I was always sceptical, being an atheist I thought AA was a religious thing and I wanted no part of that. I had a couple of friends on this site who promoted it to me, but I always pooh poohed it. I think I was in denial.
I had 90 odd days of sobriety behind me when I fell. And boy, I don't do things by halves. AL had me in such a state. MWO is great, but time difference between different countries and continents means you can reach out and not get a reply for hours.
I was on my knees, literally when I finally called AA. I was desperate. I was promised a call back within five minutes and I got it. A lovely lady talked to me, I was drunk, she listened. She listened and understood because she had been there.
We arranged to meet the next day to go to a meeting. Six weeks ago, I remember it so well. I was rattling, shaking so badly but immediately was surrounded by care .No judgement. I have been going to meetings ever since.
I have heard a lot, and listened, and learned. Age means nothing in AA. I have heard 25 year olds share their experience, and I envy them. Getting it so early.
I haven't embarked on the twelve step programme yet, but I have stepped up and admitted in a room full of people that I am indeed, an alcoholic.
One of the ladies I am friendly with describes it as finding her lost tribe. There is nothing to fear about AA, if you are honest and want to be sober.
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