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    Hello all... just have to share this...

    Last night my wife had organized a ladies night to go have dinner...her mom, daughter, sister, son-in laws mother etc...

    I then was assigned to watch my father-in-law... I brought home fried chicken, etc.

    Well one thing he has had for the last 50 plus years is a martini (my poison of choice) before dinner... Well I have not had a drink in the last 80 or so days...but...

    when I got his glass, put the ice in it....put an olive in it...walked over to the booze cabinet....poured the vermouth..(my whole being began to tremble with wanting this drink)...

    I slowly poured the Vodka over the ice...the smell came up, and went straight to my brain...I stood there, looking at this drink...

    I thought well my intent was to moderate...which I have not tried yet. I have been AF...should I make me one of these and join him in a drink?
    I'll just take a sip, swirl this around my tongue... that would not hurt would it?

    I took the drink to him, made myself a big ice water...but wow... how easily I could see myself back to sucking down a half bottle of vodka..it was scary...one little decision can change everything..this time I resisted...not sure how...

    At this point I am afraid to try to moderate...I know in the end the alcohol will hurt me...
    Control the Mind

    #2
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    Wow Rocky - powerful story. Good for you for recognizing that you are good where you are. I am very impressed.
    Good on ya
    Jen
    Over 4 months AF :h

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      #3
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      Rocky,
      :goodjob:
      I think in this case "fear" is a good thing.
      It is so hard when alcohol is in the area, isn't it?

      You have "Power" in you that the world does not know of.
      Keep trusting in your Power.

      :h Nancy
      "Be still and know that I am God"

      Psalm 46:10

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        #4
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        Rocky, tremendous job in the face of such temptation - not sure I could have done it.

        You're right, it can be the littlest things that start the ball rolling. Add it to your arsenal so that the next time the situation arises you have a gameplan for dealing with it and maybe the temptation won't be so strong.

        Congrats, my friend....
        Sobriety Date: June 15, 2007 -- "It's not having what you want, It's wanting what you've got...."

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          #5
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          Rocky, wow ....... you did sooo well,

          You have such a wonderful way of expressing yourself too .....
          sigpicXXX

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            #6
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            Rocky - 80 days or so - you are my hero - I aspire to be like you. Well done - I love the Dry Martini myself and I could smell the Vodka as I read your post.

            BUT is it worth it - the hard times that you went through NO - you did it and you will continue to do it, you are my hero.:bow
            Though no one can go back and make a brand-new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand-new ending

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              #7
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              Good Job my friend, it is hard in particular if it's your bevage of choice. Vodka neat/chardonnay is mine. But you did well and good for you taking care of the FIL so the ladies could have an evning out. You did a very kind deed right there.
              Smiles
              mary

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                #8
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                Good for you! I don't know if I could have been so strong... WTG Rocky!

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                  #9
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                  Way to go Rocky! That sort of inner determination and critical thinking are amazing in the face of such a powerful temptation. I think a fear of something that poisons you, robs you of time and health, and changes the way you think is a good healthy fear! I was just reading an article today about habits-the longer you are AF, the more ingrained the *habit* is of being AF. That is the sort of habit to encourage!
                  Life itself is the proper binge. Julia Child

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                    #10
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                    Way to go, Rocky! I remember when you first started - you are an inspiration!!

                    That's a good reminder to all of us - just get through the "moments" and all of the sudden, we'll be looking at day 80!!

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                      #11
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                      Bravo Rocky! Can't say I could have done the same. Sounds like you went through a real thought process instead of choosing the instant gratification route. Well done!!
                      I'm really easy to get along with once people learn to worship me

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                        #12
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                        You rock Rock!
                        Mike, you know there is a new Rocky movie out on DVD? Not bad really!

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                          #13
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                          Fanatastic Rocky.. enjoys your posts..i,m trying mods at the moment after 45 days AF...lets see as its my night out tonight ..with the plan of 3 glasses of wine.have stopped drinking at home..lets see if i end up in a mess...hope not.


                          went on holiday and managed to share a bottle of wine with hubby and go home satisfied..didnt do the usual nightcap stuff. since back from holiday . 4 days AF...trying to see if i can have 2-3 when i go out socially for a meal only?

                          if it doesnt work out i will be joining the AF 30 days group on here tomorrow as wont allow myself to start the big mess again!!

                          Well done and off for a walk and a prayer before i go out...wish me luck.

                          Just not ready to go totally AF yet.....probably will have to sometime soon though..

                          i hold on to the amazing amount of AF days i have had since getting support from here...it feels GREAT!!


                          Once again well done Rocky and i will try and think of you after my goal ogf 3 drinks and order the coffee....

                          Regards Cassy

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                            #14
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                            Hey Rocky, Good Job!! :wd: You have been such an encouragement and now you are doing it again. A lot of us know, because you have shared with us, where you get your strength. Keep relying on the source of that strength. Thanks for sharing your story. A good example for all of us. Liz
                            :heart: Eliziby :heart:

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                              #15
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                              Hi Rocky,

                              I really enjoy reading your insights as they so often echo what I've felt but can't verbalise - thank you for this one as it expresses so clearly this inner battle we are faced with - many congratulations on the decision you managed to make - having faced it so head on and thought it through, hopefully now you'll be better armed next time and therefore find it that little easier? I question that, actually, as I find that some days I could be faced with a drinking situation and not be phased by it whereas other days exactly the same situation will be a battle - I suppose it's learning to recognise the 'danger' signs when we're more vulnerable?? Anyway, great job, keep it up and many thanks for sharing!

                              And Cassy, - great job on all your AF days and good luck now with moderation. I know I'm not in a place to go that route yet so I really hope it works out for you! I like the back-up plan though - you've done so well to get so far that it's good to have the determination to put the breaks on again if it doesn't go as planned - good for you!

                              Warmest wishes to all :l
                              :rays: Arial

                              Last first day - 15th April 2012
                              Goals:
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