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[paulywogg]

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Aww,she is precious Sunshine! congratulations

[frances]

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Congratulations!!

[sunshine_gg]

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Thank you, peeps

I know I haven't been around much and won't be for a couple of weeks yet. To be honest, I've just been coping, that's about it. With the junior, with the wait on the baby, and the upcoming trip to deal with my dad's estate.

Unfortunately, it looks like I will also have to deal with some family drama. I got REAMED out yesterday on the phone by my uncle.. for taking so long to come, and for only staying 2 weeks. He expected me to stay until the end of May to see everything through. Both, my aunt and uncle are exhausted, frustrated (because much of what needs to be done, they cannot do without me), and they sank their own money in to pay the bills. So, there will definitely be some unpleasantries. Oh well.

It is somewhat interesting though, that while my first gut reaction was outrage and anger, what I'm learning through AA makes me now stop and turn things around to see it from the other party's perspective. My aunt and uncle are both retired... so the notion of having to work to survive is probably no longer on the fore front for them. They also don't have children. So, they cannot be expected to understand 1. the worry of a mother about her daughter giving birth, nor 2. what it's like to have and infant and a toddler without a support system at home.

I am terribly sorry that things turned out the way they did and my aunt and uncle have had to deal with the aftermath of my dad's passing by themselves. Hind sight is always 20/20. Had I known the little princess would take her sweet time like this, I would have travelled to Germany first. However, with the information I had (from the doctors), I made the best and only decision possible at the time. I do not regret that.

The other thing (although, I probably shouldn't say that to them) is, that all of what they have done and what I will be doing is bureaucratic and money bs. It is not about a living person. It isn't even about a dead person. It's about 'stuff'. I don't care much for 'stuff'. I care about helping someone, make their life a little easier.

Of course, now it's time to make my aunt and uncle's life easier. I will do my best to do so.

So, if I seem to be MIA for a while, don't worry. I'm still AF... I will celebrate my 6 months next week while away. I have made contact with AA in Germany and hopefully will get to a meeting or two.

Take care everyone, protect your own sobriety, and thank you for all your support.
:l

[K9Lover]

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Love you Sunni Butt! :h:h
Congrats on the new baby! I love her name :l

[Pavati]

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Congratulations! Seems like two week's extra cooking time helped make her perfect...

Sorry about your Uncle, but I love your spin on it. It must be scary for them. I have also realized that sometimes I can't live up to others' expectations (that was scary for me), and ALSO sometimes I misinterpret others' expectations.

Anyway - have a good trip - I hope it is ok.

xo
Pav

[sunshine_gg]

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Thank you ladies.
New obstacle... our supposedly confirmed flight are apparently... not.
Scrambling for alternatives to get out of here tomorrow. Wish me luck.

[sunshine_gg]

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One day left in Germany... have accomplished some but far from all items on my list. The big one (banks) is still hanging in limbo.

Very frustrated, tired, and wish this was all a bad dream. Have been so busy - no time for an AA meeting. Most nights I'm at it until 1am.

Going home the day after tomorrow. I want nothing more than get out of here, but feel just awful for still leaving so much left behind undone

Sorry, just needed to vent.

[sunshine_gg]

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The trip from hell.
35 1/2 hours from boarding the first flight until touching down at the last airport. Minus luggage. Cabbed it to my daughters (because 'home' was still 2 1/2 hours away) and received my bags later in the afternoon. One suitcase completely wrecked, both suitcases and their contents sopping wet. Important papers and all.

Still sober. And for that, I am grateful.

[FlyAway]

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Sunni I missed sweet Audrey's arrival. She is so precious!

Life can be so frustrating, handing us one thing after another. And drinking doesn't make it any better or easier. You did it! You are amazingly strong. Congratulations on your 6+ months sober.

[sunshine_gg]

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Thanks, Fly

I'm glad to be home. That is all.

[SoberSoul]

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Well Sunni, you have really been through the wringer. I will never forget you for offering to mentor me in my sobriety a few months ago. You have proven that you can stay sober through the worst of it and the best of it referring to the lovely beauty who has finally made her presence.

In time everything will be sorted out. I've been in family situations involving drugged, missing daughter, financial chaos, anger coming at me from all directions and I KNEW the issues were unresolvable and now a few years later, I can't remember how or when everything became ok but it just happened action by action. This too shall pass.

You are still my hero.

[sunshine_gg]

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:l Thank you, SS
I'm nobody's hero, though. Just clumsily muddling my way through like everyone else.

I actually got some stuff accomplished today and spent the last 4 1/2 hours at the barn - cleaning up flower beds, preparing the garden plot, snuggling with my boys. I feel almost human again

[Rusty]

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You are my heroine, too...Sunni!:l:h Welcome home, dear friend. I just got to Detroit for work but I am hoping we can talk sometime this week. I want to hear all about your trip, ya know, hey?:H

[sunshine_gg]

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Hey Crusty Redlocks and Golly Miss Molly :hallo:

Just came home from a large AA meeting... needed it. Starting to ease into normal life (whatever that is). Miss Rusty... let me know when you're home and we'll catch up

Night folksies and thank you for being here.

[Rusty]

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GG-I will be home this Thursday night....otherwise i might try to
Call you either on the way to the airport or on the way home tomorrow.

Looking forward to catching up.


Big hellos from Michigan'