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**greeneyes** · April 23, 2009, 05:38 PM

30 days???

Whew! Day ended up better than it started out. I'm doing the same luvie -grilling a piece of fish and watching a netflix movie. Looks like another dog. I don't know what the hell kind of mood I was in when I set up my que. I've got to check it before putting this one in the mail.

Nibbers, God do you EVER have a moment of nothing to do?

MA gee, hate it about you having to blow off dinner. I know how you must have been so looking forward to it. Oh was that the payback for the ride? :H I'm so snarky.

More2 - A run at big sur! That will be grand! I hope the weather is perfect for you.

**cowgal** · April 23, 2009, 06:01 PM

30 days???

yeah

Blowing off dinner, al will probably be calling me, and I am just starting to feel normal, will have some pasta, settle my stomach, gain a few lbs...............oh well................

I am turning in early, off tomorrow, so having lunch w/ a guy from aa, his turn to treat! I will study my ass off, as I have gotten really behind in my reading..............sit at the pool and take in some rays, work on that skin cancer:H:H:H........??

Love you guys, going for the night, thanks:thanks:

XOXO

MA

**juniedog** · April 23, 2009, 10:44 PM

30 days???

30 days closer to My New Normal

This sounds so, so unreal...just got the CD's, the book, am all gung ho...thought I could start out making 30 days my first goal, and blew it. Got to day 4, bought a bottle of wine (for just one chilled glass to go with the pasta, 'ya know) and ended up drinking the whole dang bottle myself. It never even made it to the table. I am not giving up, and will start over. Hard to imagine life without my end-of-the-day glass of wine, which always becomes 3-4, but I am determined. I'm in. Starting over today, forgiving myself is truly hard. I need to do this. God bless us, everyone!

**spedteach** · April 24, 2009, 07:48 AM

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Good morning all,
Friday, and what do I think about on Fridays. Feels like this obsession will never go away. Been white knuckling it for the past few days. Am going to a therapist who focuses so much on my traumatic childhood but it's like yeah, ok that happened, but what do I do NOW, as in today.
And on top of everything I'm feeling or not feeling this morning...after 27 years, I don't think I want to be married anymore!! Helppppppp
more2...I love Big Sur. Haven't been there in ages. What a wonderful place to run.
MA...don't let your job eat you alive. Mine ate me last October and spit me out in rehab!
Green eyes, I know what you mean about that netflix queu. I have no idea who ordered the movies I just got...must not have been in my right mind!
Nibs and LUV...hello and as always thank you for being there.
I'm still here..in the high desert...42 days af...and hangin in there.
sped

**cowgal** · April 25, 2009, 08:55 AM

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Saturday!!

Hey all! Off to pick up the horses and bring them home..................is it normal to ALWAYS want sexual favors when you do something nice for your wife, or is just that he has been drinking all night and got home at 5AM, still drunk, didn't realize until now, he is just DISGUSTING!!! FAT SLOBBISH AND GROSS!!!!! I am over it, off to the pool to study, he wanted to ride, but I don't feel like letting him kill another horse today, will wait and go ride w/ someone sober.........................I hate my life today!!!!!! sorry to be so depressing, but it it just that, DEPRESSING!!!

talk to you all later,

lots of love,

MA

**brittzak** · April 26, 2009, 08:52 AM

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Goodmorning ALL...a special welcome to Junie. Glad you are here.

I have had a great weekend so far. I got my new Umbrealla Cockatoo yesterday. I named her Lily. Got some great buys and toys and a play stand for my birds. The stand is HUGE and I got it for 99.00...I love birds shows!!!!!
Today..laundry...UH! The fun is over. Have a wonderful Sunday everyone.

**Niblet** · April 26, 2009, 09:02 AM

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Welcome Junie !!! You are wise to not beat yourself up over the wine but rather pull up your britches and start over... Good for you !
Sorry to hear that you are white knuckling it spedteach... tough stuff for sure. Wow!!! 42 days AF, well now it is 44 I suppose. That is awesome !

More2 your marathon sounds really nice. I love to walk but jogging hurts my back something terrible. I just take a little longer to rack up the miles I suppose although I love to walk FAST.

Today I'm soooo excited because Latisha is coming over to help me with Maisys first ride here... Hopefully this mennonite mare hasn't forgotten all she was taught last year. I'll have to let you all know how it goes.

Well, I'm going to hang some laundry out on the line even though it's pretty chilly out.
I hope that everybody has a wonderful Sunday

Hugs, xxx

**Niblet** · April 26, 2009, 09:04 AM

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we crossed posted Luv,... haa !! haaa!!
Lily is one very lucky little gal to have a mommy like you !

**cowgal** · April 27, 2009, 10:58 AM

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Hey

Not much to say here, sorta crappy weedend and so far my Monday has been less than pleasant. Did scoolwork all weekend, didn't get to ride, bugs are Horrendous! Guess I am just plain blue.....I guess blah would better fit.......

Drinking doesn't help, did on Sat ...........want to feel good again physically and mentally (cheerful or to have somthing to be happy for??)

Welcome all the new faces, an Spedteach, you are such an inspiration!!!:goodjob:

Sorry not too happy today, lots of stuff going on and can't seem to do anything right here at work, have been "yelled at" about 3 different tmes........I NEED THIS JOB!!!!!! That is the scarey part of it!

xoxoxo

Mary Anne:h:l:h

**brittzak** · April 27, 2009, 11:02 AM

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MA, I dont know how you do it. I would have had a meltdown by now. You can not be productive and learn when you are scared to death all the time.
Hope everyone had a great weekend...I am just loving all my babies...

**cowgal** · April 28, 2009, 11:03 AM

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relative

I guess the way I feel is relative to what is going on in my head and heart........ Head is busy and overwhelmed in both work and school (school is good, work is what I try to make it I guess) when the boss is in a good mood that is.......

My heart aches to be fulfilled, ride the horses, enjoy the kids........that is why I have been drinking, kids don't need me anymore (or so it feels) I am going to snap out of it today, go to the gym first time since Fri.....And then there is my AA meeting, feel loved and needed there THANK GOD!!!!!!
xoxoxo

Mary Anne

**cowgal** · April 29, 2009, 10:43 AM

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ok where is everyone?

Did I scare everyone away with my pessimism?? Things are getting better, but mostly since the weekend is only 2 days away after today.........

Homefront is still blah........thank God I have school to concentrate on!

Welcome (belated)June!:welcome:

Love and hugs........xoxoxo

Mary Anne

**brittzak** · April 29, 2009, 11:20 AM

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No MA...I am just swamped with kids and animals and work right now. Popping on on my lunch break right now. Hope everyone is well. Brit is sick with flu like symptoms so she goes to the doc at 2....dog is having eye surgery today...Zak has ball at 5:30...work is ratehr busy as well. WHEW!!! I need a wife...LMAO

**greeneyes** · April 29, 2009, 02:48 PM

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Greenie busy too! :l

**cowgal** · April 29, 2009, 04:41 PM

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busy

I am busy now, will be on line doing school stuff all night, rough day at work, tired, still not AF, not liking that, AA is not helping, but I am sure it is me............................

Off to hit the books.

lots of love,:h

TIT, check your pms!!!

MA

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