish motivations will always get me through the day." so perhaps, pick a purpose greater than picking up that drink. contribution always seems to fulfill that need. just a thought. perhaps, i've over stepped my bounds so tell me to stfu

[morrison]

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Boots, I'm gonna tell you to STFU anyway. Haha. You're right. We get very, very, selfish, don't we? Okay. I'm toning it down. I'm back at work with a lot of stuff going on tomorrow. Gotta have my head on right. Thanks for the advice. I'll get it straight with the doc too. I gotta be honest, even though I don't want to be. Don't like the pills. But, I guess they help.

[memarcie]

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Yea Morrison, be honest. The docs job is to help you and he can only do that if you let him.

Let us know how it goes.

[bootcampbarbie]

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well, darling can i say;;;; i hate taking topa, have to force myself to take it, glut and kudzo but if i don't i'm a drinking fricking bozo barbie. so i make myself take em. well, until i go to the linear institute in january. then hopefully it is no more anything for this girl. and i do believe soon it will be on bio identical hormones barbi which is energy and no mood swings and my hair will grow back thick etc and all things wonderful. so okay yes i'll stfu. lol i love you goofball.

[toughintexas]

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Hey Morrison, here's a thought.......how many guys would just hate it if all us girls just hated taking those birth control pills everyday....lol...."well honey, I know we have 8 already, but I wasn't feeling fertile, so I thought I'd just skip a day or two!"..... Just think of taking them that way....you won't be pregnant with crazy thoughts and moods....and like Boots said, some of us have to replace all our hormones everyday to be "normal" or at least not bald on our heads, but growing a beard!..... Just try to put taking the pills in perspective!

[Guest]

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When I first started the program I was like WAOOOOOOO...I went from drnking to pill popping. OMG, I take like 100 pills a day. All the supps and topa too and I felt like my head was in a fish bowl. I thought I might have gone mad and when I told my doc about MWO she looked at me like I had 3 heads...WHATEVER.... it worked for me and I needed a fix OK. So, such is life, here were are 6 months sobber now. Take the damn pills Morrison. You will put WAY worse in your body than that little pill, stop being so stubborn. You just don't want to take the pill cause someone tells you too. TIT is right, thank God you weren't a woman, we'd have kids everywhere!