SOBER OCTOBER

[SoberSoul]

SOBER OCTOBER

Hmmmm ... Reading a lot about addiction and what triggers cravings. My hubby seems to resent the time I spend with the baby. He is subtle but I feel it. Not his biological grandchild if that matters. When he was giving me the "we won't be doing this babysitting too often" speech I had a strong urge to drink... Anything. I grabbed some chocolate chips, then a coconut macaroon to comfort myself.

It made me realize that needing people's approval is a real trigger for me and a source of my insecurity. I am 57 years old and if I don't live my life for me, I will constantly relapse. Standing up for what I want has been a huge issue in our relationship. I think he can handle it, it's my problem.

I want to be available to babysit the grandchildren and will do this occasionally whether he likes it or not. Yikes. It is hard for me.

Glad everyone is still popping in. Keep up the good work everyone.

[Tom321]

SOBER OCTOBER

Sorry to hear that, Sober, but Everytime you eat a macaroon or something instead of reaching for the bottle you are coming closer to being the person your grandchild will need in their life...for guidance, for support, for all the ups and downs...you will have the answer to the question of how do I overcome this, whatever it may be, when things seem so bleak. I wish you the best, you have it In you.

SoberSoul;1570822 wrote: Hmmmm ... Reading a lot about addiction and what triggers cravings. My hubby seems to resent the time I spend with the baby. He is subtle but I feel it. Not his biological grandchild if that matters. When he was giving me the "we won't be doing this babysitting too often" speech I had a strong urge to drink... Anything. I grabbed some chocolate chips, then a coconut macaroon to comfort myself.

It made me realize that needing people's approval is a real trigger for me and a source of my insecurity. I am 57 years old and if I don't live my life for me, I will constantly relapse. Standing up for what I want has been a huge issue in our relationship. I think he can handle it, it's my problem.

I want to be available to babysit the grandchildren and will do this occasionally whether he likes it or not. Yikes. It is hard for me.

Glad everyone is still popping in. Keep up the good work everyone.

[Quakegirl]

SOBER OCTOBER

Nearly three weeks...not doing great tonight. Just want to drink. But I know I am everything except lonely hungry, angry, tired. Have a decent, if boring, dinner in the oven. Don't want to wake up hating myself tomorrow. So I will eat, and hope that I can keep remembering how great 6am at the gym feels, sober. And how much is at stake. And that if I get a couple of nights away (from tomorrow), a change (and a rest) could be as good as a rest. So long as I am not tempted, being out of town alone...
God, I want a drink

[Lizann]

SOBER OCTOBER

Aww Quake, I know how you feel. I've been struggling with cravings after five weeks. Three weeks is amazing! This will pass. Comfort food is a wonderful thing. Is there something you can to to reward yourself? I often feel better after a bowl of ice cream, a hot bath, maybe a new book or just a walk outside? Just think how your body is healing without the al. Hang in there. Please check back in and let us know you're ok. I care!

[free at last]

SOBER OCTOBER

Stay with it everyone -- even after 90 days, I have cravings but tell myself they will not last and make myself do other things, and drink lots of seltzer water and lime! Happy to report Oct remains an AF month for me.

[Lizann]

SOBER OCTOBER

Thanks for the pep talk free. I'm still AF too, 37 days and counting! Can we carry this into November. Have a food night all!

[Lizann]

SOBER OCTOBER

I meant good night!

[Quakegirl]

SOBER OCTOBER

Hi all, still sober October for me, thanks for all the encouragement and support. Three weeks today and yes, I have my eye in no-wine-november

[scottishman]

SOBER OCTOBER

i dont know why i ever drank, i feel great now and life is colourful again!

[free at last]

SOBER OCTOBER

Glad to see you all made it through the weekend. Quakegirl, we will look to you to start the AF Nov thread -- that way you'll HAVE to make it through Oct and Nov

[Nursie]

SOBER OCTOBER

Sober day again. Keep thinking about wine but pushing it away.
I'm getting more done during the day and getting a restful weekend rather than drinking my face off and being miserable Monday.
Things are looking up!

[Lizann]

SOBER OCTOBER

Just a quick check in. I'm so tired tonight. Busy doing laundry and packing. Hope you're all doing ok

Sweet dreams.

[NoraC]

SOBER OCTOBER

Liz - thinking of you!!! :l:l

Still sober here. Passed out on Saturday and fell on my face. (Stone cold sober too :H) Anyway, I'm not my usual cheery self but still wanted to check in.

Take care everyone.

[gettinitright]

SOBER OCTOBER

I'm all for joining in in November. My 42 bday is the 17th. Man Id love to bring it in sober and feeling better than I did today. Sucky Mondays are getting on my freakin nerves already.

[NoraC]

SOBER OCTOBER

My birthday is in November too!! Let's do this!!!!:l