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[Guest]

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Magic,
JUST WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN??? I was gonna put out an all points bulletin today. That was beautiful.
TIT,
If you need me next week...you know my number!!!! and email...I am only that far away. I can only imagine how stressful that trip is, you make this one "TEXAS TOUGH" girl!!!! You can do it!!!! I love ya!
Bear,
I swear I was just thinking today that I could buy them Christmas and mail it to them from SANTA. GEEZ...we're starting to think alike on this thread...HA HA AND about going in the store for supps and announcing you are an alcoholic and NO one laughing, etc...I would bet they DON'T....aren't you like 6'2"????? I would pretty much help you get whatever the hell you wanted!!! LOL
Cindi,
I am looking for a white pumpkin in SC? I might have to have the darn thing shipped. I haven't found one yet! I am dying to make the soup in the pumpkin!
Morrison,
Hope you are hanging in...you know we care and you are in our thoughts!!! We are in your corner!!!
BOOTSIE...your poems are lovely!!!!! We enjoy them. Keep em' coming.
Nibs, hope you had a nice day. Your baby is 18 too...OMG. Zak broke his glasses! He just got them a few weeks ago...I paid 300.00 and the little goofball broke them. I wanted to kill him. LUCKILY, they are covered by warrenty. He was lucky...I told him a new pair would be his Christmas present...you know that was a lie, but I was angry with him.
Bird,
Hope you have a better day....thinking of you....

[Guest]

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HELLO More2....sounds like you are busy! Yes, I do enjoy that the girlfriend is almost imaginary! LOL........

[Niblet]

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Hello all, thought I'd stop by after my tubby tonight... Hubby and I just got home from a really nice walk..
Bootsie, I DO love your poems... you have a beautiful way of expressing yourself.. I agree too, you Have to write a poem about our lil' family !! Yeppers !!!!

Bear, I can imagine you providing that needy family with a Christmas dinner... You are so special !
Tex, while you are away, know that we will be praying for your safe return knowing good news will be with you... We all love you soo gosh darn much !!!

Magic, Thank-You for filling us in on that life change event you experienced... Truely amazing to read... It explains to me maybe why you are such a wise woman.

Bird, Hon I think that I may have deleted your email.. I'm sooo sorry... Please resend it... I'm such a clutz sometimes I swear !! Ugggg !!! Hope that you catch up on your sleep tonight sweetie.
Morrison, we are all rootin' for you and sending you many positive vibes along with much love. xxx we will always be right here for you my friend.
Welcome Atlast, your encourageing words are much appreciated I'm sure !! We are here to share and help if we can, so spend some time if you will... again, welcome.
Cindi, I hope that you are having a good day knowing full well that we are here behind you all the way... Hugs to you.
Seems like we have been going to camp nearly every weekend and this weekend is no different... This weekend though we are bringing some "horsey" friends... Well, hubby rides only, but Donna supports him all the way etc.. Anyhow, she and I both love to walk walk and then walk somemore... With some luck will have nice weather... Well, my decaf tea should be about ready, so I'll catch up to you folks tomorrow, Hugs,

[Guest]

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I am just crying!!!! Brit just got home and said she gave the little girl the ride pass and $20.00 and her little friend started to cry! It just makes me so HAPPY we could help make her day special. I grew-up DIRT poor too and I know exactly how it feels for all your friends to have and you to be doing without. It is SO hard especially at the age of 13. She brought me a picture of them on a ride...hair sticking up in the air, BIG HUGE SMILES!!!!

[toughintexas]

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Magic, that is the neatest story, and ya know what, I could "feel" that moment just by reading your post...Pray if Forward is sooo true! AWWWWW Luv, that is sooooo special and sweet too! And Bear, I can just see you being Santa, you are OUR SANTA....More2, I'm trying so hard to be AF too, we'd both be whining and trying not to give in to each other...your hubby and mine, are totally alike...give 'em the puppy dog eyes, kinda poke out the lower lip, kinda beg in a lil girl voice, and there they go to the wine shop!!! I guess there are pitfalls to being a trophy wife!....Nibs, you have a great time with horsey friends, and send me your cell again, I know I have it, but lordy knows, I'm a dork too, I probably lost it! Hope Morrison is in one of the treatment centers Bear looked up for him...he's just got to be ok....Love you all tons and tons! More2, don't overwork yourself, and just write the "overages" off to something creative so your hubby won't notice... My hair stylist doesn't know it, but after daughter and I's hair last year, she got written off the income tax return as a horse trainer...lol....

[bootcampbarbie]

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funny funny. hope the irs doesn't track down your dog tex and figure out who you are..... horse trainer. ahhaahahahahah my hair extension lady is a medical expense. hahahahaahhaahaa. yep all makes sense doesn't it? well i will write up a poem about us all this weekend if i can stop laughing long enough. somewhere between true grit and the beverly hills hillybillys and then there is the hells angels element and the breeders cup. well i don't think i'll stop laughing long enough to get a poem out but like i said i'll really try. okay i get my results back tomorrow and i can then start i believe taking my pills and pick em up tomorrow too. yeahhhhhhhhhh wahoo bioidenticals here i come. luv that was a really sweet story. thank you for sharing that. anyone heard from cindi or morrison? magic glad you checked in darling. more 2 i'd love to come visit and i'm so afing. and two more months and i go to lenair and then they say she's helped 30,000 people so i won't be thinking of alcohol at all anymore. yipppeeeeeee and happy bday again bear 6 months. whoop whoopp

[bootcampbarbie]

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well don't know that it is a poem. but i was thinking about morrison. so hope he is in treatment and not drinking somewhere or worse than that. thinking of you and this is for you little buddy.

The River of Serenity
Beauty lies within
Clarity is Awakening
Joy is blossoming
Life is Breathing
Someday is Today
God is within
Live your life and leave your legacy
Communicate and Share
Awaken and Transform
Life is ease
Life is grace
Life is such a blessing
Swim in the River of Serenity and drink it's magical water to soothe your soul and spirit
Nourish yourself from the Fountain of Joy as you lighten the spirit of each and every person you touch. ))))))))

[bird]

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Hi all,
Bootsie thats such a lovely poem. Hope Morrison is doing ok somewhere. Hey, maybe you should be boo campbarbie with that new avatar. Luv thats so nice about that pass. Hi Santa bear. Hi everyone. Boy I feel great today. Got up at 4:30 and started cleaning the living room. Got a walmart bag full of stuff out of the couch and maybe 30 pens and pencils. Got paid today and spent almost half of it on stuff for the party. later..love bird

[MDBiker]

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Woo Hoo, I made the 6 months and I appreciate all your comments on the other thread. I have had a really busy day and it isn't over yet. I am on a mission for my boss and he needs data I don't have. looks like I am going to have to make a scientfic guess or SWAG it. I hate it when I get told at lunch I need to have information I can't get by tomorrow morning. I need to go guys, but I want you all to know how much I appreciate all of you. If I have time I will check back in this weekend.

God Bless
bear

[MDBiker]

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I know this doesn't have anything to do with alcohol, but it is relevant to all of us.

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bear

[Niblet]

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Congratulations Bear on your 6 month anniversary !!! Wooo !!!!! Hooooo!!!! You Rock !!!! Momma Bear has got to be so proud of you too !!! Luv, your daughter must be so much like her lovely Mom... You both feel so good helping that girl... It is a heart warming story.. I too did without alot when I was young, so I know what you are talking about.
Bootsie, I hope that when you take these new meds you can still pump us out your poems.. wink, wink... You have such a creative mind.

Bird, I got your pictures !!!!!!! Your kitty eating the ice-cream cone is so cute !! Guys, her armedillo ( sp ) is truely a piece of art !!! No kidding !! I'm impressed !!! The detail.... I smiled reading your post Bird because you sound soo happy today !! Way to go !! Get ready for your party and look forward to all the fun you will be having.
Tex, I'll send you my cellphone number... It is funny, but they put a new tower up so we can get a signal right from the front deck of the camp only in one or two spots... It isn't a strong signal, but we can make a phone call when needed... We do have voicemail, so we don't leave the phone on all the time.. We turn it on to retrieve messages and make calls only. You are doing so great !!! Horse trainer/hair stylist.... like that !!
Magic xx to you sweetie...
More2, I know you are a busy gal and all but I want you to know how very happy I am for you and your family in settling into your new home...
Morrison, wherever you are, we are all here sending you positive vibes full of love.
cindi, sweetie, I hope that this ol' battle gets a tad bit easier for you Hon every single day... You're not drinking and we are all so very proud of you for it !!

So, tomorrow hubby and I will go into town to see Dad and Lyndy before shopping... Almost a year ago Dad had a quadrupal bypass aswell as a valve replaced on his heart... He remains stubborn to lose the nessecery weight to help him prolong his life, so we shall see ... I love him very much, but what can you do... Lyndy is just so wonderful too...
Well, I've turn into a tea toddler, so I think it's about ready downstairs... Bye for now, Hugs,

[hippie37]

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Hi Bear just joined the forum recently and quit drinking myself on 2nd June this year. 6 months may sound like a drop in the ocean to some people but we all gotta start somewhere on our paths. A great achievement bear, and always inspiring to hear!

Love and Happiness
Hippie
xx

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YIPPPPPEEEETTTTYYY DO DAHH....BEAR...OH MAN!!! I am SO proud of you!!! Can't say it enough. I truly can not express how happy I have been today for you. I KNOW what this meant to you to meet this milestone...so my friend, here is to another six months and to us saying 1 year soon!!!!
Hippie...6 months is HUGE...I can recall the day when 1 day AF was HUGE! We've come along way baby!
Nibs have fun at camp this weekend....we will miss you as always.
Bird, you sound so happy today!!! I am glad. Have a blast!!! I think I have found a white pumpkin...one of our BIG patches here is getting a bunch in this weekend. I will be on the hunt. If not, I will holler your way. THANK-YOU so much!!!
MORRISON...my dear friend, sending you love, peace, and happiness...tons of good vibes. We've told everybody your a real hunk and they are jealous that only the 30 day thread gals have seen your picture...HA HA HA

AND now TIT and Bootsie...I must have never told you that I work for the IRS. JUST KIDDING...LOL You two are a trip. (Hey I am gettin ideas) I already have the mug shot in the polka dot dress and pearls...OH....LOL

[morrison]

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The last couple of days

Okay, I'm feeling so much better. I'm sorry I didn't check in sooner, I was really busy catching up and looking into some things.

Anyway, haven't had a drop since my last scare. That scare will last quite some time. I've worked so much the last two days, it really helped me not thinking of booze as a means to handle the withdrawals. My job consist of stuff going on now, as well as the future. So, when I go on a binge, I handle what is going on now(barely,)but get backed up with things. So, when I get back to work after a binge, I have a nice pile of work to play catch up with. tomorrow I'll be caught up cause I worked so hard the last couple days. I looked into those programs, but nothing panned out yet. I'm really serious about doing that, but it has to be an outpatient type of thing. I don't know if that is the right word, but I CAN NOT lose my job. That list that Bear sent (thanks again) only had 3 places from Vegas. As bear mentioned, it could take a bit to get into one, so can you imagine Vegas? With all the addicts out here. I'm not making excuses, but that is how it panned out. I'll look into it with more time. As I said, I can't lose my job. It will be too hard to handle the stress of unemployment. Also, I go to court on Nov. 14, and one thing the lawyer told me was to make sure I keep my job. IF I go there jobless, it will look bad, and jail will be more likely.

So, still praying, although I cursed God a few times. Haha. Temper is gonna be high until I completely detox. I'm serous about doing this again. Gonna let the past be the past.

Saw my shrink and got new prescriptions. Gonna stick with the Campral for the urges, and went from 200mg of Lamictal up to 300mg for my mood swings. He really thinks from talking to me that my mood swings aren't quit in control and that triggers my drinking. We'll see. I asked him about antibuse, and he still doesn't want to go that route. We made a deal. I told him I promise to try very, very, very hardest, and take my meds on time, EVERY day, plus come on here, and do what I can do to stay sober. When I go back in one month, if I can honestly say I did my best and failed, he'll consider adding the antibuse to the regimen. I'm still gonna look into the counseling on top of all of this too don't forget.

Hmm. Been so busy. If I keep myself busy, I'm always better off. Aren't we all. There is more I wanted to write on here, but I can't think. Worked 14.5 hours today. Too much. My eyes are killing me, cause I didn't sleep last night. I was having some weird ass thoughts and feelings. Hmm. Wonder why? haha. Damn withdrawals. I know they'll be gone soon. It seems like I can make the withdrawals go away quicker with the right workout and supps/vitamins, and diet.

Damn, that was a long ass rant. I apologize for being so self centered. But, I know you wanted to know what was up with me the last few days. tomorrow at work, I'll find time to get on here to see what is up with the rest of the family. After feeling like I did the other day, I'm on a natural high. Just hope I can get some sleep tonight. I look like a baggy-eyed slob. haha. Oh, started keeping a journal of reasons not to drink. Gonna even think of thing from days past to write about. When I think of some of the things. Uggh. So embarrassing.

Well, love you all. Take care. :l :huggy

[bootcampbarbie]

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okay just got home you all and thought to check in. hippy are you like following me around? gosh i am starting to really have a crush on you. lmao. well family i'm so excited.well i don't know that is the word/ my doctor called me today with my test results. she was actually in an upset. she and rejuv center were calling and they were like boots get your ass in my office now. ummm okay. they wanted to admit me to a hospital. well let's not get drastic kids. seems my hemoglobin is at a 6 and is supposed to be at a 11.7. they wanted to do a blood transfusion???? and my iron is at 15 and is supposed to be at 120. she said how the fuck are you even walking around. do you have an ulcer? um no. then i thought. do i? lol i would know if i did. so i called a friend on the other line who has one and he said boots you would know if you had one. turns out as i don't eat much that i need to eat more. lol and because i eat alot of vegs not meat that i need meat. and since i have been bandaiding everything for years um time to get to the root of the matter. so i was so relieved today i cried buckets. i mean yep that is why i'm so fricking tired. i am depressed because i'm exhausted as my iron and blood are depleted so low. my testorone should be at 40/50 and it is 17. estrogen, progestorone is fine thyroid is a bit off but okay. growth hormone is at 95 should be at 250/300. all of those things are going to make a difference. but really the thing for the md was boots get in my office now because of the blood and if we aren't going to do a a transfus as it would be my luck to get aids nope i said i went out and had a spinach salad and steak i ate so much i thought i'd puke. lmao i said well doc when you eat hardly anything we have to go slow. she eats like i do so we decided to take this one step at a time. i'm so not anorexic as it would take 40 lbs for me to get that way. but i am not crazy. well maybe i am i told her but at least i don't have to take the stupid anti depressants anymore we can titrate off of them as the problem isn't that. it is that i'm just wiped out. well, i can tell you i've approached it from a mental side and spiritual side for 2 years and no doubt i've even naturally tried to use alcohol to boost energy to she thought as i've powered my way through it these last few years. none of these things solved the issue of my blood. so, we don't know how i've over rode the system except i've a very strong will power to simply exist. but she said anyone else would simply be in the hospital on tubes. ah hhhhhh not bootsie. so i think give me like a month and i'm going to be fricking a new woman. and hubby is now on his new regime too. and trust me i told him wow dr. said i'd actually have a libido back as from 17 testosterone to 40/50 means uhoh f..k like a bunny. lmao. he was hummmmmmm i like this new bootsy. yeah when you are exhausted and can barely function and have to power your way through life well you are powering your way through everything. now i'll be like ms. romantic little boooh camp barbie. like that bird.
so had to share family. this is the most amazing day of my life. i called a few friends today and simply broke down which i never do and cried cried cried. now they know why i've been hermiting. who can really be social bunny when you are so fricking tired all the time and depressed and blah. and the best is doc says i'll be looking 25 and feeling 25. so, watch out cuz i'm kite surfing.

okay well enuf of me. birdie happy you are happy again. luv sorry zak broke his glasses. but he's getting new ones. ah i'm going to miss you nibs. you are so my soul sistah. okay i'm calling you tex. more 2 i laughed so hard about your son's vibrating phone. bear congrats and hippy so happy you joined. magic please stay with us. morrison so needs you. morrison please don't wear yourself out. cindi come back please. and anyone else? i know i'm missing someone way important. frick....... it'll bite me in the ass. sorry i'm just so tired.