Sat Here Sobbing

[existence]

Sat Here Sobbing

thank you betty :l

[stiff one]

Sat Here Sobbing

Hey girl,
I'm not one for advice but, grab a pen sit down and say what you said here! Just open your heart and be honest. Tell her how much you love her and that this is'nt working for you any more. If she is 3000 miles away she would be considered where I come from (Southern California) as G U D, or geographically un desireable. I know, the heart knoweth not. I wish you well and if you can stay off the jiuce you can make it on your own or anything else you can dream!
luv,
Me

[existence]

Sat Here Sobbing

thank you Stiff One...Kristina seems to be a bigger battle then fight the booze...

[sickofit]

Sat Here Sobbing

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Hi existence, go with your gut feeling it is always the best.....on reading the other posts sounds to me like you are committed and she is ??? no phone contact in a long distance relationship brings questions to my mind, how is it suppose to work if you can't talk to her. I'm definitely not one to give advice on relationship as I have had so many bad ones but I now have a great one (I thought that I would never have it) and this stuff just doesn't happen. You deserve GOOD. Hope this is not reading to be mean, not meant to.

:h

[existence]

Sat Here Sobbing

the only contact we really have with one another is over the internet on calls on Skype, MSN or GoogleTalk...i agree looking back now...it makes me think how she treats me, that it may be worth leaving and finding a good woman who loves me here. i think i have stuck with her for so long because i feel like noone will love me, i have had two people in love with me my Ex (who died) and Kristina...i think she has affected me worse then the death of my ex...i do love her and i know she loves me...and i don't WANT to have to leave her, but i have a feeling that soon i am going to have to, arent i?

[sickofit]

Sat Here Sobbing

distance

sometimes the pain of staying in it is worse that leaving it, may hurt short term but long term will you be better off ? The distance shouldn't matter it's what you feel in your heart that matters, is it that she cares for you and your well being ? if not find someone that does cares again you deserve it.

[tea]

Sat Here Sobbing

Hi Hon, I am just picking up on old threads here and may have missed some....Is this an internet love affair???? have you met in the flesh Kristina?? Ahh really feel for you if this is the 'real' thing for you...but honestly Hon, .... there have been soooo many 'real' things for me.... Guess I am (as I have overheard) just a ' hard bitten old boot'.. fine by me......... I am a rock, I am an island..... and a rock feels no pain, and an island never cries.......I have my books, and my poetry to protect me... I am shielded in my armour.... I have no need of friendship .. friendship causes pain, it's laughter... its loving... I destain ... I am a rock, I am an island............... Lorna xx

[existence]

Sat Here Sobbing

met Kristina over a year ago now when she was in Englandfor a few weeks...then she was going back to Canada and the relationship carried on. and i do love her. my mate once made a point to me "have you felt her breath on the back of your neck as you sleep together?" honest answer? no i haven't...the other night a friend came over and she slept in bed with me and we cuddled up andi could feel her breathing on my neck...that is what i want and i knew from that minute that my mate as right...i have one of three choices

1) i move to Canada (very very costly and i am unsure as to whether i would get in)
2) She's moves to England (she can do it as she has joint citizenship cos her father is british but she will not leave her pet behind)
3) we end it...

not three amazing options really...

i need help i feel like i am banging my head on a brick wall and behind me is another one so when i pull my head back i hit that too!

[stiff one]

Sat Here Sobbing

Exist,
If I were gay I'd be all over you! There must be millions more people in the world who feel the same way. There are many some ones for every one. a speaker Tony Robins once said ... Get that person out of the way and make room for the right person who can't come in cas theres no room! Loose translation but I think you get my drift.
Another one is can't see the forest through the trees. Some times we are so in love we are wearing blinders. You said you thought she was taking advantage? Hope I don't affend,
but it's sometimes easier to see a situation if your not so close.
Me

[existence]

Sat Here Sobbing

i know your right Stiff One, i am terrified when she comes back online cos i have no clue how she is gonna be with me. i need to end this and i know it but i am too afraid to do it...

thank you Stiff One, you really are a great person :l

[Popeye]

Sat Here Sobbing

Hello Kel,
I wish you well.

[Wattle]

Sat Here Sobbing

Hi Kel

Think about it for a second.... what are the most wonderful and delishes aspects of a relationship to you... no-one else desires... just yours... write the list and the list will give you the answer..

I'll start you off:

1. I miss the soft breath on the back of my neck at night when my partner lies next to me...
2.
3.
4.

Are you getting all those things you desire from this relationship? You can only answer that one mate...

While you work it out... big hugs...

Wattle

[cassy]

Sat Here Sobbing

Hi Existence...sad as it is maybe now is a time of some big positive changes in your life..you have said you want to change with the drinking thing, then that awful hand injury.
can hearwhat a horrible time this is for you right now BUT why not look around you to see where you can get support...on here..do you have any friends you trust locally.

I,ve had many friends who did internet dating /chat stuff etc.,,, its hard to sustain.

you have to be honest with yourself..are you clinging out of fear of being alone???

Fear of the unknown and change as we all know on this site can produce some really anxious and fearful times!!!

Sounds like its time to move on..????????

why not do some nice stuff for yourself..join something, take up a hobby...whatever.

Maybe leave it for a goal of a week and see if she contacts you first???

Dont rush in...........plan your week without contacting her..seriously..some times emotionally we need to stand on our own for a period of times to get some perspective on things.

whatever you decide ..keep posting .
hope you still feel lovable...keep believing in yourseldf as a good enough person.

Try not to pop the cork....go take a bubbly bath or go walk, swim, anything to make you feel good about who you are as a person. Its hard not to depend on others to create your happiness.

But deep down we know the source of happiness is within ourselves dont we???????


good Luck this week...thinking of you ...Cassy

[existence]

Sat Here Sobbing

thank you guys...and Wattle

1)i miss the soft breath on the back of my neck as my partner lies beside me
2)i miss being able to wake up in the morning and softly kiss my partner before climbing out of bed and going to work
3)i miss being able to come home from a bad days work and just talk it over while cuddling up
4)i miss the company and warmth from a lover/partner

Kristina is back online...i am so scared

[existence]

Sat Here Sobbing

i have sent her a message half informing of where i will be when she wakes up..i know i will be in bed cos of my bad tummy today. i have noticed i am avoiding saying "i love you" or simply "love you"

i think i need to know where i stand before i can do that... but i am still bricking it about what to say to her if and when she calls.