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[magic]

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Well Hello you beautiful people!

I'm sorry you're craving today LUV, just try to remember it's just a thought and it will pass, let it go. And yes, tell yourself that you do not drink and be done with it. Don't give it more thought than it's worth~ which is about 3 seconds.

In my early days, when I wanted a drink, I remembered the hallucinations and the DT's.
It always worked.

Hearty CONGRATULATIONS on 60 AF days! That is a true accomplishment and we are all proud of you!

I firmly believe that the answer to your struggle, and everyone else's, will come from within.
It's there and you will find it one day.

It's late, will someone get the light? I can't reach,

m. xxxxx

[toughintexas]

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Magic, good to see you, I've missed you! Your words are wise and true! I think making a journal of all the awful things you've done, and said, and messed up, and how you felt, is a good thing to rush to and read when you think about overindulging...so you remember why you don't want to add to the journal's entries! I just can't have another morning where I wake up, and fret, and feel awful, and shake, and can't function, worry what I said, who I called.....blah, blah...all the crappy things AL will make you do and feel....its just sooooo not worth it! And you know how much poison it is, when your body respond so violently to the after effects....lordy mercy....never want to feel that again! Luv, congrat's on the 60, you can do it girlfriend....you are one tough Southern Belle! Love to you all, I'm getting the light Magic, someone else turn on the porch light tho!!!!

[bootcampbarbie]

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well congrats luv bug on a 60 day hoorah. and cindi i'm saying a prayer for you and sending you love and light. i think yes it is coming up on 8 months for me. well, humm i don't know what to say. hummm i haven't had any physical cravings since i saw rhonda. so it was the magic pill for me. and 3200 keeps me from tipping a drink big time just to prove i'[m wrong or right about it. guess i'm weird about money that way. but you know my mind is my mind and of course there are times i think wouldn't it be nice to have a glass of wine and really think that but thinking thinking and more thinking isn't the same for me as that nawing physical craving used to be. the one that kept me fully steeped in it. and if i did have that i could go back to my card and practice the pieces i needed to. so i think with all things you have to want it but i definitely don't consider myself an alcoholic. so, i think cindi humm it didn't work for you because first you said you had some major stuff to move out first right? so not to say that if you went back that you couldn't then work on alcohol it is that your system couldn't get to that first. it is that you had this major thing that you said was huge that went first. so i have no thing to say about lenair like defending it but just wanted to add in that it definitely worked for me and it was definitely a magic pill for me. and you know now i have life to contend with and that i can do sober. good to see more 2 didn't melt in the heat. and glad to see tough is happy and back from her trip. magic is always so sparkley. and hello to nibs. thanks for hte pm birdie. i shall keep your recommendation in mind. i'm going on mute. lmao...... luv to you all and congrats love bug. you can celebrate 2 months and i'll celebrate my 8 whoop whoop

[brittzak]

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what i thought and have always thought was VERY odd about rhonda.....she didnt once mention billy or my mama. as ALL...I MEAN ALL of you know i did not drink until late in life...I was in my 30's...to not mention billy and the entire reason i went head over...is just odd. if you can see my "inner me" HELLO he is all over it. as u all know.... shit i miss bear some days!

[momof3]

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Luv, Cindi,

First, I want to say that this week I am going on 4 months alcohol free. With that said, each one of those days has been a conscious effort. I think about it and/or crave it just about every day. Some days of course are worse than others--it does appear to be cyclical. This week I am at the beach with my children and I am having cravings like crazy and I am so irritable...summer, beach, sun, etc...lots of triggers.

I am grateful for being alcohol free. I think Lenair perhaps was a jumpstart (and I went twice) but since then it has been good old fashioned hard work for me. I feel very happy for those it did work for and I truly think that Rhonda has a gift to remove the alcohol issue for some, but certainly not all. From our little sample on this site, I'd say it may be a little over 50%? I did find her to be an extremely compassionate and gifted person with a true desire to help others see themselves. I think their advertising is overstated.

Cindi, I too have struggled that there must be something wrong with me because it didn't work. This is why I was reluctant to post for so long. But the bottom line is I don't think that I have any more issues to deal with than others. When I return from vacation and once the kids are settled in school, I plan on writing a letter to the Lenairs about my thoughts and experiences. I think they will appreciate hearing it.

I am truly happy and envious of those whom Lenair did work for...those such as boots, best, buckle (hmmm the "B" gals), etc. I so wanted that to be true for me too and it has been painful to come to terms that it did not.

For those who are still struggling after their work with Rhonda, I admire you for remaining alcohol free. As we are demonstrating every day, we can still do this. And, perhaps on some level, there is something that Rhonda gave to us that will help keep us strong and will help us through.

Love and Blessings to all,
Mo3

[bestlifeldms]

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Good morning all,

For each of you who went to Lenair and didn't get the same results that I got, I am heart sick. Because it has been such a blessing for me. I agree with Momof3 that, hopefully, there is some relief from Rhonda, that will make your effort this time, successful for the rest of your lives. Yes, physical cravings for alcohol have vanished for me. Psycologically,like Barbie, thoughts do surface. But then pass. They are as simple as a thought in responds to an argument with my husband. (Boy, he can really piss me off!) I think to myself, "This is when I would have really tied one on!" And then I push the thought away. Very fleeting! I am grateful for they way my psyche (Self) - whatever it is- responded. Let's all stay strong together and use all the tools in the toolbox to build a great life, day by day!

Love - Best

[bootcampbarbie]

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oh i like the tools in the tool box analogy. obviously the systems have lots to work on lots and lots and lots to work on. for instance i went to lenair the last time to work on some specific issues and although we worked on them that didn't take but some other issues disappeared and still others lessened. so i will go back again and work on the issues i wanted to complete this last time. i can see my system is going to do what it is going to do and it isn't always on my agenda or time clock or for that matter rhondas she is just the facilitator. when in doubt ask. so i sent an email just the other day to ask about it as i wanted some feedback on this area that has resurfaced with a huge vengence the putting me last before all others just has to stop.. has to or i'll keel over. so, i can see how alcohol or any other issue would be the same. the system is going to do what it is going to do. sigh sigh. if only i could tell it what to do. but i'm saving my money so i can haul butt to see her next year to get to this part since we cleared so many other things. i guess i don't see things as in they don't work i see them as they work on the levels they worked on and more to go. but then i'm clear for myself definitely a work in progress. i'm way sorry some of you are having cravings. way sorry. god i certainly don't miss those. and if i was having cravings i'd be on the phone to barry pronto and asking him about what to do since when you left there you weren't having them. but that's me. love to you all. love to bear...

[lorisunshine]

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First off, Luv, let me congratulate on you keeping sober as well as Cindi.

It is day 75 for me and after reading this I truly consider myself lucky to be where I am today. I may have had the odd thought about AL, but it was just a thought. I can see now all the prominent triggers that get me started in the first place. My biggest fear was the fact that Hubby is still drinking, which was my happy hour as well. I did express these fears to Rhonda Lenair at the time and we did a reinforcement exercise, after which she told me that it will not be a problem and it never was. I did not know that it had worked the first night, but on the second day I purposely took lunch in a bar with a wall lined with a global assortment of AL. No cravings, nothing, nada, zero. Trust me it had me scratching my head in disbelief.

I was raised with alcohol. Both my parents would have a glass of beer with lunch and perhaps with dinner. I was always asked if I wanted a diluted glass of wine with Sunday dinner and more often than not I would decline. Alcohol was never forbidden. Therefore as a teenager it would not occur to me to go out and tie one on, as I had nothing to prove to anyone. It was just another beverage.

Throughout my life I drank moderately, mostly at functions. Later on and right after work, I would have a Scotch on the rocks while cooking dinner. I can almost pinpoint to the month when I started to drink to get drunk and stop feeling. It was in 1985 and it did not take long for me to spiral totally out of control. Sleep only came when blacked out and that went on for year after year. If I did not drink, I did not sleep.
In the end and before I found MWO I would wake up black and blue and would have no recollection of what happened or what I said to whom the night before.

Quality of life zero, quantity or even reaching retirement age doubtful. I managed 3 month continued AF after I found MWO and thereafter had sporadig success, but it was a 24/7 effort and was going nowhere. Every monkey wrench in my path would make me drink. At this point even one drink would render me totally intoxicated. My body was screaming in self defence.

My decision to go to Lenair was based on the successes I had observed on this site. I went with an attitude of "Let me proof to you this is balony". If it did not work, I would get a very expensive holiday out of it. I did not think it would work for me and my first appointment was absolutely caotic. I had my heels dug in and I was fighting myself kicking and screaming (metaphorically) all the way. It was on the second appointment that I broke down and it was like a dam broke and all this negativity washed out of me, leaving me open for renewal.

Today I sleep once again like a baby. For the first time since I was a teenager I need an alarm clock again. My blood pressure is almost normal and I have lost 12 pounds so far. I feel a great deal of peace and few things can piss me off to the point of loosing it. I do not get drawn into pointless arguments anymore, because I don't react to stupid triggers.
There were some other issues that I had which solved themselve after a lifetime of bothering me. My daughter keeps telling me that she loves her new Mommy and she shakes her head in disbelief of the outcome of all of this. We discuss it and try to rationalize it, but end up just accepting my good fortune.

25 years of hard drinking went out with a pouf. I need no more alcohol but I would also not try even one drink. I will never go back, even though the problems that drove me to drink are still with me.

I will not question anymore why Rhonda Lenair's treatment worked for me, but thank the universe that it did.

Sorry, this is getting really long.
Lori

[lucky 2.0]

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Thought I would weigh in here too. I am so glad I went to Lenair because it was a huge statement to myself that I wanted off the alcohol train ride before the train crashed. I am very proud of myself that I chose to do something healthy for me and I am proud of the others who have also gone to see her. I am not a complete success story because I do think I could pick up the glass and drink the contents but I am not tempting myself. And, I swear, getting this new puppy is taking every ounce of energy and commitment I can muster. There is absolutely no room left for alcohol.

[bestlifeldms]

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Great! Great! Lucky duckey! Oh so happy! I'm squiggling again, I'm so happy for you! Yes, I too could pick up my usual glass with Voddy and ice water! Oh my, oh my! Never again I pray. :tsk:ray: I said to a friend that I appreciate the beauty and light of my sobriety even more because of having gone through the darkness and pain of the valley of addiction! whew! So, so glad to be on this side of things and I don't think I will ever take this feeling for granted. Scratch that little puppys tummy and say it's from me!

Sending out love to all!

[toughintexas]

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Wow....it does look like about a 50/50 deal then! I'm sooooo very happy for those of you who have had such amazing transformations! I sure do wish it were a 100% deal, because I know Luv, and Cindi, and several others were sure counting on it to work for them too! Just use all the tools in everyone's toolbox is right! That is what each of us are here for, to help the other friend, in anyway we can, to have our MWO army doing battle for each of us!!!! We just need to visualize all of us, what a motley crew, stomping all around the world, jumping up and down on the AL monster that is trying to get us all....we will WIN OUT IN THE END! I'm so happy for this site, where we can all use each others talents, trials and tribulations, successes, failures, and STRENGTH, to keep on keeping on. And, I know BEAR IN THE AIR is pulling for all of us! I talk to him all the time, he's probably trying to jump some cloud ramp in the air, on his Harley with wings, and he keeps hearing us butting in, trying to get his attention...he's probably saying...."Lord, there they are again, we gotta send them some healing vibes again"..... I can hearing him telling us to "just do today"..... I, for one, am not laying that egg again, I think he'd zap me with a lightening bolt! I love you all, and Cowgal, you make your own decision, it could be you it works for, if not, then who knows, maybe it'll resolve other issues for you, that will allow you to get sober, I don't know....but, I'm sure you have the support of everyone here, and the prayers and thoughts too! Keep the Faith everyone! Love you all! Will check in later on! Where's Bird....Birdie....are you still getting in the groove with school starting back????

[toughintexas]

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Lucky....what kind of puppy did you get??? I must've been typing during your post! Good for you too, I know you were really excited about going, and I'm glad you feel like it was a worthwhile trip!!!! Yeah!

[lucky 2.0]

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Hi TIT! I got a rat terrier, 3 mo old. I started a whole thread about it in Subscriber and I think folks are probably tired of hearing about her. She was a rescue and came with the name Lucky- no joke!!! But she spells it Lukky to be original.

[toughintexas]

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I guess I need to subscribe after all this time! How do you do it? LOL LOL.... That's so cool Lucky, for you and Lukky! We have a Jack Russell terrier, I can understand how its taking up alot of energy!!! Good for you, all the way around, love ya!

[Niblet]

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Hello all
I'm just stopping by super -d-duper fast ... It's now almost 8 pm and I've just googled to find out the recipe for mustard beans... I'm sorry I can't spend more time but I've got muffins to put in the oven, peas to blanch and freeze and these beans to tend to... I didn't read but saw our Magic stop by xxxxx Love that !!!!!!!!!!! Hugs, xxx and I will catch up... tomorrow right after work we have to go to town to co-sign for that loan so I'm not sure when I'll stop by, but I will.... I love you all xxx