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[cowgal]

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Great LUV!

I am sooooooo happy your meetup went well as I too love meeting people from this site, it is cool isn't it??!!

Back to work, blah!!!!

MA

[greeneyes]

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Oh man!!!! I'm so envious!!! What a blast that must have been!

[cowgal]

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hi everyone!!

I wanted to say hi, haven't really seen much action here, missing everyone, I have been on the "who wants to get their ass in gear" thread lately, having fun w/ Trlgs, ruby and a few others...........not time for much else.............miss you guys, hope Nibs is ok, I know LUV and Greeney and a few other founders are doing well.............heading north and hope to see Best while in PA, then on my way back may spend a night w/ Rubywillow in GA! FUN,FUN, FUN!!!!

lots of love,:h:h

MA...............................:h:l
Off to the office soon!? YUCK!!!!

[greeneyes]

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That's going to be a great trip for you MA! Maybe you can stop by here? You could see me and Luv!

[cowgal]

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No hurry

I am no hurry, will be passing through the western of NC ( I think, don't have the map here, but will check tonight and pm you both)......... Would love nothing better than to meet you guys!!

Talk to you later tonight if I get a chance either by phone or pm!

MA

[toughintexas]

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Ya'll are as bad about posting as I am! Where are you guys???? I'll tell my "stuff" tomorrow, going to bed!

[greeneyes]

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HI MA & TIT!!!!

MA I'm around and you have my cell. I have a spare bedroom and a fold out couch and a longish couch so you're welcome to take a load off here.

TIT can't wait to hear what you've been up to!

[cowgal]

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so busy

Family stuff has had me sooooooooooo busy, the cabin really was difficult, wanted to drink soooooo badly due to the uncomfortableness of it..................mom not well, sister's kids are horrors, the cabin has been not cleaned in who knows how long, and I agreed/planned to stay for 2 nights, wanted to change to one, but had my mom dumped on me for the drive, so was held hostage there, w/ my MISERABLE (poor), well behaved may I add, kids! What a nightmare................:upset:

the rest of the trip has been trying, actually cannot wait to go home, that is how stressful, anxiety ridden, difficult this has been, family fighting over who I am spending more time with, mom wants me to "hang out w/ her", have really only spent 3 days w/ her, but that is enough, she is literally "making herself an invalid"..............won't do ANYTHING for herself, insists on being waited on hand and foot by everyone, and they all jump..................., she will be in a nursing home soon and this is sooooooooooo emotionally draining on me.................

if this was FL I would have been drunk on day 2.................only thing is I cannot buy beer or any al except at bars or state stores here, so have had time to really "think the drink through" and work through the feelings...................vented the other day too Trlgs and all on the "ass in gear" thread, sorry to do it again, but this is "where I am" we are all "going to dinner tonight", otherwise I would be on the road home right now...................

lots of love, hopefully talking to Best soon, she called and I feel sooooooooooooo badly about not calling her yet, but have been literally running all over town w/ family..............(had some fun last night at an amusement park, the kids enjoyed that, may have been the highlight of the trip for them actually)...................hasn't been all bad for them, but they told me already they don't want to do it again, so that makes me feel worse!!!

TIT, great to see you!! Miss you dearly!!! Greeneyes, I may just drive straight through and get to Tallahassee at 3 or 4 in the AM, want to get the drive over w/ ASAP................get some rest before going back to work..................oops(promised myself I would not think about that!!), that is ONE thing I am thankful for, getting away from that stress!

lots of love, hugs.............................this has been a good lesson for me, "you can never go back", is that it?!

MA:h
(that was ALOT of venting!!!!)

[greeneyes]

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Shit, I'm just sitting here shaking my head. MA I hope you leave the stress, anxiety and guilt up there. You may find once you get away from them you may feel differently and if so, you're more than welcome to stop here. You take care of yourself.

[cowgal]

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no wonder

I was talking to Best earlier, we will not get a chance to meet either, I was telling her that I left home at 18, and really never looked back..............

I may not meet up w/ anyone from this site(major bummer)due to time and having to go back to work on Mon, I may just try to drive all the way (or as much as I can) tomorrow, so I get in a little earlier on Sun (poor planning on my part in the end, all about my expectations, you know!)

Ready to go almost, went shopping for goods for the trip, got a little "me time" the kids haven't even left the room, I told them it is their choice..............they said they are beat..........we really did walk and ride rides and wear ourselves out at Kennywood yesterday....

I will keep in touch on my way back south................

lots of love,:l :h :l

MA

[toughintexas]

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I will never get caught up! MA, where are you going? I got lost! lol I have been going full blast, barely been home for the past couple of months! I think I posted that my check-up at Hopkins, for my 5 yr.'s, was a-ok, then I have been gone almost weekly since! I had been doing really pretty well, I didn't even overdo it in Baltimore, under stress for that big 5 yr. mark, and I was so proud! I got to the airport, went alone, met my friend there, had a girls big time, she went with me to the Doc, and I left the airport for home, thinking it was the first time in 5 yrs. that I was flying home, NOT hungover. I was so excited to get the all clear, it was soooo calming. I/We have been going back and forth to our home in Colorado, and I just love it there, I have been working hard getting ready for the Historical Society tour in Sept., (remind me to kick my realtor friends ass for getting me into THAT!)....lol....the weather is soooo much better there, than here in yucky hot E. Tx. too....been doing alot of biking, walking, and had friends up, and I never got plastered then either. Well, I came home this trip, was here for about 4 dys, went to visit the friends that had been in Colo. with us for the weekend, and when I got home this time.....I BLEW IT UNDER STRESS OF BEING "HOME ALONE", after spending literally weeks around people! In case anyone forgot, starting last June, after being with MA in Houston, we had a hurricane, my uncle that was like a father to me, dropped dead of a stroke, then my stepdad committed suicide, then I was assaulted here at home (thus the hating to be here part alone...), and the other thing with my daughter, ya'll all know the story! Got not a word on Mother's Day from my kids, but did hubby's....blah, blah, blah, no reasons or excuses, but I thought I had guidance from God there for awhile, remember I posted about my dream, well, it lasted for the above stressors, until last weekend. I swear, I never, ever, ever wanted to be hungover again, ever....blew that, and boy did it hurt...took me nearly 3 days to pull myself up, and get myself dusted off, talk to More2, remind myself that.....a fall isn't a failure, unless you DON'T get up....and then, spend about a day and half a night, reading the baclofen threads. That's it, I'm done, I'm starting tomorrow! Cinders, I'm sooooo proud for you! Amazing! ENUF 'bout me.....what's up? Nibs? Bird? Luv? I want the current status here, the ciff notes of everyones "doings"..... Love you guys tons and buckets! Sorry to have been AWOL, I thought I was "ok" and didn't need any "help".....WHAT A CROCK! HA HA! Has anyone heard hide nor hair from Morrison??? Lots of drop-outs here, lets pick this up again, I'm gonna need friends in this new path! I'm determined, I'm not going to have survived cancer, to die of a rubber liver! Geeezzzzzz, that's so stupid! OOXOXOXOXOX

[cowgal]

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with ya!!!!!

I feelmlike drinking sooooooooo bad right now, need all the help I can get........ I am planning to go back to the hotel and work out so I feel better, but worried that won't work!?!?

I am scared so I will call my sponsor now since I am ready to kill someone, ESP my kids.........

MA

[toughintexas]

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COWGAL, WHERE ARE YOU? You are scaring even me! LOL Seriously, what is going on????

[greeneyes]

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Your KIDS? I thought they were doing well? I left you a message, I'm home.

[cowgal]

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I am ok

Wish I never posted that, my kids were getting on my nerves so bad, was stuck in horrible traffic, I am in Pittsbugh, PA TIT, visiting family, which has been really trying !!! I am fine now, just stressing out over the drive and going home........ I KNOW what I am going home to........

Just workedout and read for an hour ......Greenie, I won't be able to call you right now as my minutes are low, I am worried about that too........... Spending a ton of $$$ always stresses me out too..... As you all can tell I am easily stressed!?!
Going to enjoy last night here, sit in hot tub for a while again, shower and read a little..... Turning in and asking for a wake up call so I can hit the road early........

That post reads as if I was drunk or something...... Typing on this iPhone is tough!!!

Love you guys, no worries....... I will keep on keeping on.......got to, right!?

Stay strong everyone, love you!!!!!

MA