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[Accountable for Me]

30 days???

Yep - had a couple of acquaintances who were prescribed Anabuse/Antibuse and they simply didn't take it as it was recommended. It doesn't do a thing for cravings. You have to be very disciplined for it to work.... Not saying it won't work for you, but you have to take it.

Another thing is maybe go to your doctor and get some Nexium. My doctor gave me sample packages (free, free, free) and it saved my guts! It works wonders and helps heal your tummy.

Please call the numbers provided. Once you make the first call and get the information you will feel proactive in the start of your recovery..........

[morrison]

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Well, I called the center closest to where I live. Gave the woman my name and phone number, and she said a counselor will be calling be back.

I wanted to mention how much I love all of you. You probably are saving my life. I won't give up.

I just hope I can keep my faith in the man upstairs. It has always been a huge struggle for me. I have a very scientific mind. Since my love of dinosaurs as a child, to my love for mechanics and engineering, well, you can see where I'm going with this.

Anyway, all I know is I prayed this morning and asked God to forgive my sins, and I'm feeling much better. I already feel like this is the start of something great. I love you all.

Oh, and I know I trashed the board a few times while I was drunk saying it was not helping. Well, that was me being a mean drunk. I hope if I hurt any members on here, you can find it in your heart to forgive me. I'm a good man, with a very, very, very bad habit.
:h :h :h :h

[toughintexas]

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GREAT MORRISON! Well done! I just know in my heart, that this IS a NEW START for you....I can feel it in my dinosaurous female bones... God has a way of making things better...he doesn't want His kids to hurt...promise....just keep the Faith my man...Hope they call you back soon, please let us know....I didn't see any crappy posts, and I won't go looking for them either, we're family here, and we all understand....just think, when you are well, you won't have to worry or apologize about what you've said or done...that's a BIGGIE....Love you tons....

[morrison]

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Oh tough, I know. When I did my 40 days, I was at the point where I could forgive myself for the bad things I've done. I'm soo looking forward to that day again.

[Cinders]

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Morrison,

Forgiveness is not a matter of time. It is a matter of thought. God will forgive you no matter what.

NO MATTER WHAT!!!

You, however, need to let go and let that healing begin.

I am glad you called the doc, and are doing something for yourself, because I truly believe you must be EXTRA special. You have struck a chord in my heart and that doesn't happen often.

Please, please, be totally honest with the doc. If the doc you see doesn't "get it" get another one.

You have a lot of us on your side sending prayers, good wishes, vibes, whatever. We SO want you to be happy. I mean h happy. You can never be happy drunk. Period.

When you get in a good place, Morrison, you can help me. Okay?? Deal??

I love you,
Cindi

[Guest]

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Forgiveness is VERY hard. It is hard to forgive yourself and others. Once you can forgive yourself, truly forgive...you will be surprised how easy it is to forgive others in your path. Let it go sweetie!!!! I tried Antabuse once....it works...honey will make you sick as a dead dog!!! BUT, like others have said..gotta take it every day! It is EASY to tell yourself to skip a dose so you can drink that day!!!! I would take it in conjunction with something to help with the cravings, if you take it. Keep praying, it helps too! Even if you aren't sure about it at first. BUT, you need to get to the root of the problem. I am glad you called the number Bear gave you!!!

[Guest]

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Cindi,
We are here for each other....if you need us....lean on us too!!!!!!! There are enough of us to go around!!!!

[MDBiker]

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Woo Hoo!!! :goodjob:

You're the man Morrison. I know that is one very hard step. I refused to do it until I was almost dead. After I had decided to do whatever was needed to get straight I found it wasn't really as big a deal as I had built up in my head. Those people are there to help us. They have committed their lives to make it possible for us to live again. I am very thankful for their service.

As for the antibuse, if you followed all the directions exactly you might be able to quit drinking, but I can tell you from experience that there is a difference between being sober and being a dried out drunk. Being sober is being responsible and doing the right thing in everything we do. That means we need to pay off old bills and mend broken fences with the people we have shit on. When you do these things the heavy burden you feel in your heart will be lifted and you will feel like a new person. A lot of the drive to drink for me was from living in the future. I built up situations in my head to be erupting mountains when in reality they were only a little anthills. For example in my mind missing the house payment equated with loosing my home; when in reality, it only meant late charges. Losing my house I would drink over; paying a late fee wasn't even something to ponder on. My alcoholic mind believed what I made up and I was forever in a "future happening" event in my mind which was bad for my drinking.

Being a dry drunk is not drinking and staying AF, but wanting a drink all the time. Thinking what it would be like to just drink one. ?Hurting? inside when you think about not drinking. Generally speaking most dry drunks do not maintain their AF state. The thoughts, cravings, and resentments concerning alcohol haunt them.

If you get in a treatment center, you may not like it at first. As a matter of fact you may hate it; but don?t give up; they have a system that they know works. Learn to live within the system.

God Bless
Bear

[bootcampbarbie]

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morrison, might be good to go through that entire list and call them all darling. then see who gets back to you first. i say why call one when bear gave you an entire game board. and you can work on forgiveness on step 4 i believe. that's why aa had 12 steps. lol you first have to believe there is a power greater than yourself that can restore you to sanity. well maybe first you have to get you are insane. i think that part was always easy for me. i fricking know i'm insane if i'm juicing. phew.. then the next step yep i know there is a power greater than me that can restore me to sanity. then yep god would and could if he/she were sought would definitely lend this sister a hand. and yep definitely does every way everyday. you actually don't have to worry about the forgiveness section sometimes for a year. being sober means you just get to tackle this much for now honey. and if you can't deal with god. just deal with a power like the universe maybe is bigger than you and will be here to take care of you. how about that much. or this family on this board. how about that much. how about this family is intervening on your life. how about that. and collectively we are bigger than you. that is true as well. and i actually find i like tea now. it doesn't make me puke either. and i can say if you drink tea for weeks on end it won't make you hung over. um you may still say things and get into trouble, i do but well you will at least remember what you've said and be able to apologize for it. and you again won't be hung over in the morning so make all the rest of those calls today.

[toughintexas]

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Bear, you are a wise Pappa Bear, your words never cease to give me more insight and motivation... Boots, great advice for our buddy too.... LUV, you are an inspiration always also... We are all bigger and better than this Beast! Morrison, let us know how it goes...just get someplace....Love ya'll....

[Cinders]

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Morrison,

Listen to Boots. She, Bear, and Tit have so much wisdom to offer.

Go to your doc, check into rehab, do WHATEVER IT TAKES to straighten up.

We DO all care for you. Really care for you.

You are one lucky dude

Cindi

[Accountable for Me]

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Bear, if you don't mind I would like to print your post off for my husband. He quit drinking a few weeks back, and I know he is new at this but I don't think he is committed through and through for the long term. He says he is but honestly I don't think he understands the difference between a dry drunk and a sober one.

I know I cannot force him to be either. But your explanation of the difference was outstanding.

Would you mind?

[Cinders]

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Beez, Bear. I am such a "dry drunk" at this point..

I white knuckle every day.

However I would rather do that than be drunk. OMG.

Thank you all for being here.

Love,
Cindi

[bootcampbarbie]

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cindi please take care of yourself. my heart goes out to you. i think what tex says is great get the l.o. i'm using that too along with the topa and kudzo and l glut.

[MDBiker]

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Cindi, I have been there and it is a terrible existance. I know you are hurting. I don't know what I could do to help but if you need anything just let us know.

Barbie, you never cease to amaze me. Funny, beautiful, intelligent, and I think you are reading my mind. :H You post about calling them all is exactly the right thing to do. I had a terrible time getting in to see someone even though I was in meltdown mode. The best advice I could get was "check yourself into the mental ward at the hospital". I had been up there before and I am not that crazy, I am a drunk.

being sober means you just get to tackle this much for now honey. and if you can't deal with god. just deal with a power like the universe maybe is bigger than you and will be here to take care of you. how about that much. or this family on this board. how about that much. how about this family is intervening on your life. how about that. and collectively we are bigger than you.

You are a wise woman barbs. I wanted to say this, but I didn't know how without sounding like I was the new leader for the MWO AA chapter.:H

:h I love all you guys:h
bear