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[sunshine_gg]

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Just came home from a lovely dinner at my son's place. Hard to believe, the kid I wouldn't dare let near the stove now cooks! :H He made awesome ribs, mashed taters and carrots.. very yummy. And, nobody drank. Perfect.

Landen-pants (grand peanut #2) was in an extraordinarily cuddly mood.. also perfect

Before we left, I took my son aside outside for a moment and told him about my recent venture into AA. He wondered whether that was really necessary but I assured him, it was. Then, he breathed a big sigh of relief and said: "Geez.. I was afraid you'd tell me you're sick or something."

All in all a good day.

Hope the same for everyone else!

[propartychief]

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SunnyButt!!!
SOOOOOOOOOO Happy to hear thing are going well for you!
I do miss my chat friends but I never come to this site much anymore.(although I do "lurk" at times)
I really am happy for you!!BUT.................. If "Mr.Wonderful" becomes "Mr.SoSo" give me a hollar I am willing to see what I can do!!! LOL (just kidding) Ooooppss Not really!!!

MUCH LOVE BABY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bob

[K9Lover]

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Hi Sunni G!
How is everything going? Haven't "heard" from you in a couple days so I'm just checkin' on ya! Hope you're well! How are the grand-peanuts doing?

p.s. HI BOB!!

[sunshine_gg]

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Hey Studley! And Niners! :hallo:

All is well.. just been a crazy week, here.
I was gone Tues and Wednesday... Thursday the power was more off than on, yesterday I was running like mad, cooking, baking, cleaning (oh.. and that pesky thing called work on the side) and by evening we had (almost) the whole family here. 'Kids' from between 2 to 7 hours away arrived and we had a great dinner. This was sort of our Christmas dinner, since we won't all be together again for a while.

Hence, my long absence. I even had to ditch 2 AA meetings... definitely planning on attending Monday night, though.

Well.. Peanut is watching Thomas the engine next to me... going to see if his mom has awoken from her nap yet Be well, everyone!

:l

[techie]

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Hello gorgeous. Hope all is well.

[Guitarista]

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Yo GG! Greetings everyone.

Wishing you a safe, sober and magical week friend.

G bloke.

[sunshine_gg]

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techie;1596095 wrote: Hello gorgeous. Hope all is well.

'Tis indeed! Thank you dahhling
Hello Hope and G-man :hallo:

[sunshine_gg]

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Wow - had an awesome meeting with the women's group! It went on for over 2 hours.

It felt really overdue, too. I hadn't been to a meeting in over a week. Last Wednesday, I got home too late from 2-day big city adventure (uggh!), Friday I had 4 "kids" and Peanut here for dinner and Monday's meeting was a no-go due to power outage (again!).

I've had some fleeting drinking thoughts over the past couple of weeks. They were short lived, but I need to pay attention, regardless. Thankfully, I'm so busy with work right now, that drinking really wouldn't be an option, even if I were inclined to give in to such thoughts.

So, I will keep plugging along and try to make time for this journal and some reading, etc. when I can.

Hope everyone is well! :l

[NoraC]

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So glad that you had a good meeting. Yes - those thoughts keep sneaking in don't they? Good job on pushing them right on out. I've been doing the same thing. :h

[sunshine_gg]

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Yes - those thoughts keep sneaking in don't they? Good job on pushing them right on out. I've been doing the same thing.

YOU, my dear... have done more than push them nasty thoughts out... you have pulverized them over the last 100 days!!! Well done, Nora... I'm so proud and happy for you.

Just got home from another meeting (New Hope Group). I wasn't even sure if I'd make it tonight... I'm effectively snowed in. Which is really silly because I have a big ass 4x4 truck... errrmmm... which I cannot get into 4-wheel drive :H It works wonderfully when it works but when the 4x4 shift stick thingie is stuck, it's pretty useless. Thankfully, (let's see if we can get these family relations straight) Mr. Sun's first wife's third hubby/partner came to my rescue and picked me up He also chaired the meeting tonight. So, all is well.

Still up to my eye balls in work.. so there's little time for anything else. Will try to pick this up more regularly when things slow down a bit. Over and out.

[sunshine_gg]

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I'm getting the feeling that I'm not very good at journalling.

A paragraph a week probably doesn't qualify. Hopefully, there'll be more time after the holidays. Which I'm so dreading. Kids are at odd's ends again, creating drama and stress I really don't need :upset:

Even had some stinkin drinkin thoughts - old 'coping' mechanisms, I suppose. However, I'm quite determined to pass the 2 months mark next week. Come hell or high water. Or semi-adult kids. Sigh.

The serenity prayer comes to mind.... give me the serenity to accept the kids I cannot kill..
:H

[sunshine_gg]

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Thanks Mollers (btw... with how work is going right now, I don't think I'll be able to swing a trip to the big smoke) :upset:

Well, it looks as if my son and his family will not attend Christmas day/dinner because my son feels he cannot get along with the person my daughter is bringing. My first instinct was to tell her to not bring her friend - but really, that just puts me forever at the mercy of my very immature children. This is MY HOUSE (well, no, it's Mr. Sun's). Traditionally, all are welcome.

My family relations (kids and myself) have somehow turned into something very different than what I wanted or envisioned. And, perhaps, right there lays the problem. My expectations. Just because I want something to be a certain way, does not mean it will be.

[sunshine_gg]

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:l Thank you, Molly.

You know... I was really stressed and upset and hurt and all sorts of unpleasant things yesterday... but I'm actually quite a peace now. I'm taking a stand, I'm opening the door for any of my kids and their assorted companions and I'll be happy to see them. And, if I don't see them on Christmas day, I will see them the day after or the day after that.

This is how I chose to have Christmas and they are free to make their own choices. I will not harbour any ill feelings, either way. I actually feel as if I have grown just a little today. That's a good thing. I think. It feels right.

That's it... gonna try to get in more than 4 hours of sleep for a change

Ohhh... and May sounds fabulous!! Much better on so many levels! Thanks for listening :l

[byebyebridgetjones]

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Good on you Sunny.
No sense in trying to control the uncontrollable.
That's a recipe for....well....drinking really.
Enjoy your Christmas and let them take responsibility for theirs.

[sunshine_gg]

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Thanks, Bridge.
That's exactly what I plan on doing
You have an awesome Christmas yourself!