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[brittzak]

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Happy Thursday! I am s glad too....my roses should be in I ordered today so I can get them planted while we have rain! My neighbors will think I am nuits out there planting in the rain, but I dont care. Kids go to their Dads tonight and the weekend...THANK GOD...I am in need of a break! I need a ME weekend. I am going to garden and get a pedicure. I just need some alone time.

[cowgal]

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Well this Is fun & so hard at the same time..............I am on my itouch, hard as shot to type this but was fun reading gotta gp this is hard!!!!!!

[brittzak]

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I just got the Blackberry Curve and I LOVE IT!

[Niblet]

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Well tomorrow is Friday and I have a very long 11.5 hour workday... Not a job that you sit down at either... Oh well, then Saturday I go in for 9 until 4... I'll go to bed good and early tonight... I'm tired already and still have chores plus worm the horses. zzzzz bed is calling me already
I hope that everybody is doing well..
How are you making out Spedteach?... We are all pullin for ya !!! Touch base please xxx
Hugs everybody xxx

[okydoky]

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Hi Ladies,
Just checking in. You all sound like you are hangin in there.
Lenair did not work for me but I don't regret going. It's just an obvious reminder to myself when that little voice in my head says "you don't have a drinking problem...you're not as bad as so and so...and blah,blah,blah" Hello....it had to be bad enough to spend that kind of money and travel across the country for relief!
I haven't had a drink since I went to my 1st AA meeting on Jan 20th and I don't plan on drinking today and if I wake up tomorrow and it's today...I won't drink
I wonder how Barbie is too. I really enjoyed her posts.

[brittzak]

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Oky, so good to hear from you!!!!!! Happy to hear you are hangin in there.

Dang Nibs, you're working to death girl. Slow down.....

[cowgal]

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oh

Nibs, sorry you are having to work so hard, and I complain.......................make sure you enjoy your days off, ok?:l

OKy, glad to hear AA is working for me, I am trying AGAIN, but KNOW I want to try to enjoy drinking again, so I will not drink today, for a while at least, then maybe some day I will feel ok to go have a drink or two w/ friends, have in the past but always SEEM to spiral down, sometimes I think AA makes my life harder............but I do have lots of friends there, hell, the only friends I have made in this GOD forsaken town! This place is getting to me, but I know it is not much better anywhere else.................would love to go away somewhere though.........................AH, wish it would stop raining, off tomorrow and the beach would be wonderful...............................

Love you guys..................:l:h:l

MA

[okydoky]

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Thanks MA, M2 and Brit. I think the key for me was finally admitting that I am an alcoholic and that hasn't been easy. You hear all these stories of how al took away everything. I haven't had the "bottoms" you hear about in AA but I know I would if I continued on the road I was on and am thankful I am no longer a slave to that beast.
MA, I've had some thoughts that I'll stick with this program for a while and then someday be able to drink like my friends. But I know in my heart I won't ever be able to drink like a "normie" because I am an alcoholic and I just don't want to go down that road again. I really look forward to the steps and the freedom that is so apparent in those who live the program.

[greeneyes]

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Thre you are, Oky! I wish I could drink like normal too. But really, I just don't think I'm normal. I think that I may be able to stop after 1 or 2 but then nag the shit out of myself wanting more. That's not what I consider normal. And not worth it. Take coffee.... I don't drink decaf. What's the point? Anyway, nice to hear from you and glad you are doing fine.

This week has been like spring. Lots of blossoms showing up. You, MM, satori, r2c july...

[cowgal]

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yeah

In my HEART OF HEARTS I know that I cannot really drink normally and that is AA's message that they state over and over, I have hit many "bottoms", emotionally mostly, but others too.......BUT, like alot in AA, never lost family, car, house, became desolate...............well sorta.............."Some are sicker than others"(something they say in AA alot here jokingly), that is why it is taking me so long to get it through my head and heart, I know spirituality has ALOT to do w/ my failures, and I know I want to get spiritual or I am not going to make it.........................:h

today is no work, some play, some spirituality exploration, and some "me time" It is going to be a good day

Love you guys, you are my lifeline.....................we have so much in common! HUGS!!!:l:h

MA

[cowgal]

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off

and loving everything but the weather................we have tornado warnings, it is raining, I need to go to an office party (outside under a tent, think I may blow THAT off!!) I think really I am going to go back to the gym (again, went this AM too..............have alot of energy to burn off!) then to a movie, gonna go to Yahoo and see what is playing..................

Hope everyone is having a good day, it is day 5 for me AF...................going to my AA meeting tonight come rain or snow......................

Just hope I don't blow away, don't like driving in this mostly!

MA:h:h

[spedteach]

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Niblet,
I've got 14 days today. Not working but got hired to be a substitute teacher a couple of days ago. Will start Monday working about 3 days a week. Also volunteering at an animal shelter tho it makes me incredibly sad to see what human do (or don't do} to animals. I need more structure in my life. Too much time in my own sick little mind is a dangerous thing for me. Exercising lots too. Those endorphins help a lot.
Sorry you have such long work hours. Thanks for keeping in touch.

[brittzak]

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Spedteach,
That is GREAT! 14 days is wonderful. You are on the right thread..all of us love animals and have tons. I can totally understand being alone with your own mind. Not good for me either! When I know I am having a bad day I will make myself a list of things to do that day and stick to the list...it helps.

[spedteach]

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Hey I just also want to say happy Friday and send love and thanks to lots of people I feel connected to on this thread...brittzak, cowgirl,greeneyes, cinders, etc. Starting to feel connected to the world again. Drinking for me is so isolating.
And more2life, I have 3 sons in college. I love it when they come home especially with friends. Nothing better than a house full of boys. Maybe a house full of cats!
Later

[cowgal]

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Hey

Just checking in to say Happy Friday too!!!!
Good job on 14days too sped & the job. I am another one of those animal lovers..............sad though cuz just learned we lost another chicken today, sad.....

Love,

MA