Have been feeling like hell. Shaking, eye sight gone to hell ......blur, blur, blur. Finally decided to join the 'sensible' category of this world and go have a lot of blood checks. That did'nt freak me out because I lead a bush life here and thought it was probably a good old African doze of tick fever or typhiod!
Don't go freaking out if any of you want to come to Africa, I tend to get these things bacause I spend so much time in the bush in conditions that a normal traveller would not.
Anyway after blood checks on malaria (knew I did not have that because I know the feeling), typhoid, cholora, tick fever my doc says that she has suspected diabites for a while! Yeah right!!!!!!!! Becauce I felt so dam bad I finally agreed to the tests. Bingo!!! I know you all probably think I am a totally spoilt individual with my life out here BUT here's the deal. I've looked after myself for a long time; family,friends, lovers have relied on my strength and when they ask me how I am they know they can rely on the answer. To be frank I rely on myself too. Even when I am drunk and hate myself I know that it is me that will pick myself up! Only I can either do it or not, though I have to admit that MWO is something I thank God for finding.
I lost a Grand Father, my step father, step mum (who brought me up with Dad and literally saved my life) to cancer and now my maturnal mother (who is the strongest person I've ever met in this world and I respect highly even though she nearly killed me as a baby and screwed me up only a few years back after so many years of having got to know each other..............all over a hang up/jelousy because Dad had the money to give me a good education and my step Mum, who incidently made sure we met) has a short time to go with the same desease. I flew back to UK and sat beside her bed in ICU last August whilst all the doctors said she had no chance after 4, 5 ops in UK and 4 unsuccessful ops in Kenya. Well she is still going strong (relatively speaking) although the cancer has now gone into her spine. Flis is now staying in the UK with my younger sis and has 6 months maxs to go. The thing about Flis (thats my maturnal mums name..short for Felicity) is that she intends to enjoy every last moment she has and I am just amazed at her strength. She's flown to spain on morphine to meet an old Kenyan friend who has resettled and she will go back next week. My younger half sister has had to put up with a lot, looking after her whilst at the same time helping her husband who has gone bank robbed. This is the same little sister who had her nose broken by Flis, nearly got run over by Flis who in a rage tried to run over in her jeep when drunk in rage and.... so the story goes. Flis did some very awful things to me too (I have no intention of going down that road telling you all) .... but you know what, she is still a very gifted person (a writer by profession) and she has a strength that is incrediable.
Anyway you know what this whole thread is about. I don't mind giving myself stiches, getting scorpian bites and a s...t load of other probs in the bush BUT I AM NOT GOING TO PUT UP WITH THIS SHIT ABOUT DIABITES. I understand you all getting mad and thinking I am totally out of order .... but hell thats the way I tock!
Don't go freaking out if any of you want to come to Africa, I tend to get these things bacause I spend so much time in the bush in conditions that a normal traveller would not.
Anyway after blood checks on malaria (knew I did not have that because I know the feeling), typhoid, cholora, tick fever my doc says that she has suspected diabites for a while! Yeah right!!!!!!!! Becauce I felt so dam bad I finally agreed to the tests. Bingo!!! I know you all probably think I am a totally spoilt individual with my life out here BUT here's the deal. I've looked after myself for a long time; family,friends, lovers have relied on my strength and when they ask me how I am they know they can rely on the answer. To be frank I rely on myself too. Even when I am drunk and hate myself I know that it is me that will pick myself up! Only I can either do it or not, though I have to admit that MWO is something I thank God for finding.
I lost a Grand Father, my step father, step mum (who brought me up with Dad and literally saved my life) to cancer and now my maturnal mother (who is the strongest person I've ever met in this world and I respect highly even though she nearly killed me as a baby and screwed me up only a few years back after so many years of having got to know each other..............all over a hang up/jelousy because Dad had the money to give me a good education and my step Mum, who incidently made sure we met) has a short time to go with the same desease. I flew back to UK and sat beside her bed in ICU last August whilst all the doctors said she had no chance after 4, 5 ops in UK and 4 unsuccessful ops in Kenya. Well she is still going strong (relatively speaking) although the cancer has now gone into her spine. Flis is now staying in the UK with my younger sis and has 6 months maxs to go. The thing about Flis (thats my maturnal mums name..short for Felicity) is that she intends to enjoy every last moment she has and I am just amazed at her strength. She's flown to spain on morphine to meet an old Kenyan friend who has resettled and she will go back next week. My younger half sister has had to put up with a lot, looking after her whilst at the same time helping her husband who has gone bank robbed. This is the same little sister who had her nose broken by Flis, nearly got run over by Flis who in a rage tried to run over in her jeep when drunk in rage and.... so the story goes. Flis did some very awful things to me too (I have no intention of going down that road telling you all) .... but you know what, she is still a very gifted person (a writer by profession) and she has a strength that is incrediable.
Anyway you know what this whole thread is about. I don't mind giving myself stiches, getting scorpian bites and a s...t load of other probs in the bush BUT I AM NOT GOING TO PUT UP WITH THIS SHIT ABOUT DIABITES. I understand you all getting mad and thinking I am totally out of order .... but hell thats the way I tock!
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