Heartbroken and sucking up my pride.

[NoraC]

Heartbroken and sucking up my pride.

FD - glad that you have made a plan. Sounds good. Get some rest and make sure you TTDP!!!!

[finallydone]

Heartbroken and sucking up my pride.

NoraC;1565363 wrote: FD - glad that you have made a plan. Sounds good. Get some rest and make sure you TTDP!!!!

I will thank you sweetie!!

[available]

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FD sorry to hear about your little binge shall we say but you came back here and i think the hardest part is admitting to everyone you fell off the wagon. Thats what keeps me going to not drink - the repercussions. Try not to think that the next few years will be hard just do one day at a time, that is all we do. If i dwelled on never drinking again i would drink. The thought does my head in even though i know i cant moderate and i cant drink. I dont know why it does my head in but i suppose it is like any addiction, we always want what we cant have.

I hope you feel better soon and mend some of those bridges.

[spiderwoman]

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Time to be selfish Finally, it doesn't matter what anybody else thinks, says or does this is for you. My OH is only just starting to treat me normally again, and it'll be 10 months soon since I've had a drink. I didn't stop for him, this was just for me. You can't undo your slip back, no more than I can undo the ice cream and chocolate cake last night when I want to lose weight, but you shouldn't beat yourself up about it, you're back, and you've a plan and the determination to stick to it. By Christmas comes you'll have over 2 months AF time to be proud of. Getting here is what keeps me on track, often I don't post but a daily visit is essential, even if its a quick look on my phone.

Be nice to yourself for now and concentrate only on staying sober.

[noodle]

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Hi FD, you sound so down, and I truely hope you bounce back, it sounds as though you have given recovery your best shot. I just wanted to say Hi, and that although you are reaching out for help, your story has given me hope and inspiration, so thanks for that. I've been on and off this merry go round so many times, though not achieved anything close to your achievements. Your attitude does sound strong, I'm sure you will succeed, and this is just a minor blip, maybe assuring you that your new path is indeed the only one now for you. Wishing you peace and strength x:h

[Darkest Diamond]

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You can do it, you are really determined, you have a plan. AA can help, go to the meetings you find most inspirational, cherry pick them for you. For me some face to face contact with all of this is vital. Keep posting.

[Guitarista]

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Good to see you choosing to get back on the horse buddy.

Go for it, and do what you have to do. Whatever works for you.

G bloke.

[K9Lover]

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I know you can do this...and I'll never give up on you, but more importantly, I hope you never give up on yourself! :h

[finallydone]

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Thank you everyone for picking this old dog back up. Today has been AWESOME!

[Lizann]

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FD - what June said made me laugh, it's so true. Look who you're talking to. I can say personally I have embarrassed myself, more time than I care to admit. What I do now is what counts. Push ahead. We're here to help and support. This is a matter of life and death. Hang in, OK?

[finallydone]

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Lizann;1565747 wrote: FD - what June said made me laugh, it's so true. Look who you're talking to. I can say personally I have embarrassed myself, more time than I care to admit. What I do now is what counts. Push ahead. We're here to help and support. This is a matter of life and death. Hang in, OK?

Lizann! I am hanging in there. I feel reborn. As bad as this weekend was. Something changed in me. I have no idea what it is but wow. I feel great. I am holding on to this. And moving forward. I am very excited about life. Very!

[Kradle123]

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I don't know FD...I think this guy gave some really damn good advice...

finallydone;1558378 wrote: Eating my lunch on work break and wanted to post some thoughts I had this morning. I am not sure if this is in the toolbox but if it's not this a great read. My Reclaimed Life - Alcohol: The Last Drink

I also wanted to state a little of my drinking history to not scare people but to realize how destructive drinking is. I started drinking at the age of 19. Between 19 and 24 I drank maybe once a month. For a full year and a half I didn't drink at all. About 24 I started to drink more often. Maybe 4 to 6 beers a few times a week. By the age of 25 I drinking 6 beers everyday. Fast forward to my 30's. I was drinking at least 6 to 15 beers everyday. With about 2 years of sobriety mixed in. What has been the result of this all? I will list them.

1. 22 days in jail for a DUI.
2. Many failed friendships and relationships.
3. Loss of self-confidence and sprituality.
4. Too many jobs losses to count.
5. Health problems were becoming obvious. Bad stomach and was having issues with my liver. Thankfully my liver issues are not to late yet.
6. 3 stints in rehab and one of them was court ordered.
7. If I get in trouble again over AL use I am facing a possible civil commitment. Yes that's right I could be locked in a mental ward or a very long term stay in a rehab facility and half way house.

Why I am saying this? Because AL destroys lives. It will take everything you have and than kill you in the end. I believe accidents and suicide kill most ALer's outside of withdrawl which is no laughing matter. Or if we keep drinking our livers will give us the finger and we end up with cirrohsis which from what I hear is one terrible way to die. I remember this guy who was about 55 and he turned yellow from years of heavy drinking. He had cirrohsis of the liver. He by some miracle lasted two more years all of them sober. I heard yesterday he died. From what I understand though was the last two years of his life were his best ever. Let's make the rest of our lives our best and let's do them sober. Thanks everyone! Hope you are all having a wonderful day!

FINALLY, you are one of the BedRocks of MWO...like it or not...:l

..and where's the fish?

[finallydone]

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Kradle123;1565751 wrote: I don't know FD...I think this guy gave some really damn good advice...



FINALLY, you are one of the BedRocks of MWO...like it or not...:l

..and where's the fish?

I like that guy Kradle!

[Lizann]

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Ah FD you are sounding much better. Good for you. Have a great sober day.

[Kradle123]

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finallydone;1565752 wrote: I like that guy Kradle!

ME TOO!!! :l
:h