30 days???

[Niblet]

30 days???

Feel the warmth and support that we will all show you spedteach... A big welcome and a Huge congratulations on day 2... So, have you checked out about the supplements?... Cruise around the website and make yourself at home... We are all here for you ! Just remember this, "A craving cannot hurt you"... Please keep touch as know that we care. Hugs to you in this life changing journey xxx

[brittzak]

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It is 3:15 am in the morning and I am wide awake...been wondering if I would post this or not. So, here it goes...I drank this weekend. Why? I know what triggered me...I knew it was coming...I should have followed my own advise I so freely give and I didn't. I even picked up the phone a couple of times to make the call for help and still went to the store instead. So, I sit here feeling very ill tonight and pissed with myself for breaking a long sober streak. I will hydrate and begin again. The kids were not home. I CAN NOT DRINK....not ever. One drink becomes a binge for me. I am posting this because it makes me accountable for my actions. Please dont tell me it is ok, because it is not ok. My sanity requires I remain sober.

[cowgal]

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sorry LUV

I know your feeling all too well...................so sorry, feel better, don't beat yourself up etc.......You know we love you here no matter what!! You all have been here for me, I know everyone is here to support you................that phone feels like 10 tons when we want to drink more than we want to stay sober...................that I know for sure!:h:h:h
I hope you get back on track, don't let this spiral you down like it usually does for me................

XOXO

MA

[brittzak]

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MA, no more AL in the house and I have NO INTENT on buying more. I feel pretty shitty to tell ya the truth....physically and mentally.

[greeneyes]

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Oh man..... Sorry Luvie. That must have been fierce to see it coming and not dodge the bullet. Going in today or working at home? I'm going to the hole, but call me on my cell if you like. :l

[brittzak]

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I am home with Zak today. He is ill. I am disappointed in myself, but I am not beating myself up to the point I will let this beat me down. I am dusting off and today I am sober.

[Niblet]

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Great attitude Luv !!!! And you are right,,,, For You.. It's NOT ok... Thanks for sharing this learning bump on the learning road you are taking. We all love you dearly and want you ok and you WILL be just fine... Take the day, dust off as you say and then Watch Out World !!!! This bulb planting, painting, redecorating, cheesecake making, baseball fan, daughter supporting, bird poop-picker-upper, bulldog buff, renovating friend of ours we are blessed with IS COMIN' AT YA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
xxx

[brittzak]

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I knew coming here and sharing was the right thing to do. I had to be accountable. So I am.

[spedteach]

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day 3

I'm so in. Been here a zillion times before. What makes it different this time; not a damn thing I can figure. Just glad to be sober today and that there are people out there swimming thru the same "stuff" I am.

[brittzak]

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Spedteach...I am so sorry I forgot to welcome you!!!!!!! Glad you are here. My hand is reaching out to you. I kinda got some skinned knees today, but I am ready to go. Lets do this thing.

[cowgal]

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welcome

And my heart pours out to you LUV, you will be ok, I just think this is a battle we all need to fight daily, and it sucks.....................sometimes we win, sometimes we lose.:upset:................I am in the middle right now, work is tough on my feelings, I like to numb out, and Mike is rough on my feelings and I like to numb that too...............................I love you and Welcome Spedteach!!:welcome::welcome:

Everyone else have a good one, I am struggling day by day, hopefull tomorrow will be more positive, I cannot stand too many rough days in a row without giving in.................

MA:l:h

[brittzak]

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I will be ok! I can tell ya...binges used to last a week...for one to last 1-2 days...and to be 4 months apart..I am making progress. OK...I picked my ass up and moved on today.

[spedteach]

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Niblet
Thanks so much for your support. I'm in a very scary place right now. Seems any alcohol makes me black out really fast. Tryin to remember what happened last week. Am so glad to be sober right now, at the end of day number 3. Thanks again.
Am having some trouble figuring out how to navigate around MWO. Any suggestions?
spedtch

[brittzak]

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Spedteach,
You will figure it out. It takes alittle time. Just start clicking and reading. It will fall in to place. Glad you are here with us. Leave last week where it belongs...in the past.

I am feeling tons better today. Brit cooked dinner lastnight. She made crab cakes and wild rice. Was real yummy. I ate a decent meal and went to bed early. New day....have AA tonight. Back in the saddle. Billy's Mom had a heartattack Saturday. From what I understand she is ok.

[Niblet]

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Good Morning everybody
Spedteach, you are right where you are meant to be... Here with the rest of us loving, caring , compassionate folks that relate to what you are going through...
As Brittzak suggested, click on different threads as you did the 30 day thread,,, read and read some more... You will find other sections of MWO helpful also.. Perhaps you might be interested in Holistic Healing for example... Scroll down to the bottom of each page until you see Forum Jump.... Click the down arrow to navigate through different sections... Heck you can even see what's cooking for dinner on the Recipe Section... Have fun with this and never feel self-concious about any questions you may have... 9 times out of 10 there are many of us wondering the same darn thing... Make yourself at home, pull up a chair and most of all "Enjoy".... You are not alone xxx (Hugs)

Way to go Luv !!! Your daughter is so lucky to have a Momma like yourself... I'm also glad to hear that Billys' Mom is doing ok after a heart attack... Hopefully it happened to her for a good reason and she makes some life changes for the better.

Cowgal, how I wish I lived closer to you so we could ride together... I just got off the phone a while ago with the lady that used to ride Maisy last summer... Maisy has had approx, a year off and I would feel much safer if she put a couple miles on her as I've not ridden hardly atall in the last 7 years... I'm an experienced rider but my last ride on Freckles into the ditch and out of the ditch sideways has really kinda shaken my confidence... I'm not getting any younger and will feel sooooooooo much better gettting on my mare after I see for myself she is quiet and safe... (Which Connie said she will be as she is such a well broke mennonite mare)... yahoooooo !!!! when all the ice is gone and Connie is done being busy with the maple syrup season she'll take her for a nice plod...
I hope that everybody is having a wonderful day... tomorrow we all go to the dentist.
Hugs, xxx