Last night my wife had organized a ladies night to go have dinner...her mom, daughter, sister, son-in laws mother etc...
I then was assigned to watch my father-in-law... I brought home fried chicken, etc.
Well one thing he has had for the last 50 plus years is a martini (my poison of choice) before dinner... Well I have not had a drink in the last 80 or so days...but...
when I got his glass, put the ice in it....put an olive in it...walked over to the booze cabinet....poured the vermouth..(my whole being began to tremble with wanting this drink)...
I slowly poured the Vodka over the ice...the smell came up, and went straight to my brain...I stood there, looking at this drink...
I thought well my intent was to moderate...which I have not tried yet. I have been AF...should I make me one of these and join him in a drink?
I'll just take a sip, swirl this around my tongue... that would not hurt would it?
I took the drink to him, made myself a big ice water...but wow... how easily I could see myself back to sucking down a half bottle of vodka..it was scary...one little decision can change everything..this time I resisted...not sure how...
At this point I am afraid to try to moderate...I know in the end the alcohol will hurt me...
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