I joined yesterday, was full of great intentions then still somehow managed to drink maybe 7/8 of a bottle of wine (important to note that I tell myself I didn't actually finish it, pretty pathetic eh), fell asleep on the couch, woke up at midnight,,,,,,,. Now, here I am again, wracked with guilt, I am just so tired of it that I am done. I need your help I will come here every day, please help me through this I have tried before but never get beyond 2 weeks AF. I am not sure if I want to stop for ever but I cannot have a single glass of wine unless my poor husband is watching me like a hawk and then I resent that focus and get pissed off at him for watching me. Problem is he can see "it" in me so even when I think I am doing a good job of hiding it he can see it, a little paranoid, do ya think!!
I want to be Happy2be just me without the crutch, some folks say if you envision a brighter future then that's what you'll get, so that's what I'm trying. I have no excuses, my life should be great, I have a wonderful loving, patient family who don't deserve this crap...please help me to be happy to just be me. :new:
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